I can't begin to explain just how much my heart sank when you said that everything we were going through wasn't done, that it was just the beginning. I wanted so badly for the pain to be over and for the healing to begin that I very nearly started bawling like a newborn. "What?" I settled for instead, blinking in confusion as you continued on with your explanation. "But..." I tried to interrupt, but you continued talking, blaming yourself for my infection when it wasn't your fault. "Ros..." I tried again only to be drowned out by you telling me that you're not good for me. "Dammit Ros, shut up for a second!" And finally you were quiet long enough for me to speak. "Yeah, you asked me to follow you and what did I do? I wandered off on my own, got myself infected because I didn't stick by you. Its not your fault what happened to me. Its mine and I took responsibilty for it a long time ago. Stop trying to take credit for my screw ups."

“Look at you now. We haven’t seen each other in years and you’re…Dammit Ji, you’re glowing gold.”

"It hasn't been that long." I countered, frowning. "What do you mean glowing gold? Are you saying I'm happy?" I didn't know what else that statement could have meant, but if it was supposed to mean that I was happy it couldn't have been further from the truth. "I'm not happy." I clarified. "I haven't been happy for a long time." How could I be when everyone I loved was disappearing? I had Cera and Ryuu and I always wondered when they were going to disappear, too.

I didn't think my heart could have sunken any further, but then you spoke again and it sounded too much like a 'goodbye'. "What?" I couldn't hide the hurt in my voice or the fresh tears that welled in my eyes. "Are... are you saying bye?" I didn't want to hear it. I was too tired of watching you waltz back into my life and then walk away again, leaving me to pick up the broken pieces of my heart. "Goddammit Roskuld!" I snorted. "Don't you tell me goodbye! Its all you ever tell me!" I just didn't understand the motivation behind what you were doing. Trying to keep me safe? There's no such thing as safe. "I can decide for myself whats best for me and who isn't good for me. Its my decision to make!" I was so tired of everyone trying to protect me instead of letting me live. "Don't you tell me goodbye." I repeated.

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