even absence is gone

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06-09-2013, 11:45 PM

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There was something silent about the snow that made me want to talk. I wanted to whisper secrets into the moon and walk over and over scripted words in the snow. I wanted the gray night to hear me. I wanted the stars to listen. The colors bled away and left me the carcass of winter to live in. I was dwelling in the hilly collections of trees, wandering aimlessly as nighttime failed to put me in a dream. Everything just died after the sun set, and I wanted to find some good reason to find hope in the stars. The dark never captured me, but I was beginning to realize that it wasn't so hard to see. There was no effort in the darkness. No one could see your face as you wished you could weep to the sun about your inflictions, but he still desired to fill every ugly crevice of your face to show you there was something you needed to hide. You could squint against him and turn your head so that he could warm your backside. But that was really all I could ever do with the sun in my company.

The ink of night wrote me stories, dotting all of the Is with sparkly amulets of our ancestors above. They were there to listen to the fables of the now. They could understand, they just couldn't tell you they could understand. I'd only ever trusted the rustling sea's beautiful roar, screaming inspiration into my ears, making it clear to me that I could still be someone. I was younger then, and I wasn't willing to do anything but dream. I dreamt of better situations when the only "better situation" were the ones I was living. But the sea was my first acquaintance, and his tides told me stories of wars, of passersby, of the exchange of racism. They told me how protection proved only to lead to underestimation. They taught me how to realize the complications between myself and my mother. It was a beautiful acquaintanceship. I was so far from him, however I could remember the foamy spittle of his passionate fable. I could still learn from him.

I was still yearning to learn.

Absorbing was what I did best. I could soak through the saltiest waters and taste the purity in the nuances of life. I knew that there was still nothing I couldn't do. But in this night what I knew was challenged by comprehension. I was close to no one. There hadn't been a friend in my life in years to turn to and all of this misunderstanding had built and crystallized accumulating a massive stockpile of guilt. It has always been Raimo, my past, and me and I'm realizing it's unhealthy.

Even in the cold I was promised to always look for a light of hope.

mama told me when i was young
come sit beside me, my only son
and listen closely to what i say
and if you do this
it'll help you some sunny day

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even absence is gone - by Peixos - 06-09-2013, 11:45 PM

RE: even absence is gone - by Hana - 06-10-2013, 07:57 PM

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