A lifetime of changes lay before the young fae yet still her mind wandered through the trenches of the past unable to forget the horrors that left her the way she was today. Was it really possible to let go of everything and just start over as if yesterday never existed? She had heard of others speaking as if it was possible but for some reason she could not see how. Maybe it was just something that only certain individuals could do, she mused silently to herself as she wandered along slowly lost in thought. It had not been too long since she had discovered this place that appeared to be shrouded in darkness. Here she had managed to find somewhere to call home, worlds edge, it had been here that she had met the first souls who seemed to welcome her without really knowing her. When she had set out this morning, maybe the darkness made things impossible to tell what time of day it actually was, but she had aimed to possibly familiarize herself with her home but had gotten lost in the process.

So far she had managed to keep her nervous energy in check but the further she got from anything familiar the stronger it pulled at her will to keep it down. Destrier had told her that the borders would become familiar and recognizable but so far she noticed nothing obvious. Flicking her ears around she listened for anything alarming while scanning the area to find anything that may lead her back home again. If only she had some sense of direction she thought hopelessly, then at least she would have a chance. Continuing forward the white mare walked with slight hesitation wondering if it might be a better idea to just stay put, but that could mean something else might appear in this strange place. Nothing would surprise her at this point but honestly she wasn't sure she wanted to know what all lurked under this cloak of darkness. Well the one advantage to having her current frame was that there was not any excess flesh on her carcass that would provide any sort of appetizing meal to anything wanting a feast. Her bones were still quite prominent on her thin figure from her earlier hardships and so far she had not been settled enough to put much effort into correcting this. Again it was just a reminder of her nightmare, that would forever be a part of her.

Emotion tugged at her heart at the thought of everything that she had lost, her family, her home, her dignity and most of all her unborn child. She had never imagined having any sort of attachment to the product of rape and terror but strangely enough there was still the pain of loss that surrounded the situation many months ago. In many ways she still ached painfully from the ordeal never having recovered from the shock of reality. If only that second brute hadn't come along to leave her near death and bleeding, maybe then she would have gotten to experience something she never knew she had wanted until it was too late. Her physical wounds had scabbed over by now but the mental wounds still ached tirelessly. Shaking her head to clear away the emotion she forced her hooves to move onward not wanting to stop and surrender the distraction to let it all fall apart. In a way she was glad she had managed to get lost so that no one had to see her this way but in the other sense she wished she could just reassure herself that she had something to live for now, if she could ever find it again.


TAGS: Open
MUSE: Good
NOTES: Sorry for rather crappy starter, will definitely get better XD