The delight of traveling holds me in it's grips. Part of me desires to stay an outcast and continue to roam as I have done for most of my life in the past, but I am already heavily connected to the Dragon's Throat. I may not be a member yet, but I believe Africa is beginning to trust me. Whether that is my mind creating stories for me or the truth, I do not care. I just want to believe the one-winged mare believes in me. I would stretch the story to say that she loves me how she did when she brought me to her home the first time, but that is a huge stretch. In fact, I get the feeling she hates me quite frequently.

Destry and I slept in the Rotunda last night. It was a peaceful night, and I long for every night to be like that, yet I do not think it can always be like that. Even a little outcast like me has duties that make it impossible to be relaxed every night. After today, I need to get me ass in gear. I've told Africa that I may be able to get Gaucho back into the Throat, and that is what I aim to do. I also wish to begin recruiting horses for the Dragon's Throat. I would attempt to show the World's Edge that I am not a threat and do not wish to be one, but I've already lost their trust completely. They said I could give Shilva a proper burial and I will, but my only concern is that they will not respect her cadaver. Will they feed her to the bitches of the land? For some reason, I see the little fireball, Resplendence, being the one to dig up her corpse. I see Kaj giving it to the dogs. I never really knew Kaj, so I am not upset by his hate for me. He has no reason to like me, so that is understandable. However, Resplendence shouldn't hate me this much. I helped her with her terrors, yet that seems forgotten. I understand why the rest of the herd hates me, though. I do not blame them.

The Hidden Falls also hates me, most likely. I did burn most of heir members. I am not proud of that, and if I could, I would go back into time and fix this. I'd fix all of it. I would be more at ease if I knew most of Helovia didn't hate me. I quite possibly only have two friends-- Destry and Mauja. I can't help but feel awkward when I think of Mauja. I had told him that I loved him, and then I found Destry and now we are mates. Maybe I still love Mauja? Is it possible to love two horses? I'd rather nott think of Mauja anymore. He is too hard to find, and I believe if Mauja and I were mates, I would be constantly worried, and I would fear that he is with-holding information from me, be it his feelings or something else. Destry, however, I feel perfectly fine with. I am not worried that she hides things from me.

Destry speaks to me after we've landed in the Veins of the Gods and we both smile. Yes, this is the time. Let's pray. Please, gods, come be our audience today. She hopes the gods can hear her silent prayer.