I guess I was sort of the last to show up, or if not the last, definitely among the last. I hadn't been worrying much about the Edge as my mind had been a bit fucked as of late. But the snow was falling, the seasons had changed, and I couldn't allow myself to dwell on the adversaries combating my mind.
So I rode the winds back to the Edge, to the duties and responsibilities that awaited me there.
—But should I be here at all?
Quit it, of course I should.
—Traitor. You're no better than your father.
QUIT.
I swallowed a lump forming in my throat, descending unto the meeting in which I had been beckoned to. Every step I took now felt perfidious, digging the knife I had stabbed my sister with farther and farther into her back. I looked around at the faces I barely knew, the names and lives that eluded me. Wasn't I to be their princess? The Elephant King had dubbed me so.
But I felt treacherous in their presence. If it wasn't for my mother, standing by the King, then I would not have stayed. But she was there, a new constant in my life, and her presence alone was enough to sedate my doubt. I could not abandon this place as long as she was here, I knew that much.
So I stayed, lingering at the back of the herd, waiting for things to get juicy, and watching my smoky exhales in the meantime.
uhmm I hope auri doesn't develop schizophrenia whoops idk what that was >.< sorry if I'm late!!
She is far away. She...she is far, far away from me.