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basket case— - Rohan - 08-09-2016 r o h a n, RE: basket case— - Alysanne - 08-10-2016 we heal with love, So much had happened at the herd meeting that Alysanne, showing her true worth as a queen, forgot some of the announcements that didn’t have to do with her or the healers. She remembered beaming with joy when Lyanna was promoted to Moon Doctor in her stead - her head swimming with the other announcements. And then when the shouting had started, all other matters had ceased to draw her attention. Not a great start at her new rank, surely. All she seemed to be doing lately was wander the Edge, both seeking and avoiding distractions from her thoughts. How one mind could find so much to worry about without imploding baffled her - but then, maybe she was closer to destruction than she realized. An endless loop of concerns played as she walked, finding herself quite suddenly with a distraction when she looked up and discovered she was near the cliffs and no longer alone. “Rohan?” She honestly didn’t know why the end of his name went up in pitch, turning it into a question. The pegasus knew it was him, recognizing him from meetings and from their brief conversation in the Thistle Meadow when she had discovered the warrior was pleasant company. Was she asking if she could join him? That seemed a lot to tack onto two syllables. Aly was always reminded how much she hated these cliffs at moments like this - when she saw someone without wings standing there, so close to the dangerous edge. In all her time here, she did not remember hearing of anyone falling but that hardly took away the possibility. Thankfully, the antlered stallion looked more pensive than suicidal as he stood there though that hardly quelled Alysanne’s fears - after all, how would she know? She just admitted they barely knew each other. She moved forward, picking her way over until she stood off to his left side - her green eyes on him instead of the turbulent waters below. Having learned her lesson with Mauja on how quickly the offer of jumping in after someone could backfire on her, she kept that little opening line in the back of her mind and instead asked exactly what she wanted to know: “Are you alright?” Her eyes showed her concern and she hoped the words were light and unobtrusive as the salty wind from the ocean below made a mess of her own mane - knocking the crystal-coated feathers together where they hung so that they chimed. alysanne @Rohan <3 RE: basket case— - Rohan - 08-14-2016 r o h a n, RE: basket case— - Alysanne - 08-30-2016 we heal with love, In good humour, Alysanne snorted at the exaggerated bow and greeting of ‘my queen’ that Rohan offered her, those two words a pair she had heard often since the meeting and she still couldn’t claim that she was used to it. But, for better or for worse, right now that was exactly what she was. And, hopefully it would turn out to be for the better in the end. In contrast to the look that had been on his face when she approached, the playfulness of that bow did not seem to be fading from him which, of course, did little to ease the pegasus out of her worry. It came so naturally to her, this intense feeling of concern for everyone. That rising of the brow and a hint of laughter in his voice when he spoke was a combination that Alysanne knew well - one she had seen countless times with her sister. Was Rohan using the same carefree attitude to avoid discussing problems? Her own expression quirked curiously in response - level green eyes watching him as he grinned a little too brightly before turning away from her once more. “No, I don’t believe I would.” She commented quietly, not turning her gaze away for a silent moment after she spoke. “Unless, of course, you make it a habit to brooding silently by yourself, perhaps to draw in the mares?” Only then did her concern give way to mirth, offering him the chance to continue to avoid speaking about anything that might be bothering him. “It would appear to be quite effective.” She laughed lightly, flicking her tail and letting her gaze drift away from him and out to sea. Her concern was very real, but who was she to demand answers from someone she barely knew? Of course, as much as Alysanne did not want to be the sort of busybody that demanded answers, neither was she capable of keeping her mouth shut and not opening up any doors that she could. So after the teasing tied down, her quiet voice spoke again - though she just watched him from the corner of her eye. It probably wouldn’t help if she just kept staring at him. “If there was anything bothering you, you could talk to me - if you wanted.” After all, she didn’t actually know that anything was wrong at all - it had merely been a hunch. How often were those in Helovia completely at peace, anyway? alysanne @Rohan <33 RE: basket case— - Rohan - 09-21-2016 r o h a n, RE: basket case— - Alysanne - 09-26-2016 we heal with love, The instinct to move closer to Rohan, to drape her wings around him and hold him like he was a child that needed comforting, grew in Alysanne but her hooves did not move. Not yet. She smiled warmly at his compliment and the sideways glance he offered her when he spoke it, catching even the small smirk that came with it. For a fleeting moment, it was good to see him smile - but she does not react verbally to the words. She did not want to change the subject while she waited, patiently, for him to decide whether to respond to her prodding. It was infinitely easier to focus on someone else’s pain than her own. Easy to ignore how she had been fracturing over the last few seasons, how she had come undone and only recently had been too busy to allow herself to crumble. She kept herself on the move, kept herself without sleep, because she feared those moments when she slowed down. Now, though Rohan’s next words reminded her dangerously of her own state, she could brush it aside and focus solely on him. Any selfish thoughts would have left anyway when he did speak, when he turned to look at her - and though there was an echo of humour on his lips her heart broke at the expression in his eyes. The look she saw there was what she feared others saw when they looked at her when she was falling apart. What could she possibly say that would help? Could she even presume that anything she did would help? But of course, she was Alysanne and she would try. She was hardly just devoted to the herd as a whole - she was devoted to each and every member, and she would do anything to help piece Rohan back together again. “I think…” She started slowly, as he turned away from her again, trying to sort out her own thoughts while puzzling out his. “... the strongest ask for help to hold the pieces together.” Alysanne shouldn’t be giving advice when she shied away from everyone who cared about her for the exact same reason. But, perhaps, she would’ve had an easier time picking up the pieces of herself if she had not avoided them. With a soft sigh, searching her mind for the right things to say to him, Alysanne finally responded to his previous question - her face wrinkling into a delicate frown as she forced her eyes away from Rohan and out to the sea, not wanting him to feel uncomfortable under her gaze. “I don’t know what I would say to a broken man… the usual speeches about having hope, I suppose.” She considered him for a moment before reaching out carefully with her muzzle to touch him gently. Through every centimeter of movement she was painfully aware of how the last time she tried to offer a comforting touch to someone on these cliffs, he had not so much shied away from her touch as leapt away from it (thankfully for them both - not off the drop). So whether or not Rohan moved, whether her muzzle was simply near him or touching his skin, her words were the same whisper. “But I would keep him company.” alysanne @Rohan |