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@[Harmony]
- Feel free to do anything along the lines of attacking her, as long as it involves no killing. -
[PRIVATE] Second Chances are Possible [Harmony]
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09-13-2013, 11:25 PM
@[Harmony] - Feel free to do anything along the lines of attacking her, as long as it involves no killing. -
09-14-2013, 01:02 PM
Doubt had crept into my mind with every moment I spent away from the Assassins. Happiness was replaced by depression. Company replaced by lonely nights. Ever since Antheia had left me I have been a wreck. Not knowing where my clefts will lead me, or where I want them to. Maybe I should fulfill my dreams? Maybe I should find a new herd? Make a good friend... Have children? Who knows. Antheia left me, so she could fulfill her dreams, I suppose. I was simply holding her back from what she has ahead of her. But when will she ever want me again? Never? Soon? So many questions, so many mingled feelings plague my heart and soul now. As I spend every chilly night without one to warm me. Without one to wipe away the tears that leave long, endless trails of wetness down my cheeks. My days and nights are spent alone. As, all who I have ever loved decide to restrain from me, give up on me. Tonka, Chemical, Antheia, my original family, Kahlua. So many, many beings that have pushed away our relationship to find someone new. But, the one that ached the most was the thought of Antheia. The way she cruelly left me battered and alone in this large land. With a young heart and soul plagued by a demon. I am one who needs company, needs help. Although, she must not be willing to give it. At first, we where all fine and dandy. It seems I knew it was to good to be true. Our love for each other was strong, seemed to be unbreakable. But, she like al the other's, gave up and moved onto something better. To most, I am useless. I have no crown upon my dome, no bird wings that spring from my shoulders, no. I am simply, boring, not interesting, useless.... The voices of the being who spoke these words linger through my mind, playing over and over as I remember them. Each thought tugs at one of my delicate, fragile heart strings. Though, there are also thoughts that lighten my day, it seems the evil ones over rule these. Take them over, poison them. What is wrong with me? I do I seek, and wish for death now? There has been so many good moments, I should be able to remember them, and they should rule, right? But no, no no no. I dream of the time where this suffering ends and a light leads way to a happy and joyous life, where I can be whole again. Be only me, not me and Raven. Just me. Is it possible though?
I walk through my fields, memories flashing before my pools, glazing them over as I walk lifelessly through the tall wheat like, withering grass and beautiful flowers. I feel as if there is no beating heart in my chest, I am simply a hollow log, longing to be chopped up and used for something better. To end this hell. To become one not like me. To put the pieces back together in the puzzle, to stand back and look at the beautiful image I have created. Am I leading these thoughts? Is he? It's all become a useless blur, not even worth it to fight against him or tell him no. All it is, is a down ward spiral. So hard to revive yourself and throw your limbs into an upward spiral. To fight against whatever it is that is pulling you down, down, down. Down so far until you have hit rock bottom. From there you can only go up, but how? Can't you just stay there, mourning over yourself and what you have become till' finally you starve to death, ending your miserable life and putting you out of the everyday pain? Yes, why yes you can. I have been there, for oh so long. Waiting for one to revive me but it seems I have waited too long. I just want it to end. Now, right here. But how? I hear my name being called, and see the silhouette of a unicorn, coming over the ridge and making it's way towards me. Rubbing my cheek on my left front leg, I wipe away the tears. Taking a deep breathe I compose myself to mask my depression and speak kindly to this being who knows me. Only until the being let's the moon shine on it's pelt, is when I know who it is. I suppress a small gasp, noticing it is Antheia. How dare she call for me, when she has put me through hell? How dare she? Her bodice is sleek, stopping at her swollen abdomen. I take a step forward, my orbs blazing with fury, I fight myself not to let him take me over, if I did, she would be laying here in a pool of crimson. Clearing my throat, I plead to whatever is above me to let me sound strong. " Ye-es? " Whatever I pleaded to, they didn't listen. My voice cracks, shaking under the pressure of a thousand tons, or so it seems. All I can do is turn my dome so my orbs don't meet hers, and to hope she doesn't notice the tears welting in them, falling, and the soft patter they make as they fall to the ground. " What do you want from me, darling? To rip me apart once again? " My voice is now stronger. I turn to her, letting her see the pain and fury in my orbs, the tears running down my cheeks. Flexing my muscles, I snort as a tear runs into one of my nostrils. Stamping my front left pillar, I talk on, not giving her time to speak. " Do you know the hell your putting me through? Leaving me out here to cry myself asleep every night. To wish and dream of death? To hope that I don't wake up the next morning? It all started with you, Antheia . " My voice was nothing but a small whisper, my voice weak again as I spoke of my feelings. More and more tears poured from my sockets. She doesn't understand, no. { Sorry for the dramatic, long post. I have too much muse <33 @[Antheia] }
09-15-2013, 09:07 PM
@[Harmony] - Feel free to do anything along the lines of attacking her, as long as it involves no killing. -
09-15-2013, 09:29 PM
It surprised me, how she was begging for me, when it seemed just days ago I was begging at her clefts. Her words where truly heartfelt though, I could tell by the look in her orbs. Tears started to roll down my sorrel cheeks once again at her sorrowful words. Taking a step forward, I forgot the past. Taking another step, I buried my maw in her locks, a large sigh escaping from me. I then drew away, so I could lock my orbs with her pools. They were full of regret, kindness, and most of all, un-breakable love. Before I spoke, I touched my maw to hers.
"Mother... How I love you. How I have missed you. You, y-you need to promise to never leave me again. Every day I was tempted to take my own life, although I don't know how. Every night was spent alone, cold... Full of nightmares. This is hell for me, Mother. Promise never to leave me again. " My voice was shaky, full of truth and sorrow as I spoke on, my orbs still locked with hers. When I finished, it seemed I thrusted my large frame at her. Leaning into her, many large sobs escaped my kissers as I recalled everything I have been through being without my darling mother. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. The soft patter as they hit the soil seemed to keep a steady beat, sometimes interrupted with the ones of Antheia's. I rubbed my cheek bone on hers, a loving gesture. I then lowered my dome, pressing it against her hefty chest. " Don't cry. Don't be sorry. Don't upset your blessing" As in blessing, the small child that lay in her stomach. Something truly special awaiting to be born into this amazing world. My new best friend. A new soul to which I can bond with. Slightly giggling, I stretched my maw to her stomach, nuzzling it, and light massaging a small area with my kissers, I whispered to the soul inside. " Young rascal, I can't wait to meet you..." @[Antheia]
09-22-2013, 07:53 PM
@[Harmony] - Feel free to do anything along the lines of attacking her, as long as it involves no killing. -
09-23-2013, 09:02 PM
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