What was wrong with me? Why was I so desperate for the need of my own self pity? It wasn't for the sake of receiving mercy or pity from others, or at least I never felt that way. Yet here I lay in the sands, lightly pushing tiny little dunes with my muzzle back and forth as I thought. My nose was going to be rubbed raw by the time I figured out why I always seemed to act the way that I did, hell I'd sand it down to the bone before I would ever be able to solve that problem. But...what if that was my problem? Was I actually addicted to the pain? To the pity? Had I grown so used to the emotional baggage and turmoil in my youth that I felt dysfunctional without it now that I was fully grown. My auds pinned back with shame at the thought, tucking my legs even closer to my belly as I prayed that that was not the case. It was a shame, how uncomfortable I was now. I felt unable to turn to anyone, to talk to a friend that could tell me 'you're acting like an idiot.' or 'don't worry, it will get better.' Advice, comfort, or even a proper scolding when I needed it. I would take any of it right now, for the ability to always have someone to trust and turn to.
I needed someone to fix me. I couldn't help myself.
And there I was, continuing the same destructive cycle as I buried a little shallow into the sands. If it weren't for the barking order of a female's voice, I would have probably continued to stay there wallowing. A command for the healers, given by a voice that I didn't really recognize. With a large 'oomph', I pulled myself to my feet to follow the direction of the call. In retrospect, I owed the owner of that voice a favor for enabling me to get off my ass. To be honest, I almost forgot that I was a healer of these lands. Nothing had ever been needed of me, and the Sun Physician that I had only heard the name of seemed to have disappeared. Had that person returned?
Crossing over the final dune, my eyes widened at the site of a slightly familiar looking vixen waiting for the healers to join. The opportunity to meet this very young mare had never represented itself, and I was a little surprised to see that she was the one waiting for us. Trotting up to the selection of herbs and plants, I found myself quite unfamiliar with most of them. Some of them smelled lovely, while a couple of others...I could have done without. Lifting my gaze to the young one, I dipped my muzzle towards her. "Good afternoon, I am Morrigan. Are we waiting on any others?" I asked quietly, glancing to my sides to see that I was the first to have joined her. I couldn't have been the only one expected to be here...Wasn't that large purple mare a healer too? Scarlet orbs scanned the horizon for any sign of the colorful draft.
Verbal/Physical Abuse permitted, no permanently injuring or killing please.