Ranjiri
"Wanjiwi?" I can feel my heart sink into my stomach and the overwhelming disappointment I feel at being recognized leaves me almost on the verge of tears. I don't want anyone to see me, Momma. I don't want to be noticed, I just want to be a shadow that everyone ignores because shadows don't hurt anyone. Shadows don't talk, they don't feel, they're nothing and that's what I want to be. Nothing. I thought that maybe if I ignored him and continued grazing that he would go away, but my luck has never been that good. Instead he asked me if I was okay and at that point I was forced to look up and meet his gaze. I swallowed thickly and my gaze fell to the ground. "Yes." My voice was quiet as I told the lie. I remember thinking that he wouldn't be able to tell. He didn't know me well enough to know when I was lying and when I wasn't, but it wouldn't take a genius to figure it out when I wouldn't meet his gaze for more than a few seconds and not at all when the lies were tumbling past my lips. "Perfectly fine. Never been better." I couldn't stop and I bit down on my tongue so I wouldn't continue to lie to the first one that seemed to show a hint of concern for my well being. I knew I needed to change the subject and desperately wanted to. So I forced myself to look up and search for anything that would draw his attention away from me. In my desperation I looked to the sky and the minute I said the words I wanted to scoop them back up and swallow them whole. "The sun is bright today." I'm an idiot, I know. @[Dragomir] "." |
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