[Royal SS Drop] Beach day

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[DROP] [Royal SS Drop] Beach day

Rhoa Posts: 175

Deceased atk: 5 | def: 9.5 | dam: 6.5

Colt :: Pegasus :: 17hh :: 3 HP: 65 | Buff: ENDURE

Odd

#28

12-26-2014, 01:35 AM

.....

Rhoa

I belong anywhere but inbetween.

I waited ... and waited ... and waited .

When I sang my song, however pitiful and sad it was, I felt something. It was .. I don't know how to explain it. Now you might think that if you can't explain something then you can't be certain of it. And that's just wrong (but don't ask me how I know that). It was just like ... like this feeling. It felt big, and warm, and wanting and I just knew the egg wanted more. I was certain of it. So I tried. I did the best I could and ... well I thought that it was alright. (I wouldn't say anything outloud, but I think it was better than some of the other stories that were told. I mean, how boring were they? Haven't they ever heard of a little artistic license? Some rhetorical flare?).

Only... only now I don't feel anything, and it's the not-feeling that's the worst. I don't feel empty, I actually feel full. Full of anxiety and despair and blackness. The lack of wanting from the egg makes me feel even more alone now. I tried, I really did. Maybe my story was bad and I should feel bad but .. I didn't know what it wanted! I'm still young! Why doesn't anyone understand that?! Why doesn't that count for anything? The bird-lady said to be brave. WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN. DOES IT MEAN GOING THROUGH LIFE ALWAYS ALONE?

MOTHER IS GONE.

FATHER IS GONE.

IVEZHO IS GONE.

WHATEVER THIS IS IS GONE TOO.

I hate the world (I don't actually, but I'm feeling fairly dramatic now and so I let myself think that I do). All of this is just... just .. unfair.

I feel like crying but I won't. I try. I go out of my way to meet people and what happens? I get yelled at for something Father's done. I try and comfort this egg and what happens? I get ignored for the next best thing that comes along. I try and help out in the herd and what happens? I get given the baby-tasks to do like I'm some chump.

Well you know what Helovia?

EFF YOU.

I'm out.

Love Rhoa.