The first to give me a greeting was my Sultana, Kri the Resolute. Her look of concern gave me a tender feeling in my chest. It had been too long since I had received such a look, and it definitely took a toll on me.
"Sultana...I...I was taken, by the Basin...but I don't remember why. I have been there for so long. I was tortured, beaten...then I was released."
Suddenly, the words of those I loved ranged through the air, slicing it so quickly that I didn't have time to think. It was instinct that I moved towards my mate and daughter, feeling them come towards me. I was so happy that I cried, and we shared a moment of reverie; I remembered all the good times I had had with them, the moments I had shared alone with Cherie, and went our daughter was born…
Then it was over.
My daughter walks towards Kri, looking at me with disgust. For a moment, anger flashes in her eyes, and I’m surprised. Her mangled speech reaches my ears, and I understand. Of course she’s mad at me. They probably thought I’d abandoned them, just simply walking off making a silly promise. I can’t help but fill with sadness, thinking it was my entire fault. How terrible of a father and lover I must have looked, coming back with no a single scar on my body, but jabbering? The wild look in my eyes could mean anything, and I didn’t want Aiko to hear a word of what I had to say. She was too young…what was she…four? Oh god, she was four months now. I had missed a whole season of her life, when she just getting to be a bit bigger. Cherie gives me a similar look, and I ponder what I should tell her. Everything, eventually, but what now? I whisper to her, so Aiko won’t hear.
“I’m sorry, so so sorry. I’ll…I’ll tell you everything later, just not in front of Aiko. Please, believe me, I didn’t leave you. I would never, ever do that to either of you.”
I look back a her, and I know I’m going to get another look for that, but what else am I supposed to do? I bend down, reaching out for her.
“Aiko. I’m sorry. Daddy had to do something, and it took him a really long time to get back. I can’t tell you, because it’s a secret…do you understand?”
I look a Kri, hoping she’ll understand my actions. Aiko can’t know, at least not yet. I don’t want her to find out the way of the world quite so soon.
OCC: WHOO 200TH POST
Also my heart broke while typing this post x.x
@[Aiko Darleane]
@[Cherie]
@[Kri]
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