Somewhere in the boy's mind he had for some reason expected to be punished for overstepping what he was allowed to do. If he had a father maybe things would have been different and he wouldn't feel like he was missing half of himself. Everywhere he looked he could see other youngsters with both their parents and they looked happy, he wanted to feel like that. He loved mother with all his heart but it just wasn't the same as if he had both parents to love. Hiding in his own shame the boy was scared to look back up to what we would find on Kaj's face. If he could he would shrink himself down to the size of an ant and just hide, but obviously that wasn't possible so pretending as if no one could see him was the next best thing. In those few moments that he had taken comfort in Kaj he had felt as if things would be alright again, that there was no reason to be afraid anymore and that he was safe. He had been saved from the snow because of him, he made the darkness go away. The influx of emotions was confusing and he really had no idea what he was supposed to feel.

As a few moments of silence passed it was the soft masculine voice that had reassured him when he was afraid that managed to draw him back to the surface. It's Okay.. Hearing what he had thought it would be the actual words didn't sink in for a second or two. Hesitantly he slowly tilted his ears forward managing to sneak a look up to Kaj. What he saw there was not anger, or resentment... it was actually the exact opposite. "It's Okay." Repeating the sentence over again he actually started to believe it tearing his blue eyes away from the snow to look to Kaj almost questionly. Did he actually mean it? "I promise." If he said that surely he meant what he said right? Lifting his head slowly he looked over to see the stallions outstretched wing which brought tears to his eyes. Not wanting to be alone he stepped back to press his cheek against Kaj's warm shoulder once more as a single tear slipped from his eyes.

Minutes passed before he could manage to say anything, he wanted to thank Kaj for everything but when he spoke it wasn't what spilled from his mouth. "Kaj? Why did my dad leave us? Did he not want us anymore?" He asked softly, his voice shaking unsteadily as more tears fell from his eyes. Turning his head more into Kaj's shoulder he tried to get himself together. It had always been a burning question in his mind that he just couldn't bear to ask mother. He did not want to make her sad again, he wanted to make her happy but no matter what he tried to do it was never enough to stop her tears. They may not have fallen before him but he had felt the warmth against his back where mother rested her head at night. When that happened he only tried to curl into her embrace further not knowing what else he could do.


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