Why did I know this would happen? Why was I so stupid and pathetic enough to let this happen? Pissed off as I was, I bent my black and white neck to lash out at my stomach, which was swollen and I knew exactly why it was so. I had let myself surrender for a stallion, let myself become vulnerable as the pathetic mare I could be sometimes. Dezba sat by my side as I was lying down, surrounded by flowing grass in bloom. You're with child? I looked at her under my forelock, almost glaring at her. Yes. I looked away again and snorted while the jaguar slowly rose up and sat down even closer to me, letting her spotted tail wisp over my front legs. Congratulations. I snorted again. Nothing to congratulate. I did not wish for this child. I already had two children whom I had succeeded to neglect. The feline frowned at me before she closed her eyes and turned her face towards the blue sky.

The sun was looking down at me from the top of the skies, showering me in light and halfly making me sweat. This black coat didn't really do any good during spring and summer, it only made me sweat like an idiot and it made me crazy. "What am i going to do, Dez? If I tell Destry and Azarel about this, they're going to be mad - I bet you about that." I sighed heavily and looked at my companion, my blue eyes filled with.. Well, I would say that I was sad. Regretful. Doubting. Not mad. Happy. New sibling. I chuckled sarcastically and the jaguar looked at me as if I had offended her. "They will be mad." I whispered, before I let my gaze fall to the ground. Dezba was confused and I heard her silently think about what could possibly be wrong about Des and Aza getting a new sibling. She worried so for my family, protecting us in every weather, no matter what. No matter what.

"Hey, don't overthink it. We... We just have to see what they think. If they're happy, they're happy. If not... Well, there's not much I can do." I whispered, nudging the jaguar's cheekbone. I still love all of you. I smiled and looked over her. We're still a team. Slowly, I got up from the ground and walked over to a tree not far away from me. It was by the parting of the river, where it turned from one into two. I lied down in the protection of the shadow and my companion laid down close to me. Everything will be fine. "I hope so."

"Talking"
Delinne's thoughts
Dezba's thoughts

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