Greetings and threats

[OPEN] Greetings and threats

Ranjiri the GoldenShade Posts: 372

World's Edge Mare atk: 4.5 | def: 8.5 | dam: 6

Mare :: Hybrid :: 16.0 :: 5 HP: 62 | Buff: NOVICE

Mara :: Common Rougarou :: Shadow ali

04-18-2015, 11:22 PM

Ranjiri</style>
in this world full of people there's one killing me
and if we only die once i wanna die with you</style>

"He what?"

I was angry with myself for not being able to keep my mask in place and pretend like everything was okay when it wasn't. I just wasn't strong enough to do it, which meant that everything Gaucho had said about me being strong on our patrol wasn't true. I wasn't strong. I just wasn't. I was too soft hearted, too emotional, loved too much, and became too attached to everyone in my life even if they weren't around much. I should be numb to death having witnessed my brother's death only a season or two before, but watching my dad die left me with as many raw and bleeding wounds to my heart as Hototo's death had caused.

I felt sick to my stomach and there was nothing that I could do or think that would make me feel any better. Even Gaucho putting his wing around me and pulling me close didn't help, not like it had on our patrol. It only served to make the tears flow more freely and it occured to me that my mother had marched off to war. What if she did not live through it? What if I lost her, too? What would I do? I couldn't just keep losing everyone I loved. I hiccuped and pressed my cheek against Gaucho's shoulder to avoid his gaze.

"Dad..." I whispered. "...dead. My dad's dead." I wished that the ground could just swallow me whole because I was tired of feeling so helpless. There was nothing I could do to protect my dad, nothing I could do to try to save him when his body hit the ground. I could only stand there and watch him. I could only scream and cry. There was nothing I could do. Nothing. Nothing

"Lightning... he was flying and it hit him and he fell. And he's dead." I felt like a sobbing child and on top of everything else I was feeling that frustrated me. "I want to go home."

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