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the coldest summer - Auriel - 11-28-2015
RE: the coldest summer - Elsa - 11-30-2015 Elsa, Feel lucky for what you have, when you have it. Happily ever after doesn’t mean happy forever.
All Elsa wanted to do at the moment was curl up in a ball and forget life existed. Of course, she had reached the peak of her emotional rollercoaster, and was now on a rapid downward spiral. She was screaming, begging to get off but she had to make it to the end. Her eyes watched the ocean below, the roaring of distant waves crashing against the sheer cliff face. Edgar was on the ground next to her, curled up and trying to sleep. He was dealing awfully well with all this drama, more than likely his past dealings hardened him to the world. She flicked her tail in annoyance, taking off into an angry, stomping walk around the edge of the glass. It’s cracked façade only seemed to taunt her, telling her that even though it was broken, it still remained beautiful. Was Elsa still beautiful? Hardly. Her own child was not happy to see her. Elsa had expected a similar reaction from her. She was going to declare how much she had missed her mom and follow her back to the Edge. Yet, that was not the case. She left feeling cold and alone, more than she had ever before. She thought losing Oxy and the twins were hard; yet she never realized that having them present and hating her was much worse a fate. Edgar awoke, hopping up to follow behind his bonded. He kept his thoughts quiet on purpose recently. She needed to deal with this herself, and Edgar knew he was far too young and naïve to give advice. Heck, he may be a little biased considering both of them looked at him almost like he was a snack. He was totally not bitter about that at all, Shida. But it seemed she’d have to face another nightmare, as Edgar caught wind of a voice. At first he froze, trying to seal his mind away from Elsa, and of course, she noticed. He could feel her prodding harshly into his brain, and finally he gave up. Auriel here. he murmured. Elsa was once again wrapped in ice. She didn’t want to move, but at the same time she did. She wanted to run to her, crying and raise her like she should have. Unfortunately, the chances of that happening did not look to great. There was no way Auriel knew she was here, and frankly, Elsa would expect her to find her sister first. Shida tattle Edgar huffed. He loved Shida, but at the same time wanted to whack her over the head with his wings. Finally, her tentative steps moved towards the voice. Little by little the sandy figure rose, until Elsa was only a few meters from her. Silent stood like a reaper, stealing her voice and leaving her unable to speak. What was she supposed to say? Confessing her love and apologizing to Shida had gotten her nowhere, and she expected a similar reaction from Auriel. ”Hi darling.” She said timidly, taking another step forward. ”I’m so, so sorry.” Shaking her head, she halted staring at the amber child. This time, she would come to her if she wanted to reconcile. Elsa couldn’t force others to love her any longer, all it did was tear both sides apart. "talk" RE: the coldest summer - Auriel - 11-30-2015
@Elsa RE: the coldest summer - Elsa - 12-01-2015 Elsa, Feel lucky for what you have, when you have it. Happily ever after doesn’t mean happy forever.
Forgiveness. Next time someone tells her it’s a redeeming word, she will beat the absolute shit out of them. That word was as nice as cuddling a cactus. Forgiveness insinuated that she had done something wrong, and Elsa honestly had no idea what she had done to deserve this from her girls. It wasn’t like she left them on the hillside, they ran before she could even finish. She was being fucking triple teamed, and they did what they should have. There was no happy ending to that story, and even if she could do it over again, the only way to be with her children was to abandon the herd. But then wouldn’t that just lead to more carnage among the Falls members at that time? She wanted to scream at Auriel, just like she had wanted to unleash it upon Shida. They were still children mentally. They were afraid, scarred from the event even, but they couldn’t place all the weight on her shoulders. She tried her goddamn hardest. If she could have killed herself to save her twins from all this pain she would have. Maybe they would have been better without her. The sheer cliff wasn’t looking too bad right about now. Yet, the girl on fire jumped through the hole. In what seemed like lightning speed she was crushed up against the side of Elsa. Her breath was caught in her throat, and she began shaking uncontrollably. It had been so long since someone had leaned on her like that. Normally she was the one showing love, but now she was receiving it. Elsa harshly wrapped her neck around Auriel, trying to pull her full grown daughter closer as she screamed. Auriel’s tears ushered Elsa’s tears to come forth. And soon she was heaving and sobbing all over again. They both begged her not to leave again, and she didn’t want to. Losing them twice would kill her. ”I won’t leave.” She whispered, lipping at the base of Auriel’s mane gently. ”Stay here with me. Let me try to be the mother I couldn’t be. I can help you as best I can. I can protect you here.” Edgar even hopped up, hopping onto Auriel’s back to rub her body lovingly across her rump. He cooed, begging her in his own way for her to stay. Granted neither of them knew if her allegiance lied elsewhere, but it was worth a shot. All Elsa wanted to do was to lie with her daughters and learn about their life. Make up for all the time she had lost. "talk" RE: the coldest summer - Auriel - 12-05-2015
@Elsa sorry this took a while, just didn't know what she would do at first ^^; also, I apologize if this post is a bit weird...I probably shouldn't have written it at 1 am o.o RE: the coldest summer - Elsa - 12-07-2015 Elsa, Feel lucky for what you have, when you have it. Happily ever after doesn’t mean happy forever.
The hesitant voice, followed by those small words. Elsa felt as if a weight was finally being lifted off of her chest. A shaky smile was plastered to her face like a child. Elation ran rampant, and all Elsa did was fall into the embrace of her daughter. ”Thank you for saving me.” She whispered quietly, continuing to massage her mane. It was a touch she had been craving since motherhood. She will never make up for her absence, but Elsa was going to try. From here on, she would pull herself up by her bootstraps. This love was not going to waste- and certainly wasn’t going to be ignored. So Elsa just leaned heavier into her daughter. The small innocent child she had remembered was no longer here, and the child was caring for the mother. It was a huge exchange of power- but Elsa was more than willing to give all to her daughter. ”Is there anything you would like to do? Any skills I should catch up on teaching you?” Her voice was shaky, but a smile was backing it up. The last little bit of tears trickled down her face. Edgar continued to roll along her back, happy to have the less hard headed daughter. Don’t get him wrong, he loves Shida, but his love is backed just as much with hate. Silence followed afterwards as Elsa tried to formulate words, but she couldn’t. Her entire life had been consumed with apologizing and begging. Now that she had finally succeeded in accomplishing something the overbearing pride seemed to pull the words from her lungs. So for the first time in her life, silence held more meaning than her words ever did. Elsa just wanted to hold her daughter forever and ever. Finally she was gaining back some of her losses and now she was determined to keep them. "I really do love you." She added quietly. "talk" RE: the coldest summer - Auriel - 12-10-2015
@Elsa RE: the coldest summer - Elsa - 12-14-2015 Elsa, Feel lucky for what you have, when you have it. Happily ever after doesn’t mean happy forever.
The silence had an odd comfort to it. Maybe the mutual silence on the subject just saved everyone’s emotions. No one would say something that hurt the other, and instead they could fill in the gaps with what they thought would be say. That way everyone could sleep at night and not dread seeing the other. She’d already fucked that up with Shida, and Auriel she was bound to keep here. Though, when Auriel finally spoke Elsa hardly could believe what she heard. Fighting? She grinned lightly. She was definitely Elsa and Oxy’s daughter. She wanted to be a fighter, to save the world? Elsa laughed softly grooming Auriel’s shoulder gently. ”Of course I will teach you. Though don’t expect me to go easy on you.” She stifled another small laugh. ”What makes you want to fight?” Elsa was genuinely curios as to why she wished for physical violence. Elsa had her own reasons, but did Auriel have hers? Was it Elsa’s fault she wanted to fight? Part of her chest tightened at the thought. She did not want to be the reason that her daughters felt the need for violence. Granted, it was a good skill to have, but it was hardly a safe one. They could seriously injure themselves if they weren’t careful. Silence plagued the air once again, before Auriel had finally said the words she had been dying to hear since motherhood. Elsa simply sighed into the words, finally feeling accepted by her daughters. This was a step in the right direction, and Elsa wanted to take off running down that path. Finally she took a step back, offering a small bow to her daughter. ”I know we must head in our own directions, so if you have any more questions, let me know. Otherwise, I can stop bothering you with my mom-ness and you can get on to creating the life you deserve.” She said softly. Of course Elsa would stay forever and ever, but reality would have it that they both had different lives to attend to. They were no longer intertwined in each other’s lives like they had been when they were born. Circumstances were much different now, and Elsa wasn’t going to interrupt Auriel’s lifestyle just so she could have a few more moments with her. "talk" [I thought we could wrap this up in the next few posts, and if you'd like a spar at some point just let me know!] RE: the coldest summer - Auriel - 12-18-2015
@Elsa Auri can be outty with this post unless you'd like to keep it going :) I'll message you about a spar for them when things settle down a little bit for me! ^^ |