How To Save A Life

[OPEN] How To Save A Life

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Outcast atk: 3.5 | def: 9.5 | dam: 7

Mare :: Equine :: 15.4 :: 7 HP: 67 | Buff: NOVICE

Hikari :: Common Kitsune :: Fire nickel

#14

09-21-2015, 09:53 PM (This post was last modified: 09-21-2015, 09:54 PM by Brisa.)

It had always felt satisfying to help those in need whenever possible but somehow this experience had been one of the most rewarding. Not only had both mother and daughter lived but she felt as if she had made a couple of new friends along the way (that she was sorely lacking). Watching Astra approach Tembovu she couldn't help but smile at the size difference of the pair. At this age they were so curious and open to seeing new things, too bad some seemed to lose it as they got older. That being said it would also depend on personal experiences as well with everyone being completely different. Her twins had a rough start to life making things a little more complicated with them but overall they still were curious little devils that seemed to run off at the first sight of something interesting. It might have been easier trying to chase after only one but when there was two you wished that you could split in two to ensure they didn't get too far or into too much trouble. Despite trying to avoid the parts of this she couldn't help but feel the guilt of not being there when Levex had disappeared to avoid it ever happening. It had happened sometime during the night when she had dozed off for a few minutes only to find those minutes were her fault. She should have been able to stay awake but she had failed, she had failed all three of them.

Looking up as Astra ventured away from the stallion only to fall on her butt before staring up at her with what seemed to be joyful amusement, she couldn't help but find a similar smile turning up her lips. Wickering softly she reached out with her muzzle to the young girl only to have her leap up and land in a puddle. Shaking her head she just laughed to herself wondering how it was foals could be so clumsy but at the same time do things that just should not be possible for them to do. If only she could have half the energy she would be set for life with more than she could ever use at one time. In a way they reminded her of rabbits in the way they could dart off at the blink of an eye, run around playing for hours, fall asleep and be good to go after a quick snack and a nap. Nature sure did have its ways of designing things so uniquely well with the gods surely playing a part in it all.

Flicking an ear as Whisper started speaking of her horrible experience with losing Astra's twin she couldn't help but be thrown back into her eternal pit of despair. As she spoke she felt her heartbeat increase and the terror start to spill back over her at the very memories. Inside she felt like closing up and just dying to forget the pain but she couldn't therefore it was something she had to live with tucked away from sight. Startling ever so slightly as she felt something drape across her back she snapped her eyes up to find Whisper by her side. Her words were spoken from the heart making them all so much harder to bare. She had definitely hit the nail on the head drawing moisture to her eyes as a single tear slipped from her eye. No, she would not cry, no this was a happy occasion where tears were not necessary! Fighting back the rest she somehow managed to keep it together with much difficulty as her breath caught in her throat. Not trusting herself to speak she managed a grateful nod hoping Whisper would know how much she appreciated it. The sister she never had.

Having nearly reached her breaking point already she felt like bawling when Tembovu added in about knowing what it was like to lose a child. She had been there, she had dealt with it (not really) she felt the excruciating pain that made you feel numb to the world. She had not only lost one but multiple making the pain hurt beyond repair. There is no one to turn to for help, you are all alone. You feel as if your life is over, the world has ceased to exist, you are alone as alone can possibly be. The pain does not go away, it does not fade away, it stays deep inside you as a reminder that you are broken beyond repair. Life continues to move on around you but you don't notice as you are frozen in time, lost to the pain. Feeling another tear fall from her eye she brushes it off trying to get herself back from this praying that there is enough strength to do it yet again. By this point she felt as if her heart was being yanked from her chest and her lungs collapsing from the pressure leaving her breathless. Closing her eyes for a moment to try and focus on breathing she manages one deep breath and then another helping to return blood back to her brain. All around her there is silence as they all try and cope with all their losses. Reopening her eyes which are still watery she feels that she should at least contribute something given what each of her friends had shared. "As do I." She replied after many minutes her voice soft and shaky from her internal struggle. "I don't think it ever gets easier but you get stronger, eventually. It makes it easier to move forward but you never forget."Ok now she really felt like running away, running away from the pain, the memories and herself. If only it would work, if only for a few moments, anything would help at this point.

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