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Lace the Silverthorn Posts: 459
Deceased atk: 5 | def: 9 | dam: 5.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 15.3 hh :: 14 HP: 65 | Buff: NOVICE
Fajira :: Plain White Dragon :: Fire Breath Chan
#1

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



The ocean was in an uproar. Dark, blue-black clouds hung low over the horizon and a strong wind whipped across the water, stirring up the waves and causing them to foam and thrash against each other. With a fury seldom seen they rushed towards the beach, built up tall and threatening before cascading down upon the pale sands as if they were trying to crawl all the way up to the grassy dunes. All along the coastlines the storm was brewing, thunder rumbling with a sound of thousand horses charging over a plain or a giants beating upon a mighty drum. Lightning upon lightning seared the air and struck the surface of the water, some far away into the distance and some so close that the skin tingled and the hair rose into the air from the static.

Screaming from excitement the white dragon tumbled in the strong wind, playing cat-and-mouse with the frothing waves that time and again were just about to swallow the little creature up before she rose higher and avoided them. It was a daredevil game, dangerous and breathtaking, but she enjoyed the thrill, the adrenaline that surged through her. The White was small but fearless, as lithe and swift in body as her mind was gentle and strong. Unbending and unbroken, as free as she had ever wanted to be. She wanted to share her love of the world she was living in, wanted to celebrate every breath she took and declare her passion to anyone around. The shrill sound of her voice was carried far along the beach, carried even further by the howling wind; but the only one there to listen to her joy was not paying attention.

He had closed her out. Usually the cheerful nature of his bonded helped the stallion but today he couldn't stand the brightness of her soul. It was blinding with its never fading light and it made him feel even darker, all the more corrupt and soiled. The weather suited him just fine. The black clouds matched the inky darkness that bathed his thoughts and the waves seemed to mimic the grim, aching restlessness that haunted him. Lace felt like pacing back and forth, scream and thrash and hurl himself along the endless beach until he could no longer run, until he fell down and couldn't get up any more. He wished to throw himself into the raging sea and fight with the waves, feel them tear at his body and experience the shock of a hundred lightnings through the liquid embrace.
But he couldn't move. His body was frozen in place between the earth and the sea while sand slowly devoured his legs. The hooves were long gone, sunk into the stirring ground and water splashed high up along his legs for each charge of the breakers. Head held high and with the white mane whipping like a luminous banner in the wind, the blue dun stared with empty eyes into the storm, unable to appreciate the spectacular beauty of the evening. Everything inside him screamed in agony, he was locked in a torrent of loathing and despair that never seemed to end. It dragged him down as steadily as the sand was swallowing his body, relentless in the grasp it held on him. One part of him wished to let go, to allow the void to consume him; another knew that it would be dangerous and clambered on to the only small shred of light he had left.

Lace had never had much. The bonds with his family had been fleeting and easily broken, and he never missed them. The herds he had joined had never really managed to gain his interest, and neither mare nor stallion had been able to awaken much passion within him. He held no interest in the pleasures of the flesh, held little patience for the philosophy of the elder and the wise, and never had he understood the charm of foals and youngsters. While experienced and capable of defending himself, he knew that he was not a brilliant warrior; rather a soldier, able to fill out the numbers and hold the back free for the more skilled, the more passionate ones. In everything he did he felt mediocre. The only thing he really had prided himself of had been his honesty, his untainted honor. Never as a youngster had he gone back on his word, never fled a battlefield or turned his back on someone that needed him. But that had been ruined, by none other than himself. The bitterness of that knowledge knew no ends, because even though he was no longer pure Lace knew with him that he would never be capable of flipping the coin completely - he could never become dishonest, cruel or cunning. He had too much conscience for that, too much goodness left within.

A long, heavy sigh tore from his lips and slipped away with the breeze. His eyes felt dry, the pain in his chest did not seem to want to path way for tears. His plea to the unfamiliar gods of the lands for a sign, anything that might tell him what to do, had been met with nothing but silence. It had left him empty, the last hope blown out like a candle; only darkness remained, and the small, warm dragon that refused to let him give in to oblivion.

"What will become of me?" he whispered desperately into the storm. "I wish..." But he didn't know what he wished for. He had no goals, nothing to strive for. Nothing to live for, save for the little White. Could he really cling to her as a sole reason for existing? It didn't feel fair to her. The vagabond longed for something, a goal, a purpose, something he could devote himself to and call his own. Something to be a part of... But he wasn't worthy. How could he ever be worthy of someones trust again?


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Mirage the DragonHeart Posts: 414
Deceased atk: 5.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Mare :: Equine :: 15.3 :: Eighteen HP: 68.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Akaith :: Royal Golden Dragon :: Fire Breath Whit
#2
The mare was attracted to intelligence.

It was not often she came across it. Not often an intelligent spark burned bright enough to emerge from the gloom of stupidity and ignorance that flooded this world, all worlds, in fact.

But even intelligence could be overwhelmed by troubling thoughts. It was perhaps a curse of intellect, for one that was able to think deeply and ponder broadly often discovered further troubles of the world to worry about.

Mirage often thought about those trialling things that were emotions. Emotions, so powerful that they often overwrote what cleverness might have otherwise acted. Emotions, so powerful that they stirred feelings of passion, zeal, even rage and blind fury. Mirage knew them all, and knew how to control each one, how to bend it to her will at the time. Oftentimes, she didn't allow any of them to surface.

But to be void of all emotions? To have worn one's body out so much so that only a vacant shell remained? Mirage too knew this feeling. That was why she was so excellent at portraying it to any onlookers. Her mask of stony indifference was in place today, as her golden eyes sought out the horizon over the great ocean. The fine line of the edge of the great blue was not seen today, blurred by a storm.

A flash of gold danced before them, a lightning strike illuminating the outline of a familiar creature. From her stance atop a sand dune, the mare turned only her tiara to spy the depressed stance of Lace. She felt curiosity, mingled with concern, but did not show such things.

Akaith was the next flash of gold to dance before her. The queen admired the grit that the littlest white showed, and loudly trilled her greeting to Fajira before joining in her play. Mirage, still as a statue, watched over the stallion, wanting to know what would become of him - she could offer him a world of opportunity, if only he would take those first, terrifying steps.

Did he not realise how valuable he could be? How much worth was placed on a steady mind, an intellectual perspective? While the Qian needed muscle power in order to complete their next step in this world, it did not lessen the need for more intelligence, more ideas, more tactics and more caring.

A breath was blown from her nostrils, silent against the howling winds. Eyes of wisdom awaited what would come; what would the outcome of this torrential storm be?


Lace the Silverthorn Posts: 459
Deceased atk: 5 | def: 9 | dam: 5.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 15.3 hh :: 14 HP: 65 | Buff: NOVICE
Fajira :: Plain White Dragon :: Fire Breath Chan
#3

LACE

Who, in his mind,

has not probed the dark water?



The voice of the golden queen tore through the thunder and the wind and immediately caught the attention of her smallest kin. White wings gleamed and glistened with the purity of snow as she rose higher into the air, joyfully greeting the other dragon and welcomed her into the game. She allowed the leather membranes to fold tight against her slender body and dived down towards the foaming sea, zigzagging through the dales between the waves until she met with one of the giant walls of water that now and then rose up from the raging surface. Then she unfurled the strong appendages, climbed the wind up, up until she could snap at the foaming tip; and just before it could break down and trap her in the deadly torrents she broke away, chirping and crying in a way that reminded of laughter. Feeling brave and strong, the little dragon challenged her larger playmate to beat her, get closer, stay longer in the ever changing labyrinth. She wrapped around the queen in the air, teased and dared her to try, not minding the knowledge that she probably would loose. It was completely beside the point.

Maybe it was the increase of noise around him, or perhaps the flash of gold that glimmered and shone in front of his eyes that alerted him to the arrival of others. Time and time again it appeared, gold and white, gold and black, then black and white, before the flicker of color teased his senses so much that he was pulled away from the endless circle he had locked himself in. It continued to roll within him, numbing the mind and clouding his thoughts; but at least he could feel the splash of water upon his skin again, felt the whipping wind that tore at the tassels and chilled his body almost to the point of numbness. The water was cold, he realized. It slushed and hissed around his knees, clambered up to the elbows and drenched his chest and shoulders; he had to fight to free his dark legs from the sand, before quickly pulling back a bit from the deep holes that had formed. He watched numbly as they quickly filled with a mixture of sand and water. If only the emptiness within him could be filled as easily...

Another flash of gold made the stallion blink and turn the head towards the playing dragon. No, dragons, because it seemed that Fajira had found a friend. Lace boggled at the risk the two were taking in their reckless game of dare, felt like he should tell his light to be careful. Then he reconsidered and sighed once more, shook the masked head and shuddered in the cold wind. Following them with amber eyes, he felt that there was something familiar about the golden one. He had never met many horses with a dragon bond, and the only one so far had been...

Slowly the blue dun let his gaze sweep along the shoreline, waiting for the flash of the lightnings to reveal anything of importance. Not that he really expected to find her. He remembered well the darkness of her coat and the ease with which she had slipped close to him before revealing her presence at their last meeting. Mirage was as elusive as her name suggested, and the reason for her presence here evaded him. Perhaps it was a coincidence? There might be nothing to it at all, but Lace wasn't going to drop the possibility that she had sought him out with something in mind.

For a moment he closed his eyes. Did he want to see her right now? The thought of trying to hold up a conversation felt exhausting, but somehow the choice of being left alone again was even worse. He had no resilience today, but neither was he in a mood to give in to anything. His heart was bitter and wary, closed to any and all. Mirage was interesting, no doubt, but he didn't trust her.

Golden eyes not unlike her own opened once more and searched the shadows, longing for a hint of where she might be, a glimpse of her dark figure. Maybe if he saw her the grulla would know what to do, perhaps his soul would calm down enough to at least offer her a greeting.

""


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Mirage the DragonHeart Posts: 414
Deceased atk: 5.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Mare :: Equine :: 15.3 :: Eighteen HP: 68.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Akaith :: Royal Golden Dragon :: Fire Breath Whit
#4
Akaith's own elegant form twisted and turned, gladly joining in the dangerous acrobatics the white was displaying, tucking her own wings close so that her long, lithe body could weave with ease through the thrashing waves and not be thrown aside by the torrential rain and wind. Keen senses tracked the movements of the pale one, following her with ease against the din of the storm and waves. It was a thrilling chase, a wondrous dance of draconic fun. The gold darted through the peaks of waves like an arrow, emerging on the other side wet and glittering all the more whenever a lightning strike would illuminate the vicinity. There was no winning or losing, they were kin, and to Akaith, friends.

If only it was so simple for the equines who were bonded to these draconic creatures to feel the same. Mirage watched the stallion, observed him seek her out, his pale mane and tail giving her eyes something to clutch onto in the darkness - she was not surprised that his own glances had not uncovered her appearance, though the lightning dancing its static step across the ocean often did allow her majestic silhouette to be spied atop the dunes. Both had issues with the other, issues that were trifling, unnecessary - issues that if they just talked about, would not even exist. Mirage had not liked how swiftly the stallion had gotten through her guard, how much information she had divulged to him - seemingly with little in return. She had offered him aid with her information, she supposed, and received his thanks. But she had also presented more of herself to him than she normally would have any other stranger - why? That was what bothered her the most. What was it about him that had driven her to go to such lengths?

A smile, invisible to any nearby, both due to the darkened lighting and the subtle nature of the mare, shadowed the corner of her devious lips. Mirage had worked out what the Moon God had meant; Mirage had found her other form. Magnificent and brilliant it was.. And now, here, she would summon it. Though the mare did not look forward to the pain she would have to endure.. It did not deter her from bowing her and summoning the Dark that would alter her form. Knees buckled beneath her as the painful rearranging of bones grinding and shifting took place. Suddenly, large leathery protrusions struck upwards from her shoulder blades, and the dock of her tail suddenly grew longer, and it swayed in the sand.

A darkness enveloped her, if it were a clear day all an outsider would see when looking upon her would be a bundle of shadowy mess - as it was, she blended in with the raging storm. Suddenly, a glow, golden and brilliant, began from the wispy draconic marking upon her nape, stretched and wrapped itself around her entire form. When it was gone, the stark darkness that was left behind was startling. Breaths that filled lungs larger than the previous mare that stood here were taken, deep and slow. A shiver rolled down the scaled spine of the golden dragon, whose eyes looked over the beach. Akaith chortled a greeting to the large beast that now stood atop the dune, her bonded of soul - the transformation would never change that.

A deep, rumbling laughter, that still maintained a feminine quality about it, rolled from the dragon's proud chest. Even in the cold, windy storm, heat radiated from her, a heat born of a fire within her, one that she had barely discovered - one that she kept within herself for now. Stretching her wings out carefully to ensure they did not get tossed around by the tempestuous weather, she wondered what she appeared to look like when a bright flash of lightning lit her up for all to see. Perhaps now, Lace would see her. Eyes that were now slitted, but still the same golden hue locked onto his form, their telescopic qualities holding onto him with the instincts of a predator - and yet, the mare knew that any meat she consumed would never come from a horse. Gently, her voice spoke one word, a subtle summon carried onto the wind - she was grateful her lips were not so hardened by the scaly hide that she could not speak, for she lacked the telepathic gifts of her smaller kin.

"Lace."

Perhaps now, they would learn what the outcome of this storm would be.

[ Just a note, this isn't the first time Mirage has used her new magic, I just sorely wanted to have her use it here, and will backdate another thread to make all her plots with her first discovering her magic fit in >_> ]


Lace the Silverthorn Posts: 459
Deceased atk: 5 | def: 9 | dam: 5.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 15.3 hh :: 14 HP: 65 | Buff: NOVICE
Fajira :: Plain White Dragon :: Fire Breath Chan
#5

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



Darkness could hide so many things. It had never occurred to the gray-coated soldier that a shadow could be something frightening, but as he stood by the raging sea and scoured the black nothingness for a sign of life he felt a chill travel down the spine that had little to do with the wind or the splashes of water that landed on his skin. Even though the dragons frolicked and warbled happily within his sight he suddenly felt alone, painstakingly left to himself. He tried to shrug the feeling away, accept it as a part of the choice he had made when deciding to remain outcast and wandering, but it was difficult. He was sure that Mirage was out there somewhere, but the fact that he couldn't spot her was maddening, annoying, it was even a bit spooky.

"Damn mare, make a move sometime" he muttered between gritted teeth, nostrils flaring to catch any hint of a scent that might belong to the black and gold. Lace pretended not to feel the creeping sensation along his back, the feeling that something might be stalking up on him from behind and would pounce at any second.

It was pathetic, really. Here he was, seasoned warrior with years of experience of both battle and traveling, and on this empty beach he suddenly felt afraid of shadows? Just because of a strange mare that he knew was there but couldn't see, whom he didn't know and wasn't sure of in any way. Pathetic indeed, Lace. A black hoof smacked irritably into the wet sand, hoping that the impact would be able to shake some sense into him. It worked, almost. The slender stallion stirred, began to walk along the shoreline with eyes firmly planted on the ocean. If she wouldn't show herself then he wasn't going to come running, like some lost colt looking for his mother. Mirage was not the same as comfort, for that she was too strange, too... Too what? He didn't know anything about her, Lace had to remind himself of that. It was beyond annoying how he couldn't let her go with his thoughts, wherever he tried to turn them the memory of golden eyes on black, filled with riddles and half-spoken truths rose from some secret hiding place in his mind. How had she managed to nestle her way in there? His strides became sharper as restless irritation overtook him. The darkness that seethed within and around him made the equine flammable, his temper unstable. All that he felt was superficial, like colorful shimmers surrounding a bubble of nothingness; there was no meaning behind it, no reason, no nothing.

He was just about to fall into a sharp trot when a deep rumbling voice reached through the storm, speaking his name. The grulla stopped dead in his track and spun around in a single smooth motion, sand spluttering around his feet. A sound similar to tearing cloth made him deaf for a moment and as the heavens were ripped apart by a huge lightning he could see something on the dunes above. Something large, massive, glimmering and shining with an enchanting luster against the inky sky. Black and gold a thought commented casually in his mind, for a moment piercing through the numbness that had settled over him.

It couldn't be. No. No way. He had not just seen the largest dragon in his entire life and it had not just uttered his name. Another lightning brightened the scene, forcing Lace to stare at the apparition again, unable to believe what his eyes and the White was telling him. He heard the trilling cry of Akaith call out to the giant that loomed before him. An ear twitched. White tassels flicked hesitantly against the hocks as the instinct to flee something that beyond doubt was a predator fought with the realization that not everything was as it seemed. Air blew from the sooted nose in heavy bursts, and every muscle in his body was tense to the point of agony. What should he do? He couldn't run. If he ran he'd be done for, he'd be caught and eaten and his bones scattered to slowly whiten upon the white shore and..

Black and gold, silly.

Lace swallowed heavily and turned the ears backwards, reluctant and hesitant and frightened all at the same time. But Fajira would never tell him something that wasn't true. She was pure and honest and reliable, and if she said that something was, it was. He took a small step forward, then another. With utmost hesitance the soldier approached, completely set on running at the slightest sign of threat. Some things you just couldn't fight..

"... Mirage?" he asked hesitantly and stopped, still with a good bit of distance between them. He still couldn't believe it, didn't recognize anything about the soft shadow of a mare in this predator, golden and fierce and altogether dangerous.

""


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Mirage the DragonHeart Posts: 414
Deceased atk: 5.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Mare :: Equine :: 15.3 :: Eighteen HP: 68.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Akaith :: Royal Golden Dragon :: Fire Breath Whit
#6
Reptilian flaps rose atop her head, ears that was reminiscent of her equine form, but held a definite draconic flair to them now. Two horns bent backwards just behind them, their points dulled, unsharpened. To an astute observer, one would notice the lack of foul breath upon her tongue, for there was no meat rotting within her belly - only a fire brewing within her fire stomach, which might lend a slightly charcoal small occasionally wafted from her. But that particular scent wasn't uncommon for the mare herself, always having Akaith's hot breath around.

As it was, Mirage could relate to poor Lace as he was forced to confront her in this form. Upon this very beach, she too had met with Jörmungandr, the great dragon of the ocean, and stood shivering in her hooves before his mammoth form. He had been larger than she was, even now, with her broad wingspan and long, muscular tail bulking up her mass. Idly she wondered how she would feel had he emerged from his watery depths now, with she in this form. Though she was a dragon, her instincts were still largely equine - her wings were as likely to take her away from danger as to bring her nearer to it.

So, in a way, the creature of glittering golden scales could sympathise with Lace, and she had to admire him for his resolve, even if he had come to the conclusion that by fleeing he would have only encouraged the predator within her to give chase. She might have seen him as suicidal, for though he kept a wary distance, he still stood before a most terrifying being, one capable of ripping him limb for limb. The sinewy muscles were clear and bulging along her lean, athletic form, holding her wings steady as the wing threatened to topple them over. An interesting exercise, she commented dryly to her bonded, who sent colours of amusement in response.

You are like a hatchling, learning her wings for the first time. To this Mirage allowed herself some humble amusement. Indeed I am, I feel like but a hatchling, barely scraping the shell's soft membrane aside as I open my eyes to what the world truly contains. Akaith continued to dance about the waves, but brought her play nearer to where Lace stood, both to offer the stallion some kind of comfort, some reminder of normalcy in this strange affair. Perhaps, in time, it would seem less strange. But then, the opposite was just as likely, perhaps none would ever get used to having a dragon in their midst.

"Perhaps." Mirage's smooth voice replied to the stallion's question, amusement thick in her tones - the mask of her transformation had stolen and replaced the mask of indifference her equine form usually hosted. With practised coordination, the dragon shifted weight, her majestic tiara turning to the right so that the elongated, wispy markings that were usually gold shimmered black against aureate scales along the length of her serpentine. It was the same marking, only reversed in colouration. It was this marking that had been her first clue as to the Moon Goddess' intentions for Mirage, but it had taken so long for the mare to come to this conclusion. To think, the Goddess was speaking the truth plainly that first day she suggested that the little shadowy mare was a dragon.

With the same careful, steady movements the dragon then folded her clawed legs beneath her, lowering her massive form to the sand, kneading it with her surprisingly dextrous foreclaws as she went. Abruptly her wings collapsed to her sides as well, and the dragon appeared much smaller, much less ferocious, than the great looming predator she had been while standing. A smile that could be described as nothing more or less than devious curved her lips, and sparkled behind her eyes, as she observed, silently, the silver grulla, testing his steadfastness when only moments before depression had clouded his entire being.

"The time between our first meeting and now has changed a great many things, has it not, Lace?"


Lace the Silverthorn Posts: 459
Deceased atk: 5 | def: 9 | dam: 5.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 15.3 hh :: 14 HP: 65 | Buff: NOVICE
Fajira :: Plain White Dragon :: Fire Breath Chan
#7

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



Wariness, caution, tension. The stallion read like an open book, too shook up to even think of hiding his emotions. He might have grown considerably since the day when he casually strolled into the Gateway of Isilme and claimed himself a warrior, but it was doubtful whether he would ever grow jaded enough to remain calm in front of something like this. The approach of Akaith and subsequently also Fajira did little to soothe him. They could be unsettling enough with fire and claws and ferocious temper, and only served as a hint at what this beast might be capable of. He wasn't soothed by the amused look on the dragons face as she avoided his question; if anything it rekindled his irritation, made the ears clip upon the masked head. He never appreciated being made fun of, and if this indeed was Mirage she was approaching him in a damned strange way.

His suspicion was more or less confirmed by the question - or rather statement - that followed, but it did little to reassure the stud. With the pale mane whipping in the strong wind he glared at her, gilded eyes piercing the blackness of the storm to meet the slitted gaze of Mirage.

"Apparently so, at least for you" he said wryly. Was this some kind of joke to her? Well, he wasn't laughing. "I, on the other hand, haven't noticed much of a change in anything. The seasons, perhaps." He had no wish to talk about the ones he had met during their time apart, or the things he had seen. None of them changed anything, nothing would erase the black abyss that always waited within his mind.

Lace shook his head, eyes closing for a moment as he held back a sigh. Why was he even being gruff towards her? It was his own damn fault that he had been startled, his own problem whether he was locked in a circle of depression that seemed impossible to break free from. It had nothing to do with her. When he opened his eyes again and looked back towards the shape-shifter the grulla suddenly looked tired, the empty void that slowly consumed his mind spilling out into the shadows through the eyes. It was the eyes of someone that was growing tired of fighting, who was on the verge of giving up. Maybe the event of the past could seem like a silly thing to torment oneself over, but for Lace it was dead serious. He had struggled, did so still, but on his own it was a slowly loosing battle and only Fajira had managed to keep him on the right side so far.

"What are you doing here, Mirage?" he asked, only half caring about the answer. "Is your Qian really such an idle bunch that you have time to play on the beach?" If she had come to recruit him she would have to think again. Lace didn't mind playing games, but there were better times and better places than this. Maybe a rainy day in the Deep Forest would have seen him in a better mood, one more suitable for cat-and-mouse games of wit and words. Today was not a good day.

""


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Mirage the DragonHeart Posts: 414
Deceased atk: 5.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Mare :: Equine :: 15.3 :: Eighteen HP: 68.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Akaith :: Royal Golden Dragon :: Fire Breath Whit
#8
He was angry. That much was obvious. It rolled off him in waves, radiating as if he were the sun radiating heat. The light banter she held behind her eyes had been interpreted a way the dragon-mare had not expected; then she wondered just how he would have reacted had she hidden her amused glance. It faded now, the golden one's façade resettling to show nothing more than indifference as to whether the stallion was there or not, stony and set, her slitted eyes narrowed upon him, sharp, slicing right through his insides. She longed to know why, why was he feeling this way, when their first meeting he had been so pleasant, enough so that she had longed to converse with him again? What had changed?

"Be assured, I have not changed, I am, as always, true to myself." The voice was quieter now, and yet seemed to hold more volume, more dimensions of meaning. The DragonHeart enjoyed games, so much so that if she could survive on games alone, she would. But while she enjoyed causing mild irritation, and perhaps testing the wits of another, she never liked to see another in distress, never liked to feel as if she were the cause of said distress. The dragon had grown serious now, her scaled visage set in a vacant stare as she observed the stallion shut his eyes and have his own inner quarrel.

It was not her, who had caused the distress then, though she doubted she had been helpful in what was meant to be playful antics. Miscommunication; even Mirage was prone to it, she who knew that things often went so wrong just because of a handful of words spoken in a vague manner, or interpreted in a way dissimilar to their original intention. She regretted her actions that had perhaps hindered the stallion's progress towards winning his inner battle, but was also resigned to the fact that there was little she could do to change what had already been written in the past. Weary eyes stared back at her, golden, equine eyes, as Lace finally appeared so close to succumbing to whatever darkness was consuming him.

But his words, they were hurtful. The Qian was truly one sure way to touch the mare where it was sensitive, and a touch too hot or too cold was simply not acceptable. The black slits of her golden eyes shrunk, becoming barely visible as she refocussed on this silver grulla, surprising even herself at the low utterance of a growl rumbling about her gullet. It was as if she could not control it, for her expression remained otherwise clear and passive, but her chest brewed a growl that resembled the sound an earthquake makes as it shifts land atop tectonic plates.

"You go too far, Lace." Her voice was simple, not accusing, sad or angry, but plainly speaking facts in way that may have made it seem like he already knew this. "Knowledge of the Qian's activities were available to you once. You had a choice." With a small shrug of her shoulder the dragon dismissed the words. The dragon-mare needn't remind him of his choice to continue on in Helovia without her knowledge as a guide. Life as a vagabond gave one a sense of 'freedom', but was one truly free, especially if they could never escape their own horrors? "My purpose here will be revealed in due time, I expect." Cryptic as always, she remarked on his direct query at her, jaw clacking shut at the end of her sentence with a firm thunk.

"I see change, but I do not see the reason." Though she had her suspicions, having been victim to torrents of darkness and depression before. If not for Akaith, much like Fajira to Lace, Mirage would not be before him today. A shiver twitched the scales along her spine at the memory of it. Friends had come to her that day, friends who were of the Qian, friends who were of her heart. Did Lace have none of these? Mirage's methods were only for the strong, and she knew him to be strong of min, and that most important of all.


Lace the Silverthorn Posts: 459
Deceased atk: 5 | def: 9 | dam: 5.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 15.3 hh :: 14 HP: 65 | Buff: NOVICE
Fajira :: Plain White Dragon :: Fire Breath Chan
#9

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



It was apparent that his words touched a nerve with the dragon mare. It had half been his intention when bringing up the Qian in the first place. Lace wasn't stupid, he remembered well the burst of emotion that had escaped the last time he dared talk about the organization. But even as the face of the golden beast before him grew sullen and the rumbling growl resounded from her throat, the stallion felt no pleasure from managing to get to her. Her pain would never give him anything but more guilt to add to his load - and that, if anything, was what made him do it. There lay a grim satisfaction in the pang of regret that struck him, and the bitter smirk that pulled on his ebony lips made the White let out a cry of dismay. She was not proud over his behavior, and neither was he.

Truth be told, the silver grulla that stood before the WeyrLeader was a mess. Emotions and thoughts were tumbling all over one another within his mind and the harsh words that spilled from his lips was but a desperate attempt at keeping it all hidden. Offense was the best defense and he was desperately trying to keep her at a distance, make sure that the mare of black and gold with this dragons heart wouldn't get too close.

He gritted his teeth and stared quietly back at her, the defiance that gleamed in his gaze almost childish in the stubborn refusal to give in. He suspected that her talk of change was directed towards him - and it wasn't very surprising, really. The stallion that stood before her now was almost the complete opposite of the suave, smooth gentleman she had encountered in the Threshold. Then he had been in control, his emotions had been kept firmly in check. But she had begun to crack that mask of indifference by speaking of Isilme, and his encounter with Paladin sometime afterwards had only served to widen the crack. Lace had never once believed that he would meet others from his former homeland again, and the thought of running into someone that might know of his sins was unbearable.

"Reason have little to do with some things" he retorted. "I don't see why it should be any of your business.. Or are you trying to say that you actually care about me?" There was a bitter irony in the tone of his voice that clearly showed how unlikely he found the thought to be.

Ah, it was cold. The chill of the storm, the frost in his words and the icy bubble that separated him from everything that should be meaningful. All of it together sent a shiver through the gray stallion as he kept rejecting Mirage, inwardly crying over every harsh word he threw at her.

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#10
Mirage knew what went on within Lace. She could see it, the torment, the constant knawing and attacking coming from within. She knew the symptoms; she had been there. He was his own worse enemy, this she could see. But he tried and tried to shift the blame, ease the guilt onto someone else - it would not work. This mare knew of guilt, she knew of that deep, dark void - and not the same Dark void that granted her this magic, no - that fathomless pit of despair. Could he not see that she could help him, that she wanted to? No, and Mirage hadn't seen it then either. His torments brought up memories of her own, when that abysmal void threatened to swallow her up whole shortly after her own hooves had defended her own honour against a stallion determined to use her body for his own pleasures... To kill another, to be responsible for the destroying of another's soul.. It tormented Mirage then, and still did so today. But the mare had accepted the aid of friends when they came to rescue her from her own gloom, and Akaith had encased her broken soul in her own to get her through. What was it Lace was so afraid of? For it was fear, fear of something, -what? The dragon's thoughts were awhirl within her golden cranium, fighting between memories of her own black abyss and wanting to aid Lace with his.

"Even if I do care, reason for my being here is of such little import to you anyway, is it not?" Quietly she responded to him, her voice a soft hum, her stature barely moving save for her lips and a rhythmic sway of her long, rope-like tail. The games between the companions had finished, Akaith now circled above the gathering of her and Fajira's bonded, wishing there was a way she could help more. There had been times when the little queen had reached her mind out to others, to help them make it through that place of despair, but never before had they come across one already bonded with a dragon, Akaith was not so rude as to force herself onto their own bond. In her curious, draconic way she attempted to communicate to Fajira would could be done, her manner was serious and lacked any hints of the play they were previously engaged in.

Akaith was an older, learned dragon. Though she had met the Matriarch of Helovia at the Heavenly Fields with Vikram and her beloved bonded one, she was still a queen in her own right, and her telepathic abilities were akin to that of one who had trained how to invade another's mind for years. Akaith could send a thought to others, often she used this to aid in calling together the Qian, again she used it to ensure other members of the Qian were safe. But more than that, she could wrap her mind around another's completely, acting as a cushion (or indeed, something much sharper) until such a time that she saw fit to remove herself. Of course, that wasn't to say there were some out there who could resist her abilities, but they were few and far between. If anything, Lace was more prone to it thanks to his relationship with Fajira - but again, Akaith would not reach out to another's bonded with her own mind. So the queen tried to encourage the little white to be more insistent on her bond, to help Lace see everything his dark abyss had been hiding from him. Make him face his guilt.. It will hurt him, but he is hurting himself more without you. Fajira..

Mirage could hear her bonded making the pleas to the little white, and she was curious as to what the outcome may be of it. Was the white as capable as Akaith in impressing her mind upon her bonded? Or was Akaith particularly strong in her ability, or had everyone they had come across so far simply been particularly prone to it? Seemingly at random, a large log was dropped in the sand before them. Promptly a scorching fire was breathed over it, gushing from the mouth of the large golden dragon laying upon the sand. She did not feel the cold in this form, but she was not staying in this form forever. The log was wet on the outside, but inside it was dry still, and it took the flames and glowed an eerie orange around the edges of the charred timber.

In the contrast of the light, from where the stallion was standing, it was unlikely he would be able to clearly make out what was happening to the mare, as her head bowed again. Like the flames that licked the log before them, it felt as if they were consuming her flesh, as the shift altered her body again to restore the original form over her. Wings were seemingly absorbed into her shoulder blades, her tail spewed forth plumes of raven hair before disappearing completely. The marking upon her nape seemed to blur and cover her in dancing shadows, before everything settled once more, and a little black mare lay with her limbs folded beneath her, on the sand before Lace. She appreciated the log Akaith had provided, and enjoyed testing out the just how well she could blow her own flame, though with wry thoughts she noted the taste of charred hair on her tongue. It's going to take a while to get used to that. The pain of the transformation left her feeling drained, though her stony façade remained forever vacant of emotions. She would not be caught out again, in front of Lace, she told herself. Akaith crooned lovingly as she descended from the skies, having done her best to teach Fajira how she might help her bonded, even showing the little white how even now, she could lessen her bonded's pain by ensuring their minds were as close as ever, by directing Mirage's own thoughts back to the present.

"I know not what you want from me, Lace. But I can do nothing until I am given something to work with."



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#11

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



Her reply was unexpected. It made made him hesitate, mouth opening to retort... But no sharp words came to mind, nothing that held enough truth to want to slip over the tongue. Lace took a step back with a confused look, for a moment completely forgetting about the dragon that was Mirage and the fact that he should be fearful and cautious. Was it really true, that he didn't care why she was there? He wanted to say yes, the entire self defense mechanism that worked to keep her out wished to throw it in her face, rub it in that he had no interest in her and that he couldn't care less where she was and why she pretended to care. But even now it seemed that he couldn't lie so easily. Because it was a lie. For some reason that he couldn't discern in this chaotic state of mind, Mirage's presence was important, and even more important was the reason why she had chosen to appear just here, at this very moment. What she wanted from him, why she had chosen to interest herself in just him, of all strangers that surely had to pass through the Threshold.

It wasn't something he was willing to admit to himself however, so instead he struggled to find something else to say, something that would make her quiet, push her away and make the mare give up on him. The silence was building up quickly between them, accented by the whipping wind, the thunder and the never ending roar of the thrashing ocean. He had to think of something fast, before it was too late and anything he said would taste of untruth and weakness...
Why don't you just lie to her then?
He frowned and discarded the thought, almost unconsciously repulsed by the thought of lying.
You lie to yourself, so what's the difference?

Lace turned his head and watched with puzzled expression as the little White landed in the sand before him, exactly in the middle between himself and Mirage. What was she doing? Her small frame exuded indifference as she pawed at the sand, digging away the dry upper layers until she had made herself a small burrow. Her inner voice was dry and down-to-earth, as if she was commenting on the state of her claws rather than the roller coaster of his mind. He hadn't noticed the communication between her and Akaith, too occupied with his own state of mind to pay any heed to the bonded; she carefully hid the memory of the advice within the nooks of her own mind that always remained private to him, and made sure to close off the doubts she had about the method. She wanted to help him, but his pain had always been hers as well, and to purposely go poking his wounds was excruciating for her. Still she did so, because she trusted the golden queen that had become her friend and beloved playmate, and she knew that the black-and-gold didn't want to harm her bonded.

I don't lie to myself Lace protested, surprised and confused by the sudden conversation. They never argued much, and never about something like this; he was more puzzled than angry though, frowning and shifting the weight between his feet as he tried to understand what she was trying to accomplish.
You do she insisted and fixated pale, misty gray eyes upon him with an intensity that made Mirage's eyes seem mild and pleasant. Lace recoiled another step, as if trying to ward off the words that resounded in his mind. Unwelcome. Painful.
You keep telling yourself how you deserve any pain that comes to you, how despicable and dishonest you are. You keep going on and on about something that is long behind you, chewing it like tasty meat.
How could I allow myself to ever forget about it? he tried to defend himself, ears folding backward at the tone with which she spoke.
Who says you should? she retorted. Remembering and wallowing is not the same.
I don't wallow!
Then why aren't you running with other four legs already?
I have no interest in..
Why sad when they leave you behind after saying no? Why not run with them, play with them, talk to them and let them rely on you, when it's what you want more than anything..
"Because I don't want to betray anyone ever again!" he spewed out, desperately trying to finish the sentence before she cut him off yet again; not realizing that the cry had been made out loud until he could hear the agonizing tone of his own voice.

He could have hit himself. Instead he swirled around to look at the large golden dragon that hid the mare he had met, cold sweat breaking out at the thought that she would have heard him. But instead of a ferocious predator clad in scale and claw his eyes landed upon the small, soft form of the black mare, resting in the sand with shadows dancing around her, thrown long behind her by the flickering light of the fire. Fire? When had she.. and what about the dragon? What was going on here!? A feeling of desperation urged the grulla to turn around and run away, far from the eyes of the three dragons that pierced him like spears, as if they were digging around in his soul in search for.. for something. But before he had the chance to run the words of the mare landed upon his turned back, wrapped around his legs and made him halt. Again he felt the unreal tiredness wash over him and made the steely sides heave in a deep sigh.

What he wanted from her? It was something he had never even thought about. Did he even wish for anything? But even as the thought crossed his mind he realized what it was he wanted, what he feared and what he was running from. It was the same thing, really.

"What I want from you, huh.." he mumbled, barely audible over the storm. "Then will you judge me, Mirage? Will you listen to me and tell me how to pay for my sins?" He turned and looked at her across the dune, suspecting but not entirely sure of whether she had picked up on his outburst from before. She must have an inkling of what it was that weighed on him now, must be trying to piece the puzzle together in her mind. The mare was so intelligent, so clever with words. But would she realize the details, and the importance it had to him? Would she be able to comprehend his agony, or was he going to be waved off as being silly for resting on something trivial? For some reason he doubted it.



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#12
The fire flickered before them. Flames danced, weaved, ducked, grasped, clawed and consumed the woody material, turning it black, blacker than Mirage's own pelt, before eventually it succumbed and crumbled away to a pile of ashen flakes. Golden eyes watched the flames with their greedy consumption of the damp log, ears pressed forward to hear the barely audible hissing that resulted from the flames complaining about their wet meal. ,I>Resistance.. an idle thought tracked through her mind, and suddenly, she could see what the flames actually described before her.

Gaze peered above and around the flames now, to watch the interaction between dragon and horse. It was a rare thing for her, to observe what she so often did herself. She saw the intricate beauty of the log within Lace, she saw the many different pathways that had grown, the millions of thoughts that could be likened to the many flakes of bark that make up a tree. But she could see the flames attempted to consume him too, flames of guilt, anger, fear - would he be able to fight them off, just as the damp areas of the log resisted the flames? A puff of air blew from the mare's nostrils.

He is stronger than a log. With some small surprise Mirage heard her dragon speak to her. Akaith had settled beside her bonded's head, and having always been intimately close with her mind, knew what the little shadow was thinking, seeing, pondering. The mare nudged her little queen with affection, wuffling her agreement at decibels only she would hear. Yes, Lace was much stronger than this log that would eventually fold into a pile ash, before spreading on the Moon Goddess' graceful windy ways to coat the beach, and eventually add to the many granules of sand that constructed the coastline.

Mirage had faith in him, for she saw him for what he was - a thinker, perhaps a bit broody in his thoughts, but a creature of intelligence nonetheless. He as so caught up with himself, she knew that she was yet to uncover his full potential, even as he struggled to face whatever it was Fajira was attempting to help him face. Refocussing her golden gaze upon him, she looked with mild surprise as he shouted, ears pricked and muscles twitching from the contained urge to rise and perhaps defend herself, or flee. Another breath passed, and she realised what he had said, that it involved betrayal.

The swift and cunning mind of the little shadow mare chewed this over, even as the stallion twirled away from her, and made to leave. She was glad her words gave him pause, gladder still when she saw him prepare to speak. With a small effort, the mare rose from the sandy bed she had lain upon, coat twitching to loosen the grip of sand upon her hairs. With Akaith's keen senses and her own, she was able to discern his words, his plea to her - and again, she was left surprised. He yearned for judgement? For someone to call him out on his past errors, and make him pay? He seeks retribution.

"Judgement is a matter for Gods to deal with, Lace, I am no God." Though her voice carried strong through the storm raging above them that she might have sounded like one. It was definitive, clear and unyielding. "But I will listen, I will judge, I will offer you retribution, if that is what you seek from me." It was a unnerving task she had given to herself, or rather, had accepted from him. Of course, the question of whether he would take her words to heart or not existed, but Mirage could sense the desperation in this steed, the dire need for acceptance and recognition of his crimes.


The insatiable thirst for knowledge the mare possessed also fuelled her acceptance. A smooth, long step was taken towards him, and another, until she was standing square before him, the fire to their sides now. Warm breaths passed between them, and Mirage looked him deeply in the eye, before speaking with her exotic and most honest tongue. "You have my word." Her tiara bowed to him, as good as a handshake or signature on a contract. Mirage signed her word to this stallion, her word that she would hear him out, and honestly deliver what he sought in return.



Lace the Silverthorn Posts: 459
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Fajira :: Plain White Dragon :: Fire Breath Chan
#13

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



"The gods didn't seem to interested last time I asked" he said with a faint smile, revealing that he actually had tried to seek their guidance. Why hide it, now that he had decided to open up to her?

Perhaps it was better this way, the stallion mused as he tried to gather his thoughts and settle down the upset feelings that still swirled within. It wasn't the opinion of the gods he fear anyway, but rather that of the ones he had to meet and live with when walking through life. It wasn't the gods he had hurt by turning against them, and it wasn't their forgiveness he really wanted. Actually, to be perfectly honest he wasn't sure of whether Mirage was the right one either. But the appearance of the mare was so similar to that of Aera that he could almost pretend it was her.

Her promise sealed the last path of escape, and with a deep breath Lace looked back into her eyes, gold meeting gold in the closest he could manage to bear his soul to her. They weren't connected like they were to their dragons and he couldn't simply lead her down the path of his memories to reveal what had happened, but he could at the very least make sure that she knew he wasn't hiding anything. The burden he had placed on her was heavy enough as it was.

"I was raised to be a warrior" he began, the voice thoughtful and as low as he could allow it to be for the roaring storm. "It wasn't that I didn't have other options, it just wasn't ever discussed and I never thought about complaining. We were a herd in war, but it was so large and held so much ground that the youngsters rarely, if ever came in contact with the ugly sides of it. I was taught from foalhood to embrace the glory of it; strength to protect myself and other, loyalty to your commander, honor and discipline. To remain true to myself and others, no matter what I was faced with. Even after my first contact with actual battle I kept to the codex, because I believed in it." He felt how Fajira came padding over the sand and curled up around his leg, but didn't move to look at her. He wasn't mad at what she had done, it just wasn't the time to do anything other than talk, and keep his focus directed at the shadow mare.

"I was in my third year when I came to Isilme. After roaming around on my own for a while I was invited to join the herd that resided on the Moonlit Tides, at that time led by Aera. I accepted, and was grated the position as warrior, entrusted with the protection of the herd. It was a good time. I befriended many horses, I was entrusted with Fajira's egg, I sparred with legendary warriors... I think I might even have been happy."

He paused to breathe. A look of longing flickered across the masked face as he remembered the times in his past. Then a shadow was thrown his way by the crackling flame, and the faint smile faded from his lips.

"I don't know what it was that came over me that night" he said, sadness and confusion mingled honesty shining from his eyes when he focused on Mirage. "It was as if a haze lowered over my mind, I could see and hear, but I couldn't control my own actions. I watched myself seek out Querida, the ruling lead of the Woodlands, and strike a deal with her. A place in her herd and warriors rank, for the location of Aera. Apparently there was strife between them, and she gladly accepted my offer." He swallowed hard, feeling a lump of disgust forming in the throat as he revealed his crime.

"So I asked Aera to take a walk with me, I led her to the border of the Tides, where the LightningQueen was waiting. And then I left, leaving her to defend herself. When the war over the Tides began I fought on the side of the invaders; I lost my battle, and was healed by someone from the opposing side for reasons I cannot comprehend, and then I.." He could have kept talking forever. It didn't even have anything to do with the crime, but something urged him to just keep telling the leader of the Qian about everything that had happened between the battle and their meeting. How he had removed himself from the herd in the Woodlands and quietly just left Isilme without being missed. How he and Fajira roamed without a goal as his guilt consumed him, how he joined up with bands of mercenaries and fought in war after pointless war, somehow always managing to stay alive. He had learned to hold the depression down, sealed it off with promises to never let anything like that happen again; he had taught himself to smile even when he wasn't happy and to talk even if his tongue tasted bitter of the things left unsaid. That's how he was when he met her in the Threshold not long ago. That was when the mask cracked, when the very mention of Isilme had brought everything back at double force, until he almost couldn't breathe from the weight of his guilty conscience.

It was the soft warble of the White that finally made him grow silent. At some point she had managed up on his back; now he could feel her small paws pat his withers soothingly and her mind wrap around his, giving him support and gently hushing him. He blinked slowly, suddenly exhausted at the effort of holding his head up; he wanted to lie down in the sand, let the smoldering remnants of the fire warm his chilled skin and sink into a deep sleep. But he couldn't. Not yet, because Mirage had yet to speak. He watched her as the silence thickened around them, and realized that the storm slowly was beginning to loose its edge. The wind still whipped up the waves and beat them to the shore, but the thunder and the lightnings seemed to be heading further in towards land. He could breathe more easily now, and within the quiet embrace of his dragon the stallion felt how the first cold drops of rain fell onto his back. Funny, how much he felt like weeping along with the dark sky.

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#14
Silence engulfed them. If one could describe the electric chaos that was the weather at the moment. Crackles and sparks still flew in the clouds above them, occasionally highlighting and outlining strange figures in the clouds above. One might wonder at what creatures dared to live within a storm, what could survive the tumultuous habitat that was a raincloud? One might wonder this, if they allowed their thoughts to wander too far from more urgent matters. The storm was passing now, at least the thunderous parts of it, bringing in its stead thick, heavy droplets of rain. Over the ocean, a great wall seemed to disrupt the smooth surface of the wavy water, though for now only the outskirts of the precipitation touched them. The log by their side hissed some more, the flames continued to complain about their fuel being damp.

It felt like, to the little shadow mare, that with every rain drop that fell from the sky, a new thought tracked through her mind. She listened wholeheartedly to his tale, her gaze never wavering from his own , her ears tracking his voice on the stormy wind and capturing, storing the words he weaved away. He revealed so much about himself, with such earnest intricacy, Mirage could not doubt that he spoke truth. A twirl of emotions engulfed her, as she went on this journey with him. The most initial was a sense of honour, that he would choose her, of all the creatures within Helovia, to tell his tale to. Another would be understanding, for his plight held similarities with actions her own hooves had done, though perhaps the similarities began and ended with the resulting guilt one placed upon themselves after performing grievous actions.

The mare sensed his hopelessness at being left unanswered by the Gods, she longed to have aided him there, but despite all her performances, she was only ever a mortal mare, with little sway over the great celestial, immortal beings that were the Gods of Helovia. He continued to speak, names from Isilme of old that sometimes rang a bell within the mare's cranium - so long ago had the originaly been planted there, however, it was only names, and blurry faces within her mind's eye that she saw upon their mention. Aera, she remembered, being named as the ShadowKissed, and she thought of Adele, the curiously hued daughter of the inky mare whom had stepped through the Threshold some months ago. Querida was mentioned, though she did not meet the mare, she remembered some affiliation with another, a Sylvanas, a dark unicorn mistress whom had come across Mirage before Akaith had even emerged from her egg. It helped, Mirage thought, that she knew of these creatures, of Isilme, but held little emotional ties to the place.

His words faded into the storm surrounding them, and the little shadow mare knew the tale was done, the great betrayal was revealed. She knew how he felt without even needing him to speak it. Guilt. Fear. Remorse. The mare nodded, silently conveying that she grasped what he had spoken, and even what he had not spoken. Mirage knew of these emotions, intimately.

"The reason you were healed, I suspect, was because someone chose to forgive you for your actions." Her strong, clear voice began, firm and unwavering over the pitter-patter of raindrops on the sand. The silence had lingered for several minutes while the mare digested everything he had said, but somehow she knew he would not leave until he heard all that she had to say. It was by his request that she gave her judgement on his past, anyway.

"It is my belief that some kind of witchcraft possessed you that night." She did not bother to expand upon which night she referred to; he would know. "Your actions were an act of evil, Lace. But you yourself are not evil. You feel sorry for what you have done; your act of betrayal might be considered unforgivable by some - but remember, you were forgiven, by at least one."

With an easy step, Mirage closed the gap between them, reaching out to the stallion with her velveteen muzzle, aiming to caress the track a tear she thought she saw made down his chiselled crown. "Weep, Lace, weep for what you did, for you caused much pain, and sorrow. Shed your tears, and shed your guilt. Remember what you have done, and let that be punishment enough. Evil only rules you if you allow it to." The mare gave a small breath of air, its warmth lingering between them. The vicinity with which she stood by the steed allowed her to feel the chill that dared enter his body, and with gentle nudging and coercing, she encouraged him to stand closer to the fiery log, and placed her own bodice on his other side. "You will have to help him, Fajira." She spoke to the dragon situated atop his withers, leaving her maw within reach of the dragon should the little white accept her gentle caress.

"I do not know how many here might know of you from Isilme times, Lace. But should you come across any who question your honour, ask that they direct their questions to myself." Mirage could see that he had already paid for his crime, the punishment his mind had imprisoned him within was redemption enough. Of course, Lace would likely hardly see it this way, but the mare knew that though her words contained wisdom, they themselves would not ward off future weaknesses of resolve in the stallions own membrane. It all depended on himself, and Fajira.





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#15

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



Was it moments that passed, or years? The heartbeats between the ending of his tale and the beginning of hers seemed endless, and never had he felt so exposed and vulnerable as he did then. This wasn't like anything he had never done before. To talk about himself, about memories and feelings, it just wasn't something he ever did. Partly because it hadn't been necessary and partly, because it wasn't in his nature to entrust others with his own problems. The stallion used to be the protector, not the one to be protected. It was a situation he hadn't been in since he was a very young foal, and it caught him off guard completely. Was it really okay, to entrust Mirage with so much of himself? He didn't know her, wasn't sure he could trust her... Ha, but then again. Between the two of them, he was probably the least trustworthy.

In the darkness that covered the earth her words fell, heavy and determined like the rain from the hovering clouds. Lace clung to them, allowed the soothing voice to sink in until the meaning of them became clear. The result surprised him. He wasn't sure what he had been expecting or hoping for, but whatever it was, this was not it.

He was forgiven?
Forgiven.

Really? It was unreal. A part of him wanted to protest, to object against the mild verdict that didn't crave blood and death and exile for what he had done. It was quickly shushed by the remaining part of him and by Fajira, who kept his mind in a gentle but firm embrace. Soothing, warming, he felt the kind and curious little soul share her brightness with him, weighing up for the brooding darkness that was his nature.
The stallion felt his eyes sting and blinked, surprised to find that tears were rolling slowly down his cheek. When had he begun to cry? It didn't really matter though, and he did nothing to stop himself. Neither did he shy away from the touch of the dark mare; for a moment he simply accepted it. But as he felt the warmth from the burning log and her body he gave in and leaned against her, hid his face in her mane and wept.

Perching on his back, Fajira purred soothingly and reached out to but noses with Mirage, unhesitating. Unlike her bonded the little dragon seemed perfectly in tune with herself, content and happy in just existing. She had no need for purpose or goals, it was enough to simply gaze back on each day and confirm that she had indeed been there. She was still young though, and had much to learn about struggles and sadness and how to deal with it. Because of that, she was grateful to the Queen and her Black-and-Gold for the help and the support. With gentle paws she reached out to capture the nose of the shadow coated four legs and hold it, before trying to lick it with a warm and surprisingly soft tongue. She couldn't do much else, beside trilling affectionately and promise both Akaith and Mirage all the help she could ever give them.

It took a long time, but gradually the breathing of the white-maned stallion began to calm down. As his tears ceased to fall he took a deep breath and slowly shifted the head, reached down to rub the salty dampness from his cheeks against the knees. It didn't help much. The heavy rain seemed to soak everything, washing away any dirt and impurity fro the landscape. It wouldn't be able to wash away the actions of the past, but somehow the grulla still felt better as the cold droplets pattered against his back and flooded down the mane and legs. It reminded him of purification, of clean slates and new beginnings...

"Thank you" he murmured and raised the neck once more, voice hoarse still but with the shadow of a smile hinting in the eyes. He had probably never uttered a word with so many meanings before. It was a thank you for not letting him push her away, for hearing him out, for being honest and for lending him a shoulder to cry on. Oh, what a debt he was building up towards this mare. She would probably never allow him to pay it off if he mentioned it though, or even acknowledge it. But perhaps.. he didn't have to say anything. The eyes of the knight closed halfway in a look that could seem drowsy if it weren't for the cunning that flashed by the amber orbs; perhaps there was some way he could pay her back without even letting her know.

Sidestepping slightly to allow Mirage some more space if she wanted it he mulled over the thought. Of course there was something that came to mind right away when he considered the dragon lady and their conversations so far, but in order to be of any help whatsoever it would require some more information on the subject. And for that he'd need to ask questions... Not very subtle. Ah well, she wouldn't know why he was asking. Hopefully she'd take it as an apology from before. Which it might be too, come to think of it.

Get to the point, silly the lazy thought of the dragon urged him on, and for a moment he had to suppress a grin. She always knew what he was thinking..

"Mirage.." he began, fumbling for a good way of expressing himself. "do you think you could.. Would you mind telling me more about the Qian?" It came out a bit sheepish, but for once Lace didn't mind that he sounded like a school-boy that had refrained from listening and now needed to hear it all again. He didn't even mind the fact that he was loosing the battle of wills; it was a little late for pride now, after he had shown her all his ugly sides. It was almost with a sense of relief that the warrior admitted defeat and gave in, ears turning to catch any words the WeyrLeader might have to offer him.


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Mare :: Equine :: 15.3 :: Eighteen HP: 68.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Akaith :: Royal Golden Dragon :: Fire Breath Whit
#16
The mare was not sure how her words would be received. Truth be told, she was scared of how he would react; would he collapse into his shell once more, or would he accept her words, reach out, and begin living his life again? For surely the past however many years he had been carrying this burden, he had not been living, not to his full potential, and thereby, not even allowing Fajira to live to her full potential. But she stood by him, willing to continue trying to get through to him should his defences flare up once more, willing to persist where one might declare it a hopeless battle - Mirage was a stubborn mare, stubborn and determined. She saw something that needed to be done within Lace, something that needed mending, and she was intent on at least beginning the healing, opening the gateway for everything else to escape, for the infection to clear so that the scabs could truly form, and hold. Scars were always left behind, but scars were there to remind us of what he had done - it does well to remember one's mistakes, for then one would never learn to not repeat them.

He folded, but it was not an inward, introverted, collapse. Rather, it was a submission to the truth behind her words, a conclusion which he may have been able to come to himself, if he just focussed his mind upon the relevant parts. But guilt had a way of blinding one to the subtle cues, the kind gestures of others, guilt had a way of making one feel unworthy of them, guilt made one hate others for wanting to show their kindness. Relief spread through the mare, and quiet happiness; the healing had begun.

He wept, his crown leaning into her, her strong, sturdy frame welcoming the embrace, allowing more warmth and feeling to be transmitted through their touch. Rain pelted against them, their manes of opposing hues clutched to the others until distance tore them apart again. It was fortunate that her ears were pricked, for she would not have heard the two words he uttered otherwise. A smile, genuine and warm brightened her face, and the softness of her maw reached out to brush his cheek, to assure him that she understood him, on many levels. Perhaps one day, she would reveal to him just how, and why she was able to see everything that went on within him - because it sure as day went on within her.

A happy silence stretched between them, the mare actually thought they were likely to wait the rain out together, on this beach. She even pondered asking the steed if he longed to move to a more sheltered land, or perhaps find a cave - but as her eyes roamed over his form again she noticed he was preparing to speak. Curiously she heard the words, and if the smile before is anything to go by, this one lit her face up tenfold. Amusement glittered behind her eyes, but it was comradely amusement, not mockingly felt, and a gentle, angelic giggle chimed from her maw, though the pounding of the rain swallowed it up, for the most part.

"You ask a loaded question, though perhaps you don't realise just how much so." The mare figured that he meant to ask her of the Qian's beliefs and structure once more, but she was going to award him with a slightly different interpretation. "The Qian is me, Lace. For so long I travelled with Akaith, for so long we learned the ways of dragons, the ways of survival - I never thought such a realm as Helovia could infect my heart with a longing to share the protectiveness I feel over my family, to extend my love and devotion to others. The Qian is everything to me, I founded it with my mate, together we lead those willing to follow us under a flag that promises protection, mutual trust and loyalty." A breath was taken, it was easy to see the enthusiasm of her words giving her a new energy. But as she looked at the stallion, she realised she might be behaving a bit too energetic and happy given the circumstances. Again, she reached her maw out to press against his cheek.

"Why do you ask, Lace?"






Lace the Silverthorn Posts: 459
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Stallion :: Equine :: 15.3 hh :: 14 HP: 65 | Buff: NOVICE
Fajira :: Plain White Dragon :: Fire Breath Chan
#17

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



The droplets that fell endlessly from the clouded sky were cold. The wind was cold, and the upset waves that nagged at the beach and tried to swallow it whole held a chill that could seep the strength out of the strongest of land-living creatures. It was cold, but Lace didn't mind it because it was only a physical chill that wasn't going to hurt him in the long run. Not now; because within a fire had been lit, by the kindness of a shadow. The flames were small and frail still but continuously fed by a meticulous patience and small touches that made the skin of his cheek tingle, sheltered and protected by glimmering white wings. It was a strange situation, at once both simple and endlessly complicated that stemmed from one undeniable fact. He wasn't alone.

Did she know what her kind words were doing to him? Lace realized that he was thawing out at a rapid pace, much too quick for his battered mind to really handle. It couldn't be good to open up too much to one he wasn't familiar with, it wasn't safe. As much as he wanted to rely on Mirage - and he did, it was so tempting to just place every little hope he harbored on her steady shoulders - it just wouldn't be wise. He could get hurt, and who would be there to help him out of it? But at the same time it was too late to withdraw from her, to deny her access to his mind and hide things from her. It was a complicated situation...
Not really. A step at a time, is all. You won't be going anywhere, and neither will she. The steady thought securely placed a lid on his thoughts as they tried to spin off into a loop once more. Lace nudged Fajira with his mind in silent gratitude, as always amazed by how easily she managed to find the solution to any problem. She was right. There was no need to rush into anything; he could take his time, listen and watch and make a decision when he was ready.

So he listened, taking in the sound of Mirages voice and nodding as she once more talked about her Qian. Again he couldn't help but notice how she brightened once the subject turned to the group; he smiled at her sudden burst of energy, glad to find her mood brightening. Actually, she almost seemed bubbly, something he hadn't expected from the devious mare. It only showed how little he knew about her. Who knew though.. perhaps he'd get the opportunity to change that.

The stallion had to think for a while before he could answer her question, in the meantime nibbling casually at the tip of her forelock. He wasn't quite accustomed to be touchy-feely with others, but right now he wasn't going to complain; this wasn't a situation that conformed to the norm, anyway.
"You have done a lot for me even though we barely know each other" he mused out loud, allowing her to understand his trail of thought - at least part of it, since he wasn't going to mention his feeling of debt towards her. "It is the least I can do to hear you out properly, and give your offer a thorough consideration." That much he would tell her, true but not the whole truth. He needed to keep something to himself, as not to loose himself completely.

The grullo tucked away the information she offered into his mind to be digested later when he was in a more stable state of mind. One implication of what she had said couldn't quite be overlooked however, and he chose his words carefully when addressing it, not wanting to bring out a storm over him once again. It had been quite enough of hurtful words already today.
"It makes it a somewhat fragile group, does it not." he said and looked at her with eyes that without his knowledge seemed piercing, clear as honey as he considered the structure of the organization. "If you ultimately are the Qian and the ideals and foundation of the group is you, then most of the bonds that keep that group together will be connected to you. That is to say, it stands and falls with you." The tone he spoke with was somewhat absent as he tried to picture the structures in his mind. No matter how he tried to twist and turn the problem he came to the same conclusion, that it was Mirage that was the center and the only thing that kept the others together. Perhaps it wasn't entirely correct, but from the information given it was the only answer he could come up with.

The stallion gazed at his company with a thoughtful expression. Was she really intending to go to war with something that fragile? If she fell or was captured, it might all come crashing down. Those bonds might make them all strong while Mirage was there, but if she wasn't around? It might turn the group into nothing but a gathering of strangers with little in common but a few ideals. Protect and be protected... It was good and well, but protect against what?



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Mirage the DragonHeart Posts: 414
Deceased atk: 5.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Mare :: Equine :: 15.3 :: Eighteen HP: 68.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Akaith :: Royal Golden Dragon :: Fire Breath Whit
#18
Hissing and spitting, one might think a cat had possessed the dying log on the beach beside them. It was Akaith who observed it, speaking quietly to her bonded, even the log is stronger than the fires of guilt, as the glowing embers were finally squashed by the onslaught of rain. The little queen could use her flame in attempts to revive the flame, but the symbolism of it all seemed to convince her otherwise. Mirage was the rain for Lace's fiery guilt, she relayed, but his mind was stronger and more capable than the silly log, for his mind could heal. The intricate pathways in the bark of the log would forever be twisted, and slowly turn into ash and sand, but Lace's mind would thrive on his newfound freedom from his own prison; dragon and equine alike looked forward to it.

A low warble rumbled from Akaith, she was upon the withers of Mirage in an instant, crooning her pleasure at the turn of events. The queen greeted the white similarly, even giving Lace a gentle 'pat' with her dextrous claws. Friends, she seemed to say, wanting to cement the idea between them. Fajira, she knew, would at least understand the words. Friendship went deeper than simple kinship, for friendship was not defined by species nor bonds of blood. Akaith was glad to make more friends, alongside her bonded. The stallion spoke, appropriate words, the little queen thought, nodding her understanding, just as her bonded gave a small tilt of her tiara in acceptance of them. Of course, then he continued to speak.

It was the reason she was drawn to him. He questioned her, he did not allow himself to be led blindly. He was careful, weary, he looked before he leapt - they were qualities she admired and respected - and also found them infuriating to the point where sometimes she just wanted to shake him. But good spirits were high today, and while he might have previously gotten a rise of anger from her, with the rain beating upon them, she was oddly happy. Happy for the outcome of his plight, happier still to be speaking of the Qian. The laughter was soft, mostly hinted at then actually present. She gave him a very knowing look, before leaning her shoulder against him in an abrupt, playful and subtle shove.

"You think me fragile?" It was posed with kindness in her eyes, play and coyness clear behind the gentle smile that so rarely graced her lips. "All who call themselves Qian are marked with my scent; they call me their Leader and I accept their loyalty and trust. Those who are a part of it trust me because I trust them; and that faith allows them to in turn trust their fellows." What he spoke was somewhat truthful; there would be no Qian without her, but for as long as she lived, there would be a Qian. "The only way the Qian would not exist, I think, would be if my heart ceased to beat, if my lungs ceased to fill, if death consumed me." She mused quietly, wondering morbidly at just what could happen to her beloved Qian should death take her.

"I have faith, however, in my Qian's ability to endure without my immediate presence, while many come to me seeking protection, many more train and learn the many ways in which they can protect their kin. We are a family, Lace, bonded by ties deeper, stronger and more permanent than even blood can offer. If you think that fragile, then we must agree to disagree."




Lace the Silverthorn Posts: 459
Deceased atk: 5 | def: 9 | dam: 5.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 15.3 hh :: 14 HP: 65 | Buff: NOVICE
Fajira :: Plain White Dragon :: Fire Breath Chan
#19

LACE

Who, in his mind,
has not probed the dark water?



"Absolutely, about as fragile and brittle as an avalanche" he retorted dryly and shifted the weight between his feet so that the teasing shove wouldn't force him to step aside. Fajira chattered discontentedly at all the moving around and took the opportunity to brazenly leap over to the dark back of Mirage. Leave it to the little White to push the limits of any offer; she took the offer from Akaith and Mirage very literally, automatically extending her graceful presence to them as well. She wouldn't go so far as to intrude on their bond, but what harm could come in sharing the means of transportation with the Queen?

Lace smirked at the antics of his bonded but didn't try to stop her. It would be futile, and besides it would do her good to learn the limits of the Gold's patience for herself. He himself snapped playfully with his teeth towards the shoulder of the black mare, not at all intending to actually bite her. The thought; he'd sooner try to bite the Gods, knowing what she could do to him if she chose to shapeshift again.
Wet ears twisted to catch the words of his new friend over the sound of the wind and let his mind chew them over. It was true that the group would be strong as long as Mirage was there. He himself noticed the force attraction she possessed, and with this newfound strength in herself that was the dragon form it was hard to picture anyone being able to do anything permanent to her. Besides the Gods, of course. With a faint shudder the vagabond remembered a flaming figure standing close to the edge of the Heart, surrounded by creatures who's mere presence had made him want to run and hide. He'd never been a stallion of faith, but it was hard to deny the existence of something he had seen with his own eyes.

Realizing that he was about to veer from the topic, he nodded in thoughtful agreement to her arguments.
"I was never very close to my family so I can't say that I know what you are talking about" he admitted with a half smile. "But I guess that as long as you believe in it, there won't be a problem." There was still the issue about a group of strangers being tied together however. Of different lands, different blood - perhaps even different races, and everything that came with that of prejudice and hatred. Some things weren't easy to put behind you, no matter how hard on tried.

"So when you have gotten this heardland you wish for, what will you do then?" He said when, because there was no doubt in his mind that Mirage was going to get one sooner or later. It might take time and effort, but she seemed determined, he had to give her that. Still, Lace felt the need of a larger goal than to just find a proper home. He wanted to know what it might be, partly because he was curious and partly because he wished to know if it was something he could find in his heart to support. He wanted to do something for Mirage in return of all her help, and the closest thing to mind was to aid the Qian. But if it wasn't something he could swear himself to wholeheartedly, then he and Fajira would have to find another way of repaying.




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Deceased atk: 5.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Mare :: Equine :: 15.3 :: Eighteen HP: 68.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Akaith :: Royal Golden Dragon :: Fire Breath Whit
#20
A strange sense of déjà vu set upon the mare; she had mockingly described herself as fragile before, to a different crowd. Memories of a dance performed whilst drunk on hormones cascading through both Akaith and herself paraded before her, and with a shiver Mirage had to wonder what the outcome would be the next time her golden queen rose to mate with a flock of wild dragons - what would happen next time her own season came to pass? However, she was getting off track - back then she had been assuring her comrades and faithful friends that the siblings whom had found their way to Helovia were merely as harmless as herself. It was as much a warning as a promise. Even without her ability to show her other self to the world, the little shadow mare was more than capable of defending, protecting and fighting for what she believed in. Another ripple of a shudder shook her spine as she remembered what had occurred not long after that night, when her skills as a fighter were put to the test - the death stare of that unknown stallion would haunt her forever, even if he wasn't the first, and was unlikely to be the last, soul she killed on the earth. It was not something that she saw herself ever willingly repeating, and yet.. She knew it would happen again. Once a murderer, always a murderer.

His response earned a wry smile to curve her lips, the mare shifting weight as the little white added her own mass to the mix. Akaith chattered happily and even went so far as to groom Fajira in a manner one would expect to see in felines, playfully and carefully treating the smaller creature with patient but firm attentions. Mirage wuffled lowly as Lace's lips reached out for her, but she did not move, whether she detected his feint or not would remain a secret. Amusement, and general happiness still twinkled behind those deep pools, despite the rain, the storm, even the million questions Lace would throw at her to test her morals, she was content.

A little surprise showed on her face when he mentioned no close ties to family - then she pondered, perhaps that was why he could not see just how strong the ties were between the members of the Qian? She was silently miffed that he could only 'guess' as the strength of the bonds, and she longed to speak how the bond of dragon and equine was similar to the bond between her and her kin - but then, she held her tongue, for she knew she would have been telling a lie. Similar, perhaps, but not as powerful. They were a family, yes, a functioning unit that would find success wherever its passions directed it, but the magic between a dragon and equine was unique, reserved for the winged lizards and equines alone. But she longed for some way to show him, prove to him beyond a doubt, that the Qian were stronger than what little credit he awarded them. With a small breath of air forcibly exhaled, she tried to disregard his lack of sight into the matter, though she quietly plotted to prove to him the strength of the Qian in other ways, in the future.

"You obviously hold some confidence in the Qian's strength besides mere 'guessing', if you truly do assume we will obtain this land we long for." She murmured quietly, once again her thoughts thrown in a different direction by the stallion's words. That wry smile from before flickered back onto her façade, gently, subtly. She took some time to chew the words over in her own cranium, bouncing them back and forth, before deciding on a way that would express everything she wished to, in order to answer the question honestly, wholly.

"I believe the world is made up of a balance, a dynamic equilibrium, Lace. In different areas of the world, different forces act upon this balance, shifting it, altering it, favouring different things at different times. I believe in maintaining this balance. In Helovia, where Gods rule, and freely wander the lands which they created on their own whims, I long to help them keep this balance. My choice to begin a war is one where I have considered the consequences most deeply, and seriously. I know that my actions will cause an imbalance, and whether we succeed or not, my goal will always be to restore that balance, by whatever means necessary.

"The Tuuli were the first band of outcasts to overthrow a herdland - we helped them, Lace, unawares of the effects it would have upon the lands."
A small glance was given to the just-healed forelegs of the mare, who hosted burns still from their brief interaction with the fiery Sun Lord within the very herd she longed to inhabit. "I have sought counsel with the sovereign ruler of the land that attracts me, and she called my intentions honourable. She also called me a dragon." Another smile was given here, as the arc in her nape extenuated the metallic marking etched into her pelt, the underlying meaning also hinted at; it was the Moon Goddess who had gifted Mirage with her ability to discover her other form, who had opened her eyes to the world of Dark magic. A small sigh was loosed.

"We will endure, Lace. And we will prove to all of Helovia just how strong we are."





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