ash in our lungs --

[PRIVATE] ash in our lungs --

Rhoa Posts: 175

Deceased atk: 5 | def: 9.5 | dam: 6.5

Colt :: Pegasus :: 17hh :: 3 HP: 65 | Buff: ENDURE

Odd

03-29-2015, 02:14 PM

I can feel myself shrink with the weight of her words, and the accusation they seem to hold. So your parents must not be around much. I want to scream that she must not be around much if she doesn't know them. I want to stomp my hooves, and shake the gold-splattered mare for all of her silence and grimacing. Who are they to simply tear off the strips of cloth that I have been using to hide my inner turmoil, and reveal my wounds to the world?

...not around much...

If only they knew.

I try not to react. I bite my tongue, hard, to keep from saying something that I will regret. I am a prince after all, and even though I am crumbling inside, I must remain strong on the outside. I know that Father would.

"Father keeps the herd safe. " I reaffirm, justifying his absence in my life. "Everyone in this herd is his family. I don't need his protection and his watch, and so he gives it to others." The words make Father sound noble and brave, and I try to believe them. In truth, I am just selfish. I want him to love me more than the rest of the herd. I understand that I do not deserve to be protected more than anyone else simply because I am his son but ... but sometimes I wish things were different. "And Mother ..." A wistful smile crosses my lips as I force myself to see her in the best light as well. "Mother has been gathering resources for the academy. Have you heard of it? They already have teachers lined up from all other herds. Mother has been gathering herbs and other resources that will aid in teaching." My voice falters at the end, but I try to hide it. I try not to mention how sparse she has been lately, but it is difficult.

"It's fine. I don't need them. I have-" I was going to say Ivezho. But I don't even know if that's true anymore.