the Rift


[OPEN] she's a bit of a fixer-upper [healing]

Psyche the DarkEmpress Posts: 380
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Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 hh :: 8 (ages in Orangemoon) Buff: ENDURE
RayoDeSoleil
#1


You follow a winding path that exists only in your mind, traversing the brutal darkness that used to be Helovia's Heart on a path to the entrance to the Place. You do not know what resides in the bowels of the cave that you have christened 'the Place,' but you have a strange urge to avoid the area. Of course, you being you, such an urge is impossible to listen to. You have never been one to follow the rules, have you?

You stagger back and forth on three good legs; your right fore has flesh sloughing off, hanging in bands of slacking wrinkles as it seems to drip to the ground. Somewhere beneath the skin, flashes of white and pink appear as bits and pieces of bones and sinew become visible, only to disappear again beneath the next fold. You look drunk, which is ironic; of all the terrible things you've done in your life, you have never been intoxicated. Maybe you should try it sometime.

The left side of your hindquarters is host to a long, gaping wound. Maggots squirm, bathing in the blood that continuously rinses your leg a dark red. You would have thought that it would have dried by now, but it keeps coming. On and on and on it bleeds, and now you are sure that you will be permanently dyed as a result of the relentless onslaught. Your head swivels from side to side, as though you are a serpent searching for the next unfortunate prey. It is particularly odd since the majority of your face seems to have melted away, leaving exposed skull and empty eye sockets to greet any who happen to cross your path. You hope they scream when they see you. That is always the best part.

You stand in the shadows outside the entrance to the Place, and you cackle wildly into the night sky.

Someone will hear you.

And then they will join you.

You wait.

[W/C | ---]

Walk walk walk.
"Talk talk talk."
Think think think.

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Lena the Songbird Posts: 663
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Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 :: 6 HP: 69 | Buff: NOVICE
Imogen :: Common Kitsune :: Fire Heather
#2
Forgotten martyrs and riddled monuments, sepulchers of the forsaken and renounced – Lena laid flowers at their gravestones and chiseled their legends into lilting requiems and laments. The world coveted thickened doldrums of the inhumane, of the debauched, of the torn and flayed, and she continued stepping through pinnacles of light to embrace, to caress the beneficent essence of crooning courtyards and promised sanctums. Not without stains, not without marred runes, not without imperfections, but stroking vicious holds with a perseverant air – ferociously consumed by the determination, the valor, and the stalwart trumpets of resolution. An invoking of despair, an unraveling of hope, traced the sketch, the outline of her travels, and each petal-soft, dulcet movement composed by her lithe contortions pulsed, pervaded, aimed to divide the darkness, the destruction, from veils and labyrinths. The nymph knew she couldn’t convey enough hallelujahs, reveries and rhapsodies to unite fallen kingdoms, couldn’t destroy the stoked villainy or ignited, licentious chords, but if she managed to reverberate the divinity, the virtue, the morals and finery outside the corridors of corruption, chaos and callousness, then she remained persistent, unwinding symphonies for each parallel monstrosity. Tenacity, born and bred through the lines of her childhood to the bridges and gaps solidified over her tender heart, carved and marked the foil of devilish reaches, seraphs and fiends, blossoming antithesis to catacombs and hymns. Her search at these shaded hours could have been an eternal march, everlasting unholy vows striking against heretic walls and reverent columns, ghostly wraiths springing through phantom parades, clutching, grasping fingers gnarled and clenching over the sinful bounties of their salvaged serenity, but her senses were captured, enticed, beguiled by the overwhelming sense of familiarity blooming from the entrance. The trail billowed travesty and treachery beyond and behind it, looming, maelstrom antiquities, refinement trampled, secrets stolen and snared, lost reigns fumbled and ripped.

Light, radiant and ablaze by the fires and embers of her coiled reverence, of her illuminated adversity, she and Imogen pursued gallows and heaven, intertwining the fixtures of passion and hope with the ambitions of tranquility, solidified composure in the daunting trials ahead. The ivory vixen tracked and she followed, hushed as they combed through the awareness and affinity of the damned ahead of them, for if it were the puzzling, spellbinding temptress of the icicled kingdom, how had she come to such a fate? Psyche had represented strength, viper coils, enticements and allures, the beguiling sense of danger reaching behind corporeal forms, of holes and pitfalls aligned and placed for enemies, of swindling traps and specious laughter. To think that she’d fallen through the murky holds, through the nocturnal, Stygian mockeries, as abandoned, bleak and mauled as the rest, led Lena down the arches and eaves of certainty; everyone was capable of faltering and stumbling. There wasn’t room for paragon pedestals here.

Their arrival upon the fallen’s presence was marked by a sinister hiss tumbling through Imogen’s tiny frame, a feral growl conveyed and exposed from the layers and lacquer they’d had to face days prior (an attacking friend, a returned companion). Only thereafter did Lena’s honeyed gaze, ambrosial and sanguine, fade into dismay. Flesh frayed and clipped, sinew and bone exposed, treachery torn into filaments of roughened hues and destroyed beauty. Like a specter of death, wounds without closure, a skull without its scythe, serpent without its hood, slithering in the opulence of something it couldn’t have; the sylph bowed her head against the image, remembering a time, a place, a season where the siren reigned, did more than slither into augured ruses. A heady breath, a stoking of resolve, and she was obstinate again, emboldened by the memories of opulence and glaciers, stone chiseled to snowflakes and warm wind sauntering throughout valleys, christening one solo crescendo, cadence of the selfless. “Psyche…” It trailed off, reverberated in singsong echoes, a name, a calling, a namesake renowned instead of abandoned to corpses and living poltergeists. Then, she sang. An opus raised in travesty, a symphony conducted in hollowed halls, meant for serenity, meant for salvation, hums and hymns brooding in the haunting dusk, closing her eyes against the chilling ambience, against the ghastly screams, pouring the effervescent glow, the ebullient shards, back upon a marked soul.
Lena

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RayoDeSoleil
#3


You were born to the darkness, and to the darkness you shall return. Somewhere, a distant memory brings a recollection of anger and hatred and sorrow. And then there is nothing - nothing but a fleeting glimpse of truth, of compassion, at the hands of a stallion unknown to you. A mystery, a seemingly long-ago tale that could almost be a dream, for it is so different than what you remember as your most beautiful self. Who could fall so far, you wonder; who could stumble from their pedestal and crash so terribly to the ground? Oh, how hard you remember working, clawing your way to the top of the mountain - and oh, how easy it was for it all to come cascading down around you. Your sanity, locked away and hidden deep within the craggy recesses of your mind, found your fall cleansing, healing - but you see only weakness, a chink in the armor through which the light threatens to break. You are determined to see it mended, shutting out that which threatened to overtake you that day in the swamp, before the darkness claimed your mind.

You watch her approach and you are reminded of days past, when she walked willingly under your banner. She was not one of your trusted, that is true, but she followed you all the same, and you find that you have a hesitant liking for this mare. Of course, that only means that you desire her heart to blacken and shrivel, that you long for her to abandon the light and join you on the other side. Think of all that you could do, with an army at your back! You are beautiful now, freed from the confines of the body that had held you captive. It is almost as though your corruption has freed you, has released that which you held so close, afraid to let go. She is not afraid of you, and a slight hiss escapes your lips as you see only dismay on her pretty features. Your fate is not a cause for sadness - no, she should be leaping for joy, falling over her own feet to join you! A low snarl builds in your throat and you want to taunt her, to screech something, anything to bring her into your grasp, but you find that you have nothing to say.

She calls to you, and you will later remember that voice as filled with sorrow, broken, as though the sight of you (or, perhaps, the sight of any in your condition) is too much to bear. And then, she sings. You back away, your auds flattening against your nape, your exposed skull thrown to the heavens, begging them not to release you from this plague. But the chords of her voice wash over you, and suddenly you find that it is not so easy to run away. There is something painfully pure about her vocals, and as you listen you become aware of bones hardening, recovering from decay; flesh regrowing, reattaching to your bones; skin knitting back together, covering recently exposed tissue; and you scream, the sensations excruciatingly overwhelming. The world goes dark, or light, you don't really know anymore, and suddenly there is nothing. You are falling away, up or down or something, but you cannot be alive, not after that.



Her eyes opened, and she was surprised to find herself on the ground. The infamous amber gaze is weak as she looks up at her rescuer, and she doesn't know if she should thank the fae or curse her. She is ashamed to find herself at Lena's mercy, terrified to find herself so close to that from which she had fled, and suddenly she is overwhelmed by the urge to run away. But if she were to do that, who is to say she would ever make it back? The pain of her transformation is fresh in her mind, and she shudders at the thought of having to go through it again. The memory of the darkness that seeped into her very pores drives her to her feet, and she is humiliated to find that she is shaking. Who would have thought that trying to do the right thing would have brought her here? She had left, had tried to live a normal life, had tried to be kind to those she had previously hated, and all for what? To end up at the hooves of her followers, most of whom would likely ask her where she had been and why she had abandoned them?

Would they kill her if she told them the truth?

Did she care?

Yes, a small part of her mind whispered, and she was surprised to find that the intricately adorned stallion from the Marsh had found his way into her thoughts, had bolstered her spirits. She didn't even know his name. This was a sudden realization, and she frowned at the memory - but the nameless steed's appearance in her mind calmed her, and she swallowed hard. The quaking of her bodice stopped, and she took a deep breath. "Thank you," she whispered, more distraught with how incredibly cowed she sounded than with the actual ordeal that she had lived through. If anything, she had deserved to be taken by the darkness, had deserved the misery of being put back together. But now what was she to do? Who was she to go to? She couldn't go home - there wasn't even a home to go to. "Where... are we?"

[W/C | ---]

Walk walk walk.
"Talk talk talk."
Think think think.

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Lena the Songbird Posts: 663
Aurora Basin Time Mender atk: 4 | def: 10.5 | dam: 6.5
Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 :: 6 HP: 69 | Buff: NOVICE
Imogen :: Common Kitsune :: Fire Heather
#4
A haunting dance replaced by bells, arias, and strains, effusion of grace, majesty and reverence, toiled and sprung from rhapsody, from melody, from fallen reveries. The brilliant, segmented heart, with its illustrious wishes, its pulsing, meticulous beat, calm and wondrous, exotic and foreign in the swollen tides of nefarious acts, bestowed ethereal carols, chased down sorrow, and culled strife. Her eyes were a beacon to the lost honor of comrades, brethren in arms clinging to icicle ledges, and charming, sprite whimsies, rich benevolence skipping in the sinister haze. Her soul was the requiem to refinement and essence, unearthly and subtle, the airy, fine whisper of kindness stolen from so many cavorting titans, collected and solidified in her untamed being. Her song was the arch of laurels and flower crowns, fluttering in the absent breeze, pixie well-wishes captured in a dream jar, righting wrongs, glorifying missteps into lessons learned, piercing through the juncture of Machiavellian intrigues and crumbled claws. March for march, match for match, the infernos sparked and ignited, hers a luminescent glow, a parade of arias lit for the radiant fuse, and Psyche’s a pungent recollection of all the things they’d been, all the times they stumbled, all the hours of labor, strength, deliverance from sunken gallows. For a growl, she proffered fierce anthems, for a hiss, she endowed feral hymns, and for collapsed, sullen fixtures, she spilled the sweetest of ditties, lyrics and stanzas. Restoration and renewal at the hands of nymph poetry, laureate convictions, ensnared rapture and emboldened glory, open, callous wounds stitching, piecing back together under the might, the gall, the audacity of her blinding, binding altruism. In the shadows of hearts and mercy, she provided every avenue of goodness, and throughout the murk, the twilight, the gloom, the sylph watched the gloaming patch and lace skeletal remains into the snake Empress she’d once known. Morality touched and caressed iniquity, forced the colossal, fiend hands to hem and darn its former armaments upon silk and steel.

Then, the cobra slunk, plummeted, plunged and descended to the ground, knelt and chiseled her armor back into the shadows, and Lena’s voice quelled to a heart-spun silence, sheltered in the void and absence of rule and anarchy. A bold witness, borne to carry the weight of many stares, to become part of glades and copses, to traverse and remain with naught but the secrets of her own unsung particles, regarded the return of life. Bones fastened beneath hide, veins beating and pulsing under fused skin, held aloft, alight, enlightened by the tricks of her trade, by the songbird wishes of her stained throne. While Psyche slept, she stood guard, and while she rustled through the clarity, through the perils of mercy, compassion and benevolence, she remained the mighty statue gesturing towards the light. The fey figure gave no hint of puncturing, piercing shards, of remnants of yesteryear, of follies and foils, fallen snakes tenderly hiding in their coils and contortions, and simply nodded at the offered gratitude – Psyche wouldn’t receive any vile, soiled words from her lips (for even this fae queen had committed treachery, let it swallow her whole and condemn her to slaughter; she’d waltzed a fine bolero beside them, tasted the ardent betrayal of war). Only calm, lithe, limber composure, even from the pale kitsune nestled between her forelegs, drifted from her stalwart strains (and when Psyche began shaking, she pretended not to see, and drummed an ardent heartbeat of hums, flowing in inaudible decibels, quieting the somber quivers and stumbles). Lena took the whispers, the curiosity, and turned them into answers, mellifluous and dedicated, chiseling pathways for an Empress to serpentine through. “A haven, of sorts.” She ceased her speech for a moment, and allowed the depths of her ambrosial stare to kindly, gently, serenely linger upon a mare that was once a monster. “It’s protected us.” From wraiths, from phantoms, from specters and demons outside – but inside, it can do nothing to quell the infidels already within its walls.
Lena

Psyche the DarkEmpress Posts: 380
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Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 hh :: 8 (ages in Orangemoon) Buff: ENDURE
RayoDeSoleil
#5


She didn't deserve a place in their haven; of that, she was sure. If anything, she had half a mind to go seeking more wraiths, to return to the darkness that had claimed her so easily. Wasn't her weakness in succumbing to the poisonous creatures lurking in the shadows just proof that she did not belong in safety? Wasn't it just another thing telling her that she could never remedy the wrongs she had done? That she would always fall prey to the darkness, in the end? Perhaps her heart, blackened by years of torment and hatred, simply couldn't recover. After all, who was she kidding? Despite everything that the stallion in the marsh had said, her former followers would never accept her again, and those she had tortured would never accept her. Everyone would always suspect her for one thing or another, wouldn't they? Perhaps she was destined to find peace in her solitude.

But how was she to do that with danger lurking around every corner, waiting to take her in again? How was she to prove herself, to reinvent herself, when she knew full well that if she stumbled into the darkness, she would never have the chance? There were many in Helovia that would sooner kill her than look at her, particularly if given a reason - and for whatever reason, she didn't want that. She wanted another chance. She wanted answers. She wanted to figure out just who she was. She wanted more than the life she had led, the life she had been given, the path she had been taken down since she was but a child.

She looked at Lena, taking in perhaps for the first time the mare that had served under her rule; had they truly met, even once, back then? Or had they simply shared passing glances, a greeting every now and again at a meeting? Guilt twisted in the pit of her stomach, and she was painfully aware of the newfound emotion - and how often it seemed to crop up in her life. Had she done anything right in her life? She found that she had nothing to say, nothing to do; but she felt that Lena deserved more, deserved something that the shade could not give her. "Does it protect everyone?" the jackal asked finally, awkwardly. Will they let me in?

[W/C | ---]

Walk walk walk.
"Talk talk talk."
Think think think.

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Lena the Songbird Posts: 663
Aurora Basin Time Mender atk: 4 | def: 10.5 | dam: 6.5
Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 :: 6 HP: 69 | Buff: NOVICE
Imogen :: Common Kitsune :: Fire Heather
#6
The world was cruel, waiting for the strong to trip before they were pushed headlong into the dirt and sand, waiting for the weak to notice so that they may chisel the fallens’ bones into the grime. Lofty weights ground above the viper’s sullen crown, a heady, cumbersome shift of knotted vines and gnarled roots, pine boughs and crimson pebbles, slipping, tumbling, and Lena wondered what else she held so tightly wound over her skull, needling and nettled, poised and precarious. Seemingly gone were the days of the asp curves and cobra helixes, where her haughty smirk balanced along a Siberian throne, where they bowed and stared, where they adhered and danced to the demands of her hisses and croons. The nymph hadn’t known either creature, this poor, suffering one bent to the swinging pendulum, or the high queen resting along icy summits and peaks; shirked and fled when serpent eyes meandered to her corner, tended to consul duties and watched them fester away into nothingness. She’d avoided the serpentine tongue and the sibilated vows, the den of snakes and ophidians, smiled, grinned, fed flowers their basking glow, ruminated and reflected on her cretin exploits and how she continued to tumble further into the iniquitous plain. She’d waltzed beneath Psyche’s banner, flag and ensign, flocked and shepherded newcomers from the grove gates, sheltered and proffered nuances of generosity, gathered and listened to them fall by the wayside. She’d cringed and felt fear trickle up her spine at the inclination of war, at the twisted phrases and serpentine syllables, witnessed as her world spiraled deeper into anarchy, tyranny, and violence – and none of these things were placed upon the Medusa. Lena had ventured forth, loyal to the stars, the sun, the earth, the sky, light and candid mercy, tripped, stumbled and faltered along the way to renewal and reverie. Perhaps she’d been worthless in the Empress’ eyes, another ghost lost in the battle hymns, another frame, another body added to the abacus, but Psyche had represented something in the slyph’s stare, and the fairy found it so odd, so heartbreaking, to fixate upon a winter monarch begging for a home. Roles reversed, ranks shed and outfitted, simpering and destitution knocking along a cavern door, wasted away to bits of naught. The healer nearly asked her to awaken, to breathe in the icy air and remember who she was, what she’d become, what she reigned over (hadn’t they been supreme, mighty, stalwart and staunch in the chilling winds, in the vibrant tenors of glory?), but the words were lost in the jackal’s repose.

The ambrosia gaze fixed back along the intertwining lengths of healed frame, not wholly repaired, fully mended, past the broken, crumbling fixtures of a proud woman. A sad, somber sigh drifted past her nares, unwinding in brief puffs of warm air before they’re sullied by the nefarious cold, stretching the lengths of fortitude and valor into deep-rooted silence. Does it protect everyone? A heartbreaking juncture split across the seams, and the nymph realized Psyche had prepared herself a tombstone, marked, etched and scored the words across its tablet, and merely waited for the act to fall. Like a piercing, puncturing blade, scabbard and sheath vanished, shield distorted and discarded in the dust, forsaken, abandoned, renounced. Lena’s stare hardened for slender, lacerating moments, imagined the desolation, the despair, hovering in scarred plumes, harbored and harpooned in callous copses over the other mare’s chaotic figure (would someone truly dig her grave, with her form like this, scraping and toiling and rasping) – then her halo glided forth, and the warmth pulsed back into its outset. Melodies, rhapsodies, harmonies invoked, for a simple gesture, for an outpouring of faith she wished Psyche could cling to again. “Yes.” Then, the curl of a smile, an indentation of her lips, handed to the morose, the melancholy, the despondent.

Lena

Psyche the DarkEmpress Posts: 380
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Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 hh :: 8 (ages in Orangemoon) Buff: ENDURE
RayoDeSoleil
#7


The shadow-mare was a disappointment - how could she not be? She had disappointed those that had placed their faith in her to lead, whether they bought into her doctrine or not. Even now, she imagined a look of disdain on the lovely angel's facade, created a seam of hatred running through the girl's words. Imagined or no, it cut her to the core all the same, and again she felt the flame of guilt cleave her heart in two (the Empress has a heart? Who knew?), the no longer unfamiliar phrase, "I'm sorry," close at hand. How had she become such a fading shadow of herself? How could she have given way when she had once been the epitome of glory? For ever if her morals had changed (and they almost undoubtedly had, by now - she only wanted to be welcomed into their caves, to be liked, or at least respected, by whomever or whatever lay below), surely she had not changed so very much? Surely she could conjure the same mask, the same cold, confident exterior that she had donned so very often throughout her life.

Lena was waiting for her to rise to the occasion, wasn't she? Surely the girl, however lovely and however forgiving and however kind, expected more of her, having known her before? How could she look upon her fallen Empress and not wonder what had happened, where her passion had gone, how her fire had blown out? How could she not look on with contempt as the queen practically begged for admission into their safe haven? For though she deserved nothing more than to rot in the open, all she wanted was acceptance into their sanctuary, a chance to regain some stature in someone's mind, though she doubted very much that her own herd would look upon her with much favor. And who would? Why should they? She was naught but a broken mess of a Lady, a sad ghost of who she once was. Why would they want her when they could have so many better suited to live among them?

But despite all of this, despite everything, Lena said yes, and something in the Empress fell away. Perhaps it was the relief that washed through her veins, or perhaps it was the trepidation at facing all of those whom she had avoided for these many months - she could not go forward. She could not take that final step into the realms that may damn her or free her. She gazed quietly at Lena's expectations, at her waiting, smiling pose, and she floundered in the hopelessness of it all. "And you speak for all of them, darling?" she asked bitterly, a sneer threatening to force its way onto her lips. She swallowed back the bile of a biting retort, closed her eyes against the anger that threatened to make itself known, and sighed. A wry smile is forced, but it does not touch her eyes. They are as haunted as they were moments before, forever doomed by all that they have seen. "Why did you heal me when I failed you all? Wouldn't it be better if I were simply wasting away somewhere out here?" She hated herself for asking, hated Lena for gazing at her in that insipidly cheerful way, as though the Lady's sins had simply been eradicated. Life was not that easy, and she was not stupid enough to think it so. She took a step forward, and her voice lowered into a harsh murmur. "Wouldn't they prefer I rot away out here?"

[W/C | ---]

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Lena the Songbird Posts: 663
Aurora Basin Time Mender atk: 4 | def: 10.5 | dam: 6.5
Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 :: 6 HP: 69 | Buff: NOVICE
Imogen :: Common Kitsune :: Fire Heather
#8
Honey and ambrosia didn’t hasten bright sentiments. A twist settled over the layers and lacquer, rancorous and bitter, biting, scathing, and the sylph recognized the touch, the taste, of sharp petulance. It sank against her coat in conspiring, acidic traces, outlined by the nettled burrows and chains sketched along her frame, in the gentle lull exposed and flayed. If any portion of the old Psyche still remained, once proud, once mighty, once haughty, it was this chilling shard, a morose fragment, prickly, unsatisfied, and domineering. The supremacy of her queries, the imperial shield she carried, would have melted a younger nymph, unguarded and left to wither in the woods. Instead, Lena’s smile died away, replaced by a calm, composed being, exuding warmth, but not the bright, cheery effervescence once portrayed – the Empress shied away from its light, and so the sylph dimmed its reach. In the hollows, Lena stared at the torn banner, the frayed pennant, christened by heavy sighs and dissatisfaction, taken into portals and whims of ineptitude and ineffectiveness, a tossed rapier left to rust in the rain. Embers thrown, cinders ignited, the brilliance of her stare fixated upon the bile and wry, sardonic grin, ablaze and courted into the lithe rhapsodies of the tenacious. Her own frustrations seemed to rise with the monsters’ irritation, and undaunted, relentless, persevering, crooning no sympathy for the devil, her voice, audacious, brave, and emboldened, erupted over the cavernous swell, lacerating in its rose convictions. “You let others’ thoughts define you?” Was all her passion, all her glory, a fortuitous collapse, an augured hindrance? If she’d been so shambled, so distorted, so woven by the notions of another, how had she survived? How had she made her way into hierarchy, ruling and commanding, sending troops into battle? If she’d been so weary, so mordant, so trenchant and defeated, how had she managed to rise from any ashes? Was one blow enough to fell a viper? Was one burning tongue enough to strike a cobra? Was one battle enough to wither and whittle away an asp? How far had her promises been? How far had she flung her heart? How many pieces had yet to be picked up and stitched into her wilted seams? Who was the beast before her now, once demon, once beacon, once slithering fortitude and slinking power? Was she caught in her own vices, in her own weaknesses, drowning and floundering? Or was she merely ungrateful, aching for sympathy, for empathy, that even Lena, who had struggled and tore against her childhood, her memories, her past, and armies for her purposes, her pursuits, refused to give or grant. The crisp elegance of her words flowed again, not dipped or entrenched in the same toxin as Psyche’s venom, raking over the coals of veracity and candor. “I thought you were stronger than that.”

Lena healed, mended, and assuaged, but not when the recipient spurned, rebuffed, and dismissed her gift – became scalded and anointed only with the slaughter, the condemnation, of wounds that were not hers to take. She rejected the drowning words or concrete ball wrapping its shroud around her neck, the heavy garrote threatening to choke, annihilate, and persecute, she would sink no further into the creeping haze or nefarious shadows. Instead, she smoothly anointed the regal, noble composure of a nymph drawn to the eaves of the valorous, gazing at her prior leader without the gestures of a sanguine sylph. Altered into satin nerve, courage, daring, and stalwart graces, she refused to carry the Lady’s cumbersome weight, and forced her to pick up the slivers she’d broken in the first place. Compassion and beneficence stirred her into another means of granting the charity of her rectitude. “We’ve all faltered, but you don’t see us fading into the dust.” She tilted her head, an elegant power of quiet, hushed dominion, underestimated and forgotten time and time again, delivering finality to a poisoned vector. “Wallowing in self-pity only feeds weakness.” She paused, whispered across the terrain, across the gallows, across the air of vanquished souls. “Is that how you wish to remain?”


Lena

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Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 hh :: 8 (ages in Orangemoon) Buff: ENDURE
RayoDeSoleil
#9


She regretted the words as soon as they left her maw, but they had been said, and she would stand behind them. Somewhere in the depths of her soul remained her pride, and she was not quite ready to part with it before one that she had led not so long ago. There was something about being reunited with her own species for the first time in seasons that forced her to hold herself to a higher standard, to push and pull and squeeze her persona into the mold that they had waiting for her, if only it were so easy to fall into the old rhythms. But she had changed, had done and seen too much, had learned of kindness and freedom and happiness, or something like that. She didn't fit anymore, didn't Lena see that? The herd had placed their Lady on a pedestal, and once, she had towered over them; but it had been a long, hard fall, and she could not bring herself to clamber back up.

And what would she have returned to, anyway? She could have stayed in the Basin, could have answered her General's challenge with one of her own, could have tried to best him in combat. Or, perhaps, it was the Engineer that she ought to have demanded on trial, for it was he that took her to publicly to task, he who had gotten under her skin. Was that what they had expected of her? Did they think that she could go on leading a band of superiority when she was no longer one of them? She had always worn a mask, always been a master of deception, but this - this - could they not see that it was too much to ask of her? To request that she rise above the loss of her physical crown, to demand that she retain the same persona after losing so much - it wasn't fair.

But then, life isn't fair.

She had admitted her failure, shown Lena the piece of her soul hidden away. She had revealed that which made her feel as though she were dying inside, as though she were something dirty, corrupt. Ironic, that she should feel that way now, as she treated the hornless with something less than hatred but not quite liking, as opposed to trying to kill them all; but there you are. But Lena merely withdrew her smile, hid behind her own mask and refuted the shade's pain. Granted, the Empress had not chosen the best manner of sharing her feelings, but Lena's rebuttal hurt all the same. She ground her teeth together and looked away, suddenly ashamed, guilty, hurt all at once. She had known that she was a disappointment, that they had expected better, that they had wanted more from her. She hadn't known that she would come across one who would admit as much to her face.

There was no anger in the healer, no bitterness. There was simply fact, and somehow that was more painful than all the rest. What choice do I have? she wanted to ask. I am nothing now. I am no one. But the words died on the tip of her tongue, swallowed and buried with her guilt. The silence stretches, uncomfortable, unfinished business hanging between them. Finally, words fell from the shadow-mare's lips: "I don't think I have as much of a choice as you think." Did Lena know of her little band? Or her goals to wipe the world of the hornless? Could she understand how her own would spurn her, with no horn to boast of? "Thank you for healing me, Lena. I am in your debt." It was perhaps not the answer that the healer was looking for, but the shade had retreated behind the mask again, holding emotion deep within, refusing to let it escape.

[W/C | ---]

Walk walk walk.
"Talk talk talk."
Think think think.

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Imogen :: Common Kitsune :: Fire Heather
#10
Perhaps the greatest anomaly was that the Empress had been ruined, felled, and destroyed by something so insignificant.

What was loss, in the brambles and thorns of life? Hadn’t they all experienced failure, over and over again, varnished and coated in the lacquer of dust, cinders, and ash? Hadn’t they all tasted the piquant, rancorous brine of a damned sea, where victories were dashed, eradicated, and annihilated moments after their war trumpets and drums? Hadn’t they all faltered, stumbled, fallen to the last vestiges of earth and begged for absolution, deliverance, liberation from their pain, their agony? Hadn’t they all scraped their knees across rubble, sand, and glass, striving for solutions, machinations, and calculations when hope was lost? It was how they conquered collapse, defeat, oblivion, that etched, sculpted, and molded their characters, their strength, their valor. They’d be remembered by their debacles, disasters, and catastrophes, and the way they reshaped their stones, their embers – if they could stoke them back into infernos by the press of conviction, by the sweltering of persistence, by the brazen, bold, creeds. How many times had Lena struggled to breathe in the suffocating agony of violence, strung and stung by her vile embraces? She’d quelled and brewed in the anarchy of her own soul, but instead of blaming, shaming, or sobbing, she’d restored her armaments; confidence, compassion and composure, fitted whims back into her shield, and sheathed her sword. To lose, to fall, didn’t make them lesser beings – just another soul melded into the fortuitous balance of existence, rooted sentience. But when the fairy monarch’s eyes stared, fixated, upon the whimpering malice, upon the absconded menace, she saw no restoration, no attempt at renewal. Was this how Psyche combatted her mistakes, her errors, by shaking, shirking, responsibility, and wallowing, withering, planting seeds of disrepair and dissolution, waiting to drag others into her siren wails and supplications? Was this how she strived to remain, a legend sown into fiasco, rather than asp venom, snake vitriol, coiled schemes and ruses? Was this what she showed to the world now, despair, depression, tiring melancholy? Was she so blinded by ruin, incapable of seeing the sun, the moon, the stars, the monsters, the heathens, becoming another one bleeding, ending, forgotten in the rocks and pebbles? The resolute, adamant gaze of the sylph bore deeply upon the former Queen’s, uttered truth, veracity, and candor through lilting tunes, not dulcet, not silken, but sharp, blunt, reality simmering into the columns of cracked monoliths. They always had a choice. It was how they took, grasped, or clenched the opportunities. “Not if you’re unwilling.”

Intrepid, brave, and valiant, she pressed into the chaos and came out whole, riveting, elegant, refined, alluring – struggling to beguile wisdom into seemingly deaf ears, too far gone to relent, to admit, to agree, that through the seasons, the ages, the grieving for her defeat should have ended. The forthright clamor of her wounds stirred again, as tenacious, steadfast, and unwavering from the first days of her arrival into the Edge, damaged, but blessed. “I don’t ask you to lead again. I don’t ask you to hold a throne.” She paused, carved and whittled her phrases back across the surface again, polished the armor of her ethereal veneer, of potency strangled, then reinvigorated through time, adamant, passionate, and merciful. “I implore you to see beyond failure.” There was more to the kingdoms, the castles, the palisades, the realms, than the reaches of conquering or dividing, of consuming and devouring, of lacing and layering the earth with poison or vexation, or even combing over decaying wiles, lands sullied by one’s own hands, horns and hearts broken. “The rest of the world has – and will leave you behind if you allow it.”

Lena

Psyche the DarkEmpress Posts: 380
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Mare :: Unicorn :: 15.3 hh :: 8 (ages in Orangemoon) Buff: ENDURE
RayoDeSoleil
#11


No.

No, how could she move on when her life was in the past? How was she to look forward when everything she had known lay behind? Her King, her Princess, her kingdom... it all fell in ruins at her hooves, all because of her. She had not been strong enough - no, she had never been enough at all. It was a futile effort that the healer embarked upon, a dark, twisting, winding road that would leave her empty-handed in the end. The DarkEmpress knew it - perhaps Lena did, too. But somehow, somewhere in the midst of the darkness of the shadow-mare's heart, a light shone though.

Somehow, somewhere, Lena's words had found their way through the denial and the guilt, had dug themselves into the jackal's soul and rooted themselves there. Malnourished though they may be, the seeds of doubt in her perpetual sorrow had been planted, and so the once-great Lady raised her amber gaze to the unicorn standing gloriously before her, the picture of all that their species should be, and offered a small, sad smile. But it was not as sad as it might have been, not as hopeless as it was before. There was something new there now, something that Lena could claim credit for, something new and beautiful and bold and bright.

"Everything happens for a reason, Lena," the shade told the femme wearily, the picture of the battered soldier returned home from war. "I did fail. I did fall. I did get left behind - can't you see that?" She paused, shaking her head, her tresses slapping against her nape, reminding her of the trinkets woven into the locks (she reminded herself that perhaps she should remove them, and then decided against it - let them stay and serve as a reminder that she could rise again, even if not by the same means). "But maybe that, too, was for a reason. Don't fret, Lena. I am nothing now, but that doesn't mean that I will always be nothing."

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Walk walk walk.
"Talk talk talk."
Think think think.

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