I'm Sorry, Miss Jackson

[PRIVATE] I'm Sorry, Miss Jackson

Roskuld the Sparklight Posts: 424

World's Edge General atk: 7.5 | def: 9.5 | dam: 6

Mare :: Tribrid :: 15.3 :: 6 HP: 82 | Buff: ENDURE

Zchiraxicon :: Royal Rougarou :: Electric Smithers

#19

05-14-2015, 01:36 PM

*"Promise me that you'll come see me. I don't... I don't want to go so long without you again."*

I closed my eyes to her words; they stung in a way that had no edge cuz the pain wasn’t coming from her. I don’t want to go so long without you again…Yeah, I’d been a ghost to her, a specter or just a memory that had refused to wander back into her golden light. I hadn’t deserved to—not while there had been a bunch of shit running around us, fucking up everything and building up towards the ultimate loss.

And it was still fucking me up that she wanted me in her life like that; that here she was, marked by my violence and my shameful, uncontrollable anger, and she was still pleading with me to see her soon, not to abandon her again. She had pulled a feather from her wing for me; she had claimed me as her own regardless of all the pain I had rained down on her life. She loved me. She tossed her gilded love on me and not someone right who could do right things for her and keep her happy and make sure it stayed that way.

And I had accepted it—but it still threw me for a loop, making me go dizzy that she desired my presence after all this time. And I had accepted it because I couldn’t fight against her—I wouldn’t. She made me weak, like a glowing green stones cast into my pond, causing ripples and waves crashing on the edges of my mind. Jiji. 

I pressed my muzzle  into her neck—feeling the warmth there, her tendons and muscles, her blood pumping thickly, probably nothing but molten gold. Jiji.

*"Promise?"*

“Promise,” I rumbled into her hide, through her skin, “Cross-my-heart, hope-to-die.” Binding myself with golden chains, pinning myself to a pillar—sealing my fate and doing it willingly, because she loved me and it was a gift that I could never, ever, ever waste.

“I love you, too.”

[ze end <3]