You did not break me
I'm still fighting for peace

Hooves crunched as I crossed over the hard, frozen ground. Wearily I looked around, this place is so strange, so unfamiliar. The trees were snow covered and close around me. The path I was on was not very big, but I fit well enough. Wandering was something I knew how to do, something I did often. It didn't matter where I ended up anymore. Thoughts floated through my head, thoughts that were no longer welcomed.

'Mommy, where are you going?' I had asked my mom so long ago.

'It's going to be OK sweety. You never let anyone break you OK?' That was the last thing she had said to me. My last memory that was OK and not horrible. My last memory that didn't give me nightmares almost every night. The sounds of her screaming, asking for help, but no one willing to face my sire. These are the things that haunt me, that make me not trust anyone.

If only life was easy. If everyone wasn't out to hurt others. Sighing, I closed my brown eyes, and tilted my face upwards. Snow was lightly falling all around me, it felt so cold, but so good when I felt like I would never be able to feel anything at all. The cold was better than being numb. Sometimes the numbness felt good though, it made life easier to handle.

The ghosts that seem to follow me were quiet tonight. They liked to remind me that I can't be happy. That nothing will change and everyone around me will die one way or another. And those who don't die are evil in a sense. They tend to only care about their well being, even if it means hurting others. I've never felt any other love after my Haru died. Its been so long since I've even been around another equine, or anything other than my thoughts for that matter.

Sighing again, I looked up at the starry sky as I kept walking on the narrow snow covered pathway. It was a misty blue- dark blue with a misty tint to be exact. The clouds were dark, almost black, filled with the snow that's yet to fall. I shook off my grey coat, letting the snow that had accumulated on my back fall back to the cold snowy ground. I finally really focused on where I was. The pathway led to an open field, one that was pure white. The trees were nearby, but I now stood in the middle of this field. I could not see anyone nearby, even though it didn't exactly feel safe. Slowly I walked over to the other side of the field where a few trees were before the actual tree line. I let me body brush up against a snowy tree that looked almost as dead as my cold heart felt. Looking around to make sure no one was near, I slowly lowered my body to the ground. A little rest couldn't hurt right? Not like it truly mattered.

But you won't see me fall apart
Cause I've got an elastic heart