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[OPEN] Quiver (Odd)

Myrrine Posts: 179
Deceased atk: 5.5 | def: 9.5 | dam: 5.0
Mare :: Pegasus :: 16hh :: 3 (Orangemoon) HP: 64.5 | Buff: NOVICE
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Myrrine
lifes too short to live simply







Was she even fit to call herself a mother? Her lashes fluttered languidly at the thought, hooves stained onyx walking with the utmost grace against the bitter chill that fell upon the steppe. How often had she spoken to her child that she had birthed nearly a year ago, then suddenly left to others to care for while she had been tucked away into her own musings. She had been present physically; following the motions as a mother should of feeding her little lamb, sleeping next to her to keep her warm at night, and keeping a close eye on their surroundings as the butterfly child had wandered and played. But had she really been her mother? Was she the one that she went to for a shoulder to cry on? Had she watched her learn about how this big world worked with each passing day that those gangling legs grew and those splattered wings had blossomed? She'd be a liar if she claimed she had. Those chores were for those who didn't have the tragic thoughts that she did day in and day out, of the impending doom of most likely living a miserable life on her own; for the father of her child was not the man she loved, and her lover had been gone for who knows how long.

Woe was she for living such a life of misfortune; to be nestled away in the loving arms of the Edge with those she had loved dear, while her daughter would explore without her knowing, and honestly did she really care? She did. She knew she did, because the thought of not loving her baby caused bile to raise in the mare's throat was she continued onward up the rigid slopes of the forming mountains. She would always love Laume. She knew that deep within her soul that she would die to protect her from anything that might come and harm her. But she had failed in the support department, leaving her child to raise herself emotionally by herself. All alone. Just. Like. She had. It nearly knocked the wind out of her as this epiphany came forward and her legs had nearly crumpled to the earth; because she had done exactly what she had striven not to do.

How many nights had she spent so alone in the cold wishing for someone to love her? For her to feel validated, acknowledged, like she was something perfect in this world. She had done exactly that in a different way to her painted leopard girl, only it had to have hurt worst; watching your mother stand by as you hurt inside. There was no justification for her actions, no retribution for the sins she had committed to herself and her little family. She could feel said sins crawling along her back now. It was only when a clatter of leaves swirled about her complexion did she finally leave those dark thoughts behind her. A new mission clearing into her mind as she seemed to look for her destination. The Earth God had asked her long ago for a favor, one to help ease her pain and to give her something that would make her feel whole again. It was almost heartbreaking that becoming a mother hadn't done that for her. Perhaps if it were under different circumstances it would have.

Yet never would those words escape her lips, and never would she tell Laume that she was not loved. Because she was, even if it hadn't been shown to her. And no matter how many times she cried to herself at night over the guilt that clawed at her conscience would she ever say that she regretted the foal being born. She hadn't regretted the result; she had regretted the actions that caused it. The fact that it was usually the opposite for most was what she found to be ironic. She at last slowed her pace as she neared the crest of one of the many sloping hills, her mind losing focus from the task at hand as she yet again buried herself in pasts that she shouldn't be reliving. Myrrine always seemed to be a secret masochist. Only when she scanned her surroundings did she finally take what seemed to be her first breath in awhile, before facing the task of looking for a stone as cold as the north.

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Messages In This Thread
Quiver (Odd) - by Myrrine - 10-22-2016, 09:38 PM
RE: Quiver (Odd) - by Isopia - 10-24-2016, 10:52 AM
RE: Quiver (Odd) - by Myrrine - 10-24-2016, 11:21 PM
RE: Quiver (Odd) - by Isopia - 10-25-2016, 09:32 AM
RE: Quiver (Odd) - by Myrrine - 10-26-2016, 10:53 PM
RE: Quiver (Odd) - by Isopia - 10-31-2016, 11:20 AM
RE: Quiver (Odd) - by Myrrine - 11-01-2016, 05:15 PM
RE: Quiver (Odd) - by Isopia - 11-01-2016, 08:54 PM

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