.svg/2000px-Google_Chrome_icon_(2011).svg.png){kind=icon}
03-01-2015, 12:43 AM
A z a n e e n but oh my dear a guardian angel is always near Time and time again, I wandered with clueless eyes. Which had me traveling upon terrains that were not that of the Edge, where I belonged. Where I should stay until I better myself. Though my burning hooves danced with a fire that did not fuel on rage but on pain. I walked to relieve the pressure, to run from the past that constantly crept upon me. I traveled within my aching mind on a road all too familiar. The heartache isn't as bad anymore, of course I still feel the shards of my heart ripping my innards, but my mind has left a sane place. No I've not gone insane but I'm not here. I'm no longer responding. I'm controlled by this fueling ache. I feel as if I am a ghost walking with no purpose. I am numb and cold. I feel bitter and tasteless. Life is not the same without them and if this is how I have to come to terms with it, I will accept it. This is far better than the tears that choked me every night before. All those cold liquid balls that hardened my fur, that fell upon the ground and splattered upon the grass. I could hear the screams that shattered as they slammed down. I could hear every bit of my inner thoughts coming alive with those tears and it was haunting. Worse than their memories. I cannot explain this. I cannot pretend that I didn't leave them behind because I did. I did this to myself. For if I had stayed and defended them, protected those I loved perhaps more could have lived, or I would have fell with them. I wouldn't be alone like I am. I wouldn't feel the disappointment that stains me. I can hear their screams, I can feel the terror, I can feel my hooves that thundered across the terrain.. away from them. And here it is. The flash back. I am stopped in mid walk where ever I happen to be. I can feel a cold sweat begin to lather my hide. My body is stunned. I am running, running in my mind, I am fearful. I am turning my head. I am seeing their faces. I am hurt. I am pained. Though no tears begin to fall. I can only feel the bitterness inside me shaking the terror from my mind. What is this feeling? What am I becoming? Why did they lie and say that it gets better with time? Why have I become so distant? What is wrong?... OOC;; You are welcome to say you see her or continue to find her invisible within the trees. I'm creating this as she does not hear or see them as she travels in her aching mind and then the next I will have her reveal herself unless you happen to like said, have your character see her. :) TAG;; @[Romani] |
- table by Niki -
