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Ktulu the Constrictor Posts: 509
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KTULU THE CONSTRICTOR

from adversity, heroes are born

"She doesn't trust the ones she saw attacking... In the invasion. As for how she would act in front of one of the Czars, she stood in front of me then too. Would your own companion not seek to protect you from one she thought a threat?"

Ktulu had rolled her eyes as she turned back to the filly when she defended her hound's actions because she obviously thought the girl was full of shit. "Did any physical harm come to you after we took over the Falls?" The dark mare had demanded. "No. And so long as you remain a member of the Hidden Falls no harm will come to you from any member here." The tone of her voice promised that there would be consequences if she found out that anyone in the Falls hurt another herd member without due cause. Of course with how emotional the girl was it wouldn't have surprised Ktulu if she thought that the tone of her voice was directed at her"And as for my companion ...  he knows better than to disrespect any member of this herd because I taught him better." And she would leave it at that.

"If you want to kick us out just because of her growling, do it. Not like any of you have given a shit about me since you took over. Only reason I stuck around was hoping my parents would come back. To bad my mom can't, cause she's dead."

Every fiber of Ktulu's being wanted to snap at the child to grow up and stop acting like a brat, but she bit her tongue. "Walk with me." She said, her voice leaving no room for argument, and she walked away from the new warrior and the mason that had brought him. "If we didn't give a shit about you," The Constrictor said as she walked. "Then you would be homeless, wouldn't you? If none of us gave a shit about you then we would have kicked you out when we took over. But you're still living here, you're still being taken care of, and it seems to me like you're taking it for granted."

'Take it easy.' Eytan murmured from his place at Ktulu's side. 'She lost her mother.'

"She's not the only one." The dark mare snapped, her crimson eyes finding her companion, who just shook his head at her.

"I know what its like to lose a parent." She finally said. "I buried my mother not long before the invasion. I also know what its like to lose a child." So that pity me bullshit isn't going to work on me. "Sitting around feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to make yourself feel better and it isn't going to bring your mother back." She was quiet for several seconds as they walked as she debated on what she should say next. "The best thing you can do is find someone else to fill the void they left behind or find something to keep you busy so you don't feel that pain all the time."
 

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Vitani Posts: 92
Dragon's Throat Mare atk: 3.5 | def: 8 | dam: 7
Mare :: Equine :: 14.2 :: Three Years HP: 67 | Buff: NOVICE
Sarabi :: Common Hellhound :: Hellfire Emily
#2

VITANI
When we look up at the stars, we see only the memory of light; and though they are distant we know they still shine


"Did any physical harm come to you after we took over the Falls?" The mare asked, her tone just as demanding as it had been before. But I wasn't backing down. I was tried for of it all. "No. And so long as you remain a member of the Hidden Falls no harm will come to you from any member here." "It may not of come to me, because I was a child. But what of those who defended thier home? Czarina Ghost, Elsa, My parents? They were hurt. For all I know my Dad is dead too because of all of you." There, I had said it. My worst fear. That I was alone. That I had no family left now. Sarabi whines softly, nudging my leg gently. I here. Always here. I took a moment to look down at her. "And as for my companion ... he knows better than to disrespect any member of this herd because I taught him better." My head snaps back up to her and i'm speaking before I even have time to think. "You're also how much older than I am and have had how much longer with your companion? Exactly. She's learning." I was about to walk away from them all. I could find Brisa and Ezital later on, fully explain.... But....

"Walk with me." Shit. No avoiding this. I look to the pair, then to the retreating form of one of the Champions. "See you around, if she doesn't kick me out and ban me from the land." Yeah, I didn't have high hopes of still having a home after this walk.

"If we didn't give a shit about you," Great, talking about walking not my favorite thing to do. "Then you would be homeless, wouldn't you? If none of us gave a shit about you then we would have kicked you out when we took over. But you're still living here, you're still being taken care of, and it seems to me like you're taking it for granted." I snort and Sarabi sighs. "Yeah, i'm so well taken care of that the only time I speak to anyone is if I almost wander into them. No one comes looking. Probably wouldn't even know i'm gone... Not that I matter to anyone." Matter to me.

"I know what its like to lose a parent." Okay... Wasn't expecting that. "I buried my mother not long before the invasion. I also know what its like to lose a child." So? I'm not only enough to have kids? I look at Sarabi... Okay so maybe I would know. If I lost her... Well I think i'd be done. "Sitting around feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to make yourself feel better and it isn't going to bring your mother back." Um.. Damn. "Who says I feel sorry for myself?" The whine from my bonded said otherwise. I glared at her. "What I don't." I returned my attention to the Champion as she kept going. "The best thing you can do is find someone else to fill the void they left behind or find something to keep you busy so you don't feel that pain all the time." I look out and away. Fill the void... Who the hell, could fill my parents place? "No one could fill their void. Ever." I couldn't look at her, the crimson woman. As it was, I was hiding the tears that had begun to roll down my cheeks. "Besides, who would willingly put up with me, or keep me busy just cause?" Yeah. I don't feel like i'm wanted here. The place I was born and I feel like i'm out of place.

"Talk"
Sarabi Talks



Ktulu the Constrictor Posts: 509
Outcast atk: 5.0 | def: 9.5 | dam: 6.5
Mare :: Hybrid :: 16.1 :: 7 HP: 70.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Eytan :: Grizzly Bear :: Terrorize ali
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KTULU THE CONSTRICTOR

from adversity, heroes are born



"It may not of come to me, because I was a child. But what of those who defended thier home? Czarina Ghost, Elsa, My parents? They were hurt. For all I know my Dad is dead too because of all of you."

"Oh, give me a break." Ktulu snapped irritably at the filly. "Do you think it was my decision to invade? Do you think it was a decision that came easy or just spur of the moment? Do you think neither of your parents ever took part in an invasion that hurt someone else?" The dark mare snorted at the girl's audacity. Honestly, if she didn't like what they had done, how they had taken over, then she could walk her little ass out of the Falls and not look back.

"Age and time is little more than an excuse." Came Ktulu's flat reply to what Vitani said next. "I was young when I had Eytan, but I still taught him respect from the day I bonded with him." But, of course, not every parent taught their kids to respect anyone, let alone someone who was far stronger than them. 

Whatever.

"See you around, if she doesn't kick me out and ban me from the land."

"What are you so worried about getting kicked out and banned for?" Ktulu asked when she really wanted to tell the girl to stop acting like a bitchy little brat"You seem to hate us so why should it even bother you?" Part of her was so very tempted to escort the child to the border and make her leave, but she knew that Archibald and Kaj would be upset with her because of it... and Lakota. Lakota had a soft spot for children that the dark mare didn't and couldn't understand.

Honestly, talking to the girl was like talking to a stone, except she honestly though the stone would have more common sense. "Excuse us." Ktulu snapped. "Excuse us for wanting to fortify defenses and patrol to protect your ass and everyone else. And excuse us for trying to get the healers settled and the masons squared away so they can start building. Excuse the fuck out of us for not taking every second of our day to tend to you and your needs alone when we're trying to take care of an entire herd."

'Calm down!' Eytan snapped through their bond. 'She's just a child. A grieving child.'

"More like an insolent little brat." Ktulu snorted.

"Have you even bothered trying to talk to anyone?" Ktulu asked next. "Or have you just sat by judging us for not taking notice while we were busy working?"

"What who says I feel sorry for myself?"

"The way you act and the way you complain about everything says that you feel sorry for yourself." Was Ktulu's blunt reply. Vitani could deny it all she wanted, but it would not change Ktulu's opinion that the girl felt sorry for herself.

As their conversation turned to the void left behind by her parents Ktulu remained quiet. She knew quite well feeling like nothing would ever be right again after finding her mother's body. She still felt the emptiness from Hototo's death, but having Lakota and Murtagh made it easier. The child would learn in time that it would get better.

"Besides, who would willingly put up with me, or keep me busy just cause?"

"Do you think I'm walking and talking with you for my health?" Ktulu asked as she finally looked down at the girl. 

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Vitani Posts: 92
Dragon's Throat Mare atk: 3.5 | def: 8 | dam: 7
Mare :: Equine :: 14.2 :: Three Years HP: 67 | Buff: NOVICE
Sarabi :: Common Hellhound :: Hellfire Emily
#4

VITANI
When we look up at the stars, we see only the memory of light; and though they are distant we know they still shine


"Oh, give me a break." Why should I? Why should I give you a break? Your one of them. Yes i'm angry. Them invading ruined everything. "Do you think it was my decision to invade? Do you think it was a decision that came easy or just spur of the moment? Do you think neither of your parents ever took part in an invasion that hurt someone else?" I stared at her for a moment before finally speaking. "Why not just ask? I'm sure the Czar and Czarina would of worked something out with your old herd... Why make the choice to invade?" I stopped for a moment before going on. "I don't know... If they ever invaded anyone. I wasn't given the chance to find out." My angry and resolve to argue was crumbling the longer we walked and talked.

"Age and time is little more than an excuse." I snorted. She could criticize all she wanted, it wouldn't change anything. "I was young when I had Eytan, but I still taught him respect from the day I bonded with him." "You think I haven't tried? The only reason she didn't do more was because I was stopping her. You know, the mental connection and all." I shot a glare at the pup, who was walking calmly beside us now. She looked away for a moment. Sorry I cause trouble. My look softened slightly. I knew she was only trying to help me.

And damn it, she had heard me say bye. Oh well. My head snaps back around to the Champion... Or well, one of the two we seemed to have now. "Why do I care? Because I was born here! I probably know the land better than any of you ever will! This was my home, the one place I felt safe... Till you all showed up..." I lost it. I couldn't stop the tears now. I jerked my head away to hide them. No, she wasn't allowed to see them. So instead I listened to her go on about how busy they had all been. Yeah, busy settling into a land that they forcefully took over.. "Have you even bothered trying to talk to anyone?" Is she serious? "Or have you just sat by judging us for not taking notice while we were busy working?" My head jerked around to stare at her. "I've talked. But not like i'm going to just gush everything i'm feeling to just someone random." I snapped at her. "At least, I don't normally."

When it came to me feeling sorry for myself, she just wouldn't let that go. "The way you act and the way you complain about everything says that you feel sorry for yourself." I snorted, not even going to try to convince her that I don't.

We both fell silent as the conversation turned to parents. I had faced facts. They were both gone. Momma, had been murdered before my eyes. The image still haunted me at night sometimes. But no one seemed to hear the screams in the night other than Sarabi. Either that or they did and ignored them. When I asked why anyone would take time to deal with me... Well her answer was simple. "Do you think I'm walking and talking with you for my health?" My reply to her was just as simple. "No I think you only noticed me because I fianlly lost my temper and Sarabi growled at you."

"Talk"
Sarabi Talks



Ktulu the Constrictor Posts: 509
Outcast atk: 5.0 | def: 9.5 | dam: 6.5
Mare :: Hybrid :: 16.1 :: 7 HP: 70.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Eytan :: Grizzly Bear :: Terrorize ali
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KTULU THE CONSTRICTOR

from adversity, heroes are born

"Why not just ask? I'm sure the Czar and Czarina would of worked something out with your old herd... Why make the choice to invade?"

"Its political." Ktulu responded. "Do you really think a leader from another herd would ask to join a herd when he can invade and keep his position?" It was truly a naive view of the world, but what else could be expected from a child? "Your Czar helped invade these lands many seasons ago." So don't you dare put him on a pedestal and bash everyone else who's done the same exact thing he has. Learn your history before you start to spout off nonsense.

Ktulu could have said more about Vitani's companion and her lack of respect, but it was like talking to a tree... except the tree would have been far more understanding of what she was saying.

"Why do I care? Because I was born here! I probably know the land better than any of you ever will! This was my home, the one place I felt safe... Till you all showed up..."

"Is that so?" The dark mare asked as she finally stopped walking and turned fully toward the young brat. "I was the Chieftess of this land before you were even born. Your Czar helped me invade this place when he was still nothing more than a warrior in the Dragon's Throat. So don't spout that bullshit at me." But the real slap in the face was that she didn't feel safe in the Falls with all the warriors there to protect her ungrateful ass. It was enough to make Ktulu want to grab the girl by the neck and throw her on the ground and show her what danger was. "You said it was your home. If you don't like us here and if you don't feel safe then leave." Ktulu finally said. "No one is making you stay."

With that said Ktulu turned and began to walk again, her ears tilted toward the girl as she spoke yet again and, once more, it made her stop and turn to the girl. Stop trying to put all the blame on everyone else, child. Boohoo no one notices me, boohoo you only noticed be because Sarabi growled at you. This is the first time I've met you and I was greeted with nothing but hostility You'd rather sit by and demonize us and live by your own narrow minded view of who we are just because we did something you don't like. You want to blame us for your isolation when you hardly go out of your own way to make yourself useful to a herd that is busting its ass to protect and provide someone as ungrateful as you.

Somehow, by the grace of everything holy, Ktulu was able to keep her rant entirely mental to keep from pissing the girl off and driving her away. "This is the first time I've met you." She said instead. "You wanted to be noticed and you were."

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@Vitani

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Vitani Posts: 92
Dragon's Throat Mare atk: 3.5 | def: 8 | dam: 7
Mare :: Equine :: 14.2 :: Three Years HP: 67 | Buff: NOVICE
Sarabi :: Common Hellhound :: Hellfire Emily
#6

VITANI
When we look up at the stars, we see only the memory of light; and though they are distant we know they still shine


"Its political." I snorted in frustration. Why wouldn't they? "Do you really think a leader from another herd would ask to join a herd when he can invade and keep his position?" I turned to stare at her. Was the leads really that.... prideful? That they couldn't ask to join another herd and give up ruling if they weren't happy where they were? "Your Czar helped invade these lands many seasons ago." If it could of, my jaw would of hit the ground... Czar Midas... The kind man that had appeared at my birth and several other times through out my life... Was no better than those who had attacked us? Has he allowed this? Had he allowed them to come.... No. Her voice was strong in my mind. He died. Stolen and died. She was right of course. That had come out later. But the fact still remained, that he had once helped take away someone's home.

The conversation tumbled on, and into why I didn't want to leave. "Is that so?" She stopped and looked at me. I turned and looked her in the face too. "I was the Chieftess of this land before you were even born. Your Czar helped me invade this place when he was still nothing more than a warrior in the Dragon's Throat. So don't spout that bullshit at me." OH hell no. I knew the lands were changed. I may be young but I wasn't stupid. I had learned many stories from my Momma before she died. One in particular I would never forget. "If you were a Chieftess, then that was before Father Earth changed the lands. They aren't the same as when you ruled." I wanted growl and lash out. How dare she act as if she was better than one who was born here. Just cause she ruled here once upon a time. I tried to ignore the new information about my Czar. But I couldn't. "You said it was your home. If you don't like us here and if you don't feel safe then leave." Is she deaf? "No one is making you stay." I decide to ignore that comment too. Obviously she misunderstood me and I wasn't in the mood to keep explaining myself to someone who was as thick as a tree.

She began to talk and so did I. Who does she think she is? She's no Czar and Czarina. Obviously she didn't hack it as a lead cause she's not a lead now. She's only the Champion because no one from the old herd stayed. No one but me... They left.. They left me.... You doing what she said. Pity. I snorted. I didn't pity myself. What was there to pity? I'm an orphan, big deal. I didn't need my parents. I wasn't even wanted.. An accident. But I knew they loved me. Them... The ones who took over. Pft as if. I'm just another body to watch after. "This is the first time I've met you." She pauses. "You wanted to be noticed and you were." I didn't say a word. Why should I? Nothing mattered. I am just a brat to her and always will be. That's all I'll ever be to anyone in this herd. But I won't pity myself. I'll just float along and remain in the background.

"Talk"
Sarabi Talks



Ktulu the Constrictor Posts: 509
Outcast atk: 5.0 | def: 9.5 | dam: 6.5
Mare :: Hybrid :: 16.1 :: 7 HP: 70.5 | Buff: ENDURE
Eytan :: Grizzly Bear :: Terrorize ali
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KTULU THE CONSTRICTOR

from adversity, heroes are born



 "If you were a Chieftess, then that was before Father Earth changed the lands. They aren't the same as when you ruled."

Oh, didn't the smartass have an answer for everything?

"How do you how much the land was changed if you weren't born?" Ktulu asked, but she continued on fairly quickly. "Oh, that's right. You don't. Pity." Her tail flicked and she kept walking. "I've walked these borders every night since we won this land. I've traveled over these fields, though these cliffs, around waterfalls, all over. I know this land just as well as the land I ruled and you can't tell me otherwise because you don't know." Could she just kick the girl around a little and call it a night? Honestly, the little brat was working her last nerve and it was a miracle beyond all miracles that she had not snapped.

But it was coming. 

Just keep pushing.

For whatever reason the girl stayed quiet and Ktulu found it strange and very unlike the little brat that had been matching her step for step. She glanced down at the kid and snorted. Was there really going to be no snotty comeback about her finally being noticed? Really? It was a blessing as much as a surprise, though, and Ktulu was grateful for just the few seconds it might last that the girl was being less of a brat.

"You will begin patrols next season." Ktulu decided, rather suddenly. Now she would have no reason to complain about being ignored and not seen by anyone. As long as she went on her patrols she would have all the interaction with other herd members that she could possibly want, but it was up to her. If she remained ignored it would be her own fault for not making herself seen and known to her patrol partners.

"Its getting late." And she glanced up at the moon that was rising higher in the night sky. "Where do you usually rest? I'll walk you there"

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@Vitani

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Vitani Posts: 92
Dragon's Throat Mare atk: 3.5 | def: 8 | dam: 7
Mare :: Equine :: 14.2 :: Three Years HP: 67 | Buff: NOVICE
Sarabi :: Common Hellhound :: Hellfire Emily
#8

VITANI
When we look up at the stars, we see only the memory of light; and though they are distant we know they still shine


"How do you how much the land was changed if you weren't born?" Ugh she has an answer for everything doesn't she? Before I can speak she goes on. "Oh, that's right. You don't. Pity." I wanted to roll my eyes but I didn't. "I've walked these borders every night since we won this land. I've traveled over these fields, though these cliffs, around waterfalls, all over. I know this land just as well as the land I ruled and you can't tell me otherwise because you don't know." Fine, she wants to think I don't know anything, let her. Maybe now I understand why everyone left. Why so few stuck around for the take over. Cause these newcomers.... They were know it alls! So instead I decided to remain quiet and just listen. If she said something that I knew was wrong, i'll just let her stay wrong. Someone else can show the know it all up.

"You will begin patrols next season." Wait what?! "I'm not old enough to be a warrior." I snorted. I was in limbo. To old to be clinging to anyone's side, and to young to take my own place in the herd. What did she think she was playing at? Besides, who says I wanted to be one of her warriors anyway. I sorry I got us in trouble. Sarabi speaks in my mind. I glance at the pup. I know she was just trying to protect me.... Next time, only growl at them if they actually try to attack me... Okay?" Ohtay "Its getting late." The Champion's voice cut into our mental conversation. "Close to the waterfalls. I can walk there myself." Without another word I set off in the direction of our sleeping spot. Last thing I needed was the mare coming to wake me up whenever she wanted. Bad enough I was probably going to be going on patrols with her Warriors now.

"Talk"
Sarabi Talks




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