the Rift


Fatigue is my disease || Rowan

Ázzuen the Ardent Posts: 94
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Stallion :: Pegasus :: 15.1 :: 8
Whit
#1

Charred, limber legs moved with swift co-ordination, carrying at their tops the strong, athletic build of the General. Dreadlocked tail swung from the end of his dock, slapping at his thighs as he walked, half-heartedly chasing insects away from the droplets of sweat that beaded and cascaded down his flanks. The weather was getting warmer, though in the Throat, it was always warm. Now it was heating up, and soon, Azzuen knew it was be nearly unbearable to venture far from the Oasis that existed in its red centre.

Eyes of deep indigo peered at the landscape, thoughtfulness written all over the chiselled mask of the steed. There was much to consider in these trying times, of tested alliances and renewed foes. And yet, the General was not thinking of politics, or warfare, not completely, anyway. He was, as he so often did, thinking of his family, the souls he had sworn to protect, to treasure and provide for, always. A small frown creased his brow, as he recalled upon the most recent heated discussions he had experienced with his eldest daughter, Cirrus.

He so did not wish to see her fiery, vibrant light be aimed at battle, where enemies would grind away at her beauty, the beauty found in her nature and bodice alike. He did not wish to see the harshness of war shorten her life, nor did he wish to see the damage that making one's first, or second, or hundredth kill has upon one's soul. Azzuen was damaged, he was afflicted with many things, nightmares, constant worries, anxiety - and it was because of the warrior's path that he had carved out for himself.

A sigh expanded the ribs that held so many vital organs inside, released through nostrils that expanded so wide, salmon pink skin could be seen in their depths. He was walking west, for what reason, he could not even recall. He was not on duty, and his family sought company elsewhere, so he walked, the repetitive activity giving his body something to distract itself with, so that loneliness would not overwhelm the kind and ardent heart of his. For the first time in a long time, Azzuen felt tired.

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Rowan Posts: 76
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Mare :: Equine :: 14.1hh :: 3 Years 4 Months
Brit
#2



Heat is bearing down on the inhabitants of the Dragon's Throat, and despite having never experienced Birdsong or Tallsun here before Rowan is completely at ease. Even as the darkness of her chocolate coat attracted the rays of the sun, she was unbothered by the sudden temperature spike. Where she had grown up was hotter than here, a surprising thing to say, and to be anywhere colder was impossible for her. Feeling much like a burro in her need to live in heated climates, Rowan let an amused smile crawl onto her soft visage. It seemed the darkness that had nipped at her heels for years had been trained, groomed, and leashed into a perfect pet of self confidence. And Rowan could thank no other person but her mentor. Ever since that night at the oasis, staring down at her reflection while the moon hover over them, Rowan had been making leaps and bounds towards her goal of self happiness and awareness. It was easy now to focus only on the gift her mind brought her and not the curse. Finding that it was so simple to control the working machine that was her intelligence.

However, even as some things change others will always remain the same. Wandering about the lands had changed to wandering about the Throat, leaving her shell of shyness to try and actually make acquaintances. This was the harder part of her journey, as Rowan had little to no interaction between the ages of eight months and three years. What she did have was meager, or comprised only of Feyther and brief memories of her mother. Reaching out was difficult for her, and the young fae still felt the urge to turn and flee on many occasions. Perhaps what surprised her the most was the deep familial bonds of the Throat members. Whether you were known or not, so long as you had their scent on your coat you could count on them to lead you into battle and have your back. When Tribute had accosted her at the borders, demanding information and acting in an insolent manner, Aryel had been quick to come to her side and the two had defended each other from the insults he cast at them. Even Kri, their fearless leader, came when they beckoned her and never once let them down. It was all very dizzying at times, but Rowan couldn't deny she loved it. Loved living in the Throat more than anything she'd ever loved in her whole life. She finally had a place to call home, no longer a wandering nomad stuck to the side of a crabby manipulating old mare. The most surprising was finding that she actually had a voice. An opinion. She could choose who she was and what to do with her time!

Happy musings were brought back down to earth at the sight of a dark stallion ahead. One who seemed to be caught in far less enjoyable thoughts. Instantaneously concerned, Rowan stretched her legs out and hurried to catch up. Nickering softly to warn of her approach. Taking in everything she could see, noting the path he followed almost by instinct. The markings of his eyes, however, were what told her the truth. Just as she had recognized Cassiopeia by her looks and demeanor, she had also heard of their general Azzuen. Curly flaxen blond forelock fell over cerulean orbs and she tossed it out of the way quickly, more concerned with why their beloved general seemed so out of it. "Thoughts can sometimes be the worst weapons, for they inflict wounds upon ourselves without the help of any ill wishing outsider," was all she said, eyes understanding and voice soft and shy as it always was. Coming to his side and matching his stride, though Rowan kept a respectful distance away from him. "I'm Rowan, sir." Reminding herself to be respectful, though she didn't need it. Feyther had drilled manners into her like she was a soldier and Rowan would never be without them for the rest of her life she feared. Not, of course, that it was a bad thing.



Cassiopeia Posts: 171
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Mare :: Pegasus :: 15 hands :: 8 years old
Phantom
#3



trust your heart if the
seas catch fire


Cassiopeia moved slowly across sun-drenched sands, froth effervescing in earnest along her bosom and thighs, her leonine tail swatting at the flies which clung to her hocks and pasterns. Apart from the undesirable pests it brought, Cassiopeia didn't mind the warmer weather. The desert was recovering its familiar swelter. It was hardly the blistering fever it had been throughout the previous Tallsun, but the temperature was certainly rising with the progression of Birdsong and the gradual approach of Summer.

Birdsong spawned forth from the desolate sands a marvelous bouquet of vegetation. They were different from the plants brought forth by the temperance and rain of Frostfall. These buds were more abundant, and also more colorful. They bloomed in clusters and flocks, whereas the plants of Frostfall were few and far between. Though she normally would have, the dame paid little heed to these botanical specimens. Her attention was directed toward the stallion in the distance.

As she grew near, she recognized the silver bay beside him as the scholar, Rowan. She gave her a subtle nod of her head and a radiant smile, but something troubled her lover, and the blue roan cannot ignore it. She moved up beside him, brushing her muzzle along his shoulder. "My love," she said gently, her voice little more than a tranquil croon. She ran her muzzle along the half-healed afflictions marring his coat. She stepped closer, brushing her flank against his own. "What troubles you so?"



Ázzuen the Ardent Posts: 94
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Stallion :: Pegasus :: 15.1 :: 8
Whit
#4

Footsteps continue pounding the earth with hard, dark hooves, tail lashed at his sides, as concerns twisted his ears haphazardly atop his crown. He was tired of the same worries pounding through his skull, he longed to be distracted, or better yet, to find a resolution to his concerns. But the stubbornness of his daughter was something his own genetics had contributed to, and he was glad that he had taught her the ways of defending herself, at least. He was less glad with the way she relished in the activity of sparring, exercising, and aspiring to rise through the same ranks he held. Was he a hypocrite for holding this title and warning his own blood away from it?

A shudder rolled through his shoulders, the tremors cascading through his muscles all along his flanks and rump, scattering the persistent insects that try to cling to his hide. The stallion barely saw the approach of the chocolate maiden, though his ears did instinctively swivel towards her, his eyes, stormy grey in hue now, rolling lazily to view her. A small, half smile was offered, but it held a sad, forced line to it, it didn't reach his eyes, his façade didn't soften with kind amusement or gentlemanly welcome like it normally would have. A familiar scent tugged at his nostrils then, as he listened to this first maiden's words, recognising her vaguely from discussions with his mate of an evening.

It was his mate whom he had scented before, and who managed to stretch his smile a bit wider, to soften the harsh, grumpy lines of his face. He slows his walk, and eventually stands, shuffling the large, black wings that hang from his shoulders. He returned her touch, gently, affectionately, trying to dissipate the bad mood that had gathered about him, trying to - but not entirely able to. Her question was one of concern, he could tell, but it only made him angry at himself, for he should be better at controlling the hurt he felt inside, the fear that he had wounded the relationship between himself and his daughter. He knew they would recover.. Didn't he?

"Just the usual, dear. Cirrus, being as headstrong as her grandmother, as usual." He replied with a sigh, before turning his attention back to the Scholar, dipping his crown to her, his smile becoming softer, more genuine. "Forgive me, Rowan. I am Azzuen, though I suspect you already knew that." A small wink was given, as the stallion retrieved some of his natural playful charm from the depths of despair and fatigue. A small shake of his head was given, and he chuckled a small, wispy sort of laugh; it was not deep and wholesome, but neither was it completely empty and void of true, lighter, happier emotions.

"Is it unfair of me to want her to be safe? To shield her from the frontline of war even though it is what she yearns for? What her blood has dictated she belong to for generations past?" The questions came tumbling out, and the stallion looked between each of the mares, searching them, seeking reassurance, answers, hope. A deep sigh rattled his ribs again, as he allowed the ruminations of the day to wash over him in another wave of fatigue and melancholy.


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Cassiopeia Posts: 171
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Mare :: Pegasus :: 15 hands :: 8 years old
Phantom
#5



trust your heart if the
seas catch fire


It brought a smile to her face to see his mood lightened, and she smiled toward Rowan before seeking to respond to her mate's question. "Of course not. It is only natural for you, as a father, to want to shield her." A sigh fell from her lips as she continued, the thought of her 'little cloud' plunged into the fire of combat one which elicited a dull pang of moroseness. She couldn't bear to imagine the foal she had nurtured taking the life of another, or worse yet- no, she wouldn't even allow such a thought to cross her mind. "As much as I dread the idea of our daughter bearing the brunt of war, I fear there is little we can do to stop her."

She gazed up toward her lover with a tired expression, before pressing the plush velveteen of her maw gently into the groove of his throat and running her face along the rut of his chin. She then proceeded. "I understand why you wish to ward her from the life you have chosen for yourself. I would prefer she take a more peaceful path, myself. But perhaps it is not so much about hindering her, as teaching her to use her prowess in an honorable, responsible way. By trying to inhibit her seems to me as though it is only fueling her desire to do exactly that which you forbid." She wondered what Rowan might have to say of this, and gave her a grief glance, kindness swarming in the cool depths of her eyes.

"Perhaps I could talk to her?" She suggested. She was uncertain it would make much of a difference whether it was her or Azzuen doing the talking, but maybe she could help persuade her into pursuing something a bit more peaceful.



Ázzuen the Ardent Posts: 94
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Stallion :: Pegasus :: 15.1 :: 8
Whit
#6

The voice of his beloved was like a syrup, sweet, warm, comforting, and coated with the perfect amount of wisdom balanced with a bell of truth. As her lips crafted the words he felt them enter his ears, felt them wash over the melancholy and replace it with peace. Only she was capable of that, he was sure, only the voice of the one who held his heart could strum a tune that would soothe his worries in but a handful of words. The stallion should have known that seeking his mate out would have helped him, why was he so stuck on the rhythm of dealing with everything on his own? He couldn't burden her with the politics of his position as General, her own position came with its burden of stress and responsibility, which he did not wish to add to. But on matters of their daughters, he knew he could, rather, he should always approach her. Such an intimate family they were, it was unlikely for either of them to be uneducated on the happenings of their young, but sometimes things happened that perplexed the stallion beyond such logical methods of discussion.

He allowed the relaxation to touch his expression, allowed the smile to become more genuine, more permanent. Old creases were filled in as the familiar expression settled in, memories of the relaxed, happy stallion resurfaced as the General took on a more casual posture, his svelte, charcoal ears clutching to the words of his mate. Yes, she was right, of course. He just had to let his daughter find her own path, though he certainly could still let his opinion on the matter be known - but perhaps less forcefully. He was the one who had been training her body for combat without her even realising it anyway, he had given her the ability to survive, to fight for what she believed in - really, he had himself to blame for this dilemma anyway.

A soft sigh pulled from his nostrils, as again, he conceded guiltily to his mate with a small nod, a subtle smile and a glance that showed a mix of playful, serious and weary emotions. "Of course you are right, my love." His deep baritone provided, rumbling warmly from his throat as he leaned towards her, hoping to nibble upon her silky threads of mane. It was with some surprise that he realised their fellow had left them, Rowan. Oops, he thought, somewhat guiltily, knowing that the intensity of their love could often leave others feeling excluded. It was not done on purpose, however, they could not help the chemistry between them, the sheer devotion, the absolute faith and trust and love.

"She is as much your daughter as mine," he spoke with a wry grin as his eyes whirled slowly back to a dark, rich, midnight blue hue, "you are welcome to try and use your silky tongue to convince her of a… particular path. Perhaps she would respect your opinion more than mine." He spoke without sarcasm or insult, merely quiet thoughtfulness, genuine interest in how the dynamics of a mother-daughter discussion would progress as opposed to the failed father-daughter argument. "I am so proud of her, Cass, so proud I could burst. She could do anything, I know this, and no matter what she does, she will be great at it." It pained him still to think that she might walk a similar path to himself, and yet, he was also quietly excited to test his skills against his own daughter. Another sigh, as he tried to release the worries from earlier and focus upon something else; their other daughter, perhaps?

"Azulee is well?"


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Cassiopeia Posts: 171
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Mare :: Pegasus :: 15 hands :: 8 years old
Phantom
#7



trust your heart if the
seas catch fire


Perhaps she would respect your opinion more than mine

Cassiopeia doubted that. It wasn't that she didn't think Cirrus would respect her opinion, it's just that the way Cirrus revered her father was truly unsurpassable. Still, it wouldn't hurt to try. The dynamics of paternity and that of motherhood varied greatly, and perhaps he was right; she might be able to coax her into something more peaceful. A warm expression seized the chiseled panes of her face, her eyes wrinkled with adoration as she listened to the stallion speak. She shared in his pride, and marveled at the ardency that swelled within his eyes as he talked of their daughter. It was that very ardency which had earned him his title and also won him the star breather's heart.

She could do anything, I know this, and no matter what she does, she will be great at it. "How could she not? With such a wonderful father to guide her." Her ears flopped sideways blissfully as she sought to press her muzzle against his, cyan eyes flitting upward to behold the deep, swirling indigo of her lover's. "She looks up to you, you know. You should see the way she watches you when you're not looking." An endearing smile split her maw into a subtle arch. "Her eyes just follow you, and she has this expression of pure admiration; it's as if you are, to her, invincible." And in her eyes, he probably was. Cassiopeia hoped her words would help to further lighten his mood.

She turned to glance toward Rowan, only to find the Scholar gone, but Azzuen spoke before she could comment on it. Ears pricked forward as the black steed chose to migrate to the subject of their youngest daughter. "Yes." She said with a nod. "She's with her sister at the moment. Gods know what mischief they're getting themselves into." She said with a vague hint of worry, though mostly mirthful affection for the antics of youth, a short trill of laughter seeping from her plump lips. She found herself gazing briefly back toward the Oasis despite it being far beyond her plane of sight and hidden behind dunes of sand.

She trusted that Cirrus was a suitable governess for her little sister. Soon enough though, the lightning child would no longer need someone to watch over her. "It's unbelievable how fast she's growing. It feels as though it was only yesterday she was a weanling at my hooves." It was a bitter-sweet sentiment. It was both melancholy and marvelous to watch her children grow. On one end, she missed their juvenility (despite both of them still being rather young, she missed them as foals, sometimes) yet watching them grow and blossom was such a beautiful process.




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