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[PRIVATE] Light and Solitude.

Ryouta Posts: 30
Outcast atk: 4.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Stallion :: Pegasus :: 16.2hh :: VIII HP: 62 | Buff: NOVICE
Tai
#1
良克
Ryouta
The morning greeted me with a chill, silently announcing the departure of summer.  Soon, the grasses would faded into ugly brown shades, the leaves would bade a colorful farewell, and the world would grow quieter for a time.  I care little for the passage of time, for each season bleeding into another marks only the growing fragility in my body.  I come no closer to peace.  I come no closer to healing.

A pale, cold light rises over the horizon, coloring the sky in pastel hues reminiscent of spring.  The pale yellow mingles with a delicate pink, breaking into the lightest blue I had ever seen.  Rarely, so rarely, had I ever lingered long enough to watch the sunrise.  This occasion marks the first for Helovia, the new land I have found myself in.  I cannot say what encouraged me to stay within its borders, only that I have nowhere else to go.

Unlike many refugees, I left no beloved behind.  I left no family, no children.  I left no friends, no comfort in my exit from Eikkahn.  Instead, I only left relieved sighs in my wake.  The land I had grown in, lived in, flourished in - it rejected me like a failed organ.
The funny thing is... I don't give a fuck.

Perhaps, the only regret would be leaving her grave behind.  Deep within the forests of old, buried beneath a tall oak tree, her skeleton rests in the earth.  Every day, even the fragments of her existence rot into nothing.  There had been times when I visited to speak to the air, a madman hoping for solace where they would be none.
It had been years since my last visit, years since I believed myself worthy to step into her unseeing gaze.  Like poison defiling the earth where I walked, my soul had been sullied far too much to linger near such a pure memory, even fragmented as it was by time.

Now, staring off into the eastern sky as the blinding sun begins to burst upward, I wonder what became of that tree.
Whether or not Daa'hn had burned it to the ground with his pointless war.
He likely had.  Sooner or later, Eikkahn would be nothing but a scorch mark on the map of the world.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

I blink, turning away from the sun, and begin walking steadily toward a stream that cuts across the northern end of the vast meadow, dying grass stretching out in every direction as far as the eye can see.  I come to stand at the edge of the shallow stream, staring into the crisp, cheerful waters.
My face holds no cheer - just a blank stare.
""



ooc -- Sorry this opening post is so terrible.  :P  Hopefully, it will get better.
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誰がこの心のために殺されことを非難するのですか
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Volterra the Indomitable Posts: 785
Dragon's Throat Sultan atk: 8.5 | def: 11.5 | dam: 8.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 17'2hh :: 3 HP: 80 | Buff: SENSE
Vérzés :: Common Red Dragon :: Frost Breath & Toxic Breath & Vadir :: Royal Gold Dragon :: Fire Breath & Shock Breath Snow
#2


YOU'VE GOT THE WORLD ON ITS KNEES, YOU'RE TAKING ALL THAT YOU PLEASE

Gladiator.

The word sits oddly upon his tongue, as does the notion of a herd. All his life, the leviathan has been a free man, beholden to none. Now...now he is like everybody else.

Strangely, though, adjusting has not been as hard as he thought. The searing Throat heat is not as bad as he feared, thanks to Orangemoon taking over from Tallsun, and he has to confess that the herd is....pleasant, in its own way. It is home, for now at least, so the beast is doing his best to force aside his prejudices and embrace his new duty.

But old habits die hard, and he cannot help but wander the unclaimed lands of Helovia with the same vigour that he always has. He is simply not a man created to spend his entire life around others of his species - he needs his own space, to marshal his thoughts and converse with his dragons. Unusually, today both dragons are with him; the red rising on his hindquarters and studiously cleaning his gleaming crimson scales, whilst the gold soars lazily beside her bonded on leathery wings, enjoying the rippling power of her own body.

As he has left the Throat to get away from the presence of other horses, he is certainly not looking for company. When he sees a winged stallion staring into the middle distance, Volterra contemplates turning around and moving to graze elsewhere before the male sees him. Competitive and arrogant as he is, the beast does not tend to appreciate any socialisation with others of his gender, preferring the company of women whom he can either bed, add to his harem, or both.

Still, now he is a fully-paid-up herd man, he supposes he needs to get that bit more social. So, with a resigned sigh, he moves towards the smaller male, drawing alongside him but enough of a distance away for them each to have their own space. "'Lo," grunts the behemoth, his body language neutral, if not overtly friendly. "That stream seems to be of great interest to you."



Yes please if you don't mind! :D Do you? @Ryouta

[ you can't stray from what you are, you're the closest thing to hell i've seen so far  ]
[ use of force/magic on him is permitted aside from death/maiming ]




Ryouta Posts: 30
Outcast atk: 4.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Stallion :: Pegasus :: 16.2hh :: VIII HP: 62 | Buff: NOVICE
Tai
#3
良克
Ryouta
I hear him, but choose not to turn my attention toward the approaching hoofbeats.

They are calm and steady, not the sound of a rushing attacker.  I hope they do not approach, so attempt to look busy.  I remain watching the bubbling, chirpy surface of the cold waters.  I imagine the stream to be some distant run off of the mountains, carrying with it the chill of ice.  I stare and stare, hoping that I would fall into the waters and drown in the some few inches depth rather than deal with someone else in an otherwise peaceful morning.

I am not so lucky.

Lo.
Ah, so it begins.

I turn my head, looking at the larger stallion with a blank gaze, an empty face, a nonchalance.  His black frame is painted with ivory mimicking a skull.  I think, judging by the glimmer of crimson, it is probably fitting.  Some beast, more obvious than most, coming to greet me.  I am not afraid, for I do not fear anything these days.  If he were some reaper come to collect me, drag me to the pits of hell to roast for eternity, I would not be surprised.

The sad attempt at conversation makes me believe he is simply a fierce looking man.  Mortal, possibly dangerous.  I sigh.  Yet again, no death comes for me on this day.  I am getting used to such disappointments.

"Aye," I say, my voice just as empty as my expression.  "It keeps better company than most."  One might assume I am joking, but I find nature to be much less invasive, annoying, and idiotic than the general population.  He would not find a shred of sarcasm in my voice, not the hint of humor.

"What has you out and about so early?" I ask, though there is no curiosity in my tone.  I do not really care, but I am finding conversation will exist around others whether I care for it or not.  When I am some faceless stranger in this realm, no one avoids my presence, no one shies away from my approach.  I am no one.
They do not fear a nobody, clearly.
""



ooc -- Please :)
誰がこの心のために殺されことを非難するのですか
Dare ga kono kokoro no tame ni korosa re koto o hinan suru nodesu ka?
Image credit to fOtOmoth at flickr.com


@Volterra

Volterra the Indomitable Posts: 785
Dragon's Throat Sultan atk: 8.5 | def: 11.5 | dam: 8.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 17'2hh :: 3 HP: 80 | Buff: SENSE
Vérzés :: Common Red Dragon :: Frost Breath & Toxic Breath & Vadir :: Royal Gold Dragon :: Fire Breath & Shock Breath Snow
#4


YOU'VE GOT THE WORLD ON ITS KNEES, YOU'RE TAKING ALL THAT YOU PLEASE

He gets the distinct impression that perhaps this stallion is as wary about Volterra approaching him as the beast was about doing the approaching. This could well be a short meeting, if neither of them are the sociable type. It keeps better company than most, says the other male of the stream; Volterra gives a small snort of amusement. He is quite inclined to agree - a steam will not answer back. "You have a point there." The goliath looks away for a moment, contemplating the stream in question, before glancing back to his companion.

The stranger asks what has him out and about so early, and the giant hesitates a moment before replying. It would seem....antisocial of him to admit that he left the herd in order to escape from company, which inadvertently thrust him into....well, company. So he simply shrugs his powerful shoulders, glancing between the other male and the surrounding landscape. "The confines of a herd can be rather, well, confining sometimes. I needed some space, and to clear my thoughts." This is as close to the truth as he can get without directly confessing that he finds it hard to be around other horses every hour of every day. He is a man who is used to his own space, having had the freedom to go where he wanted for the first three and a bit years of his life. Now he has to share his favoured grazing and sleeping spots, now he has to help other herdmembers rid themselves of their flies instead of focusing on his own; it is selflessness that he is unused to.

He will grow used to it, though, of that he is quite sure. It is just...difficult. He needs to adjust if he is ever to claim the crown he so desires - he has to adapt to survive.

"And yourself?" Smalltalk is not usually the giant's style, but he has little else better to do today, and perhaps it will do him good to socialise with somebody outside the Throat.



@Ryouta

[ you can't stray from what you are, you're the closest thing to hell i've seen so far  ]
[ use of force/magic on him is permitted aside from death/maiming ]




Ryouta Posts: 30
Outcast atk: 4.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Stallion :: Pegasus :: 16.2hh :: VIII HP: 62 | Buff: NOVICE
Tai
#5
良克
Ryouta
You have a point there.

The faintest hint of a smile finds its way in the upturn of my lips for a moment.  So, he understands, at least a little.  I found respite in nature often, for it was one of the few things in the world that never pestered, never pried into my subconscious.  The world, despite all the wrongs that accompanied my life, remained pure and clean in the dull light of morning.

I watch him from the corner of my eye as he shrugs, as if a weight rested on those powerful shoulders.  He soon revealed what that weight was - a herd.  I nod, as if to show him that I understand the problem with herds.  I do, to a certain extent, though my time within them had been brief at best.  Before my binding covenant with Daa'hn, I spent most of my life as a nomad, staying nowhere for long.  Most of my memories of herd living had been bloodied and torn apart, ruined by the reality that life often came to an abrupt end.

The offer Lyanna had extended to me in the Threshold, to journey to her home in the World's Edge, came to mind.  Even now, I do not regret telling her politely that I had no interest in stepping into a herd land.  Despite her promise that aid would come unhindered and unpaid, I felt the opposite would be true.  Nothing is truly free, and even this man before me, a skull for a face, is testimony to that.  Having to seek the Wilds to clear your thoughts, to find yourself, to be rid of the nattering of others - I do not envy him.  I want nothing more than solitude, or so I believe.

You can be so stubborn, Ryouta.

I shake the fog from my head as he asks of me my own purpose.  Slowly, I turn my muddied face to look at his own.  "I have no herd," the words are not tinged with sadness, no regret, just fact.
"I find it easier that way."
I feel the need to interject this here.  While I doubt this man has any intention of extending an invitation to whatever place he calls home, I take no chances.  Others I had met in Helovia seem hellbent on extending an unwanted helping hand when you just want them to bugger off.  However, one of those hands had saved my life, so I cannot be entirely ungrateful or cynical.
Well, I shouldn't be, but who would I be if not a cynic?

"Promises of loyalty, like much in this world, are often just chains to drag you into your own grave."
""



ooc -- Sorry for the wait!
誰がこの心のために殺されことを非難するのですか
Dare ga kono kokoro no tame ni korosa re koto o hinan suru nodesu ka?
Image credit to fOtOmoth at flickr.com


@Volterra

Volterra the Indomitable Posts: 785
Dragon's Throat Sultan atk: 8.5 | def: 11.5 | dam: 8.5
Stallion :: Equine :: 17'2hh :: 3 HP: 80 | Buff: SENSE
Vérzés :: Common Red Dragon :: Frost Breath & Toxic Breath & Vadir :: Royal Gold Dragon :: Fire Breath & Shock Breath Snow
#6


YOU'VE GOT THE WORLD ON ITS KNEES, YOU'RE TAKING ALL THAT YOU PLEASE

I have no herd. I find it easier that way. A wan smile spreads across the behemoth's jaws at his compatriot's words. Oh, he knows that feeling so well. How long had he avoided the confines of a herd for the sanctity of his own freedom? How often had he shirked invites, abandoned friends, all because he loved his outcast life so damn much? For over three years, it has simply been him and his dragons. Save for his mother and sister, anybody flitting into his life had been temporary, hardly remarkable. He relied on himself to survive, and nobody else.

It hadn't been an easy life, by any stretch of the imagination. For a prey animal like a horse, surviving alone takes considerable guile and good fortune, and lesser men would have crumbled long ago. Instead, Volterra thrives on the challenges that roguehood offered him. He learned to sleep with one eye open, always watching for opportunistic predators or any other assailants. His dragons had been a considerable help, with their sharp senses and aerial prowess, but he likes to think that he could still have managed even without them.

Nostalgia grips him like a vice, and not for the first time, freedom calls out to him. He could just leave. Like this man before him, he could stay an outcast. Live by his own rules, his own laws, his own timelines. Answer to nobody but himself.

But he can't. He owes Sikeax more than that; he owes himself more than that. He was born to rule, and he cannot rule nothingness.

"I was like you, for many years." In the back of his mind, he wonders why he's admitting this much to a complete stranger. It is not like Volterra to willingly share emotions, but the words simply flood out of him. "It is a hard life to give up. Enjoy it while you can - you never know when fate will intervene and alter your path to something you never expected." He never thought he would live in the Throat; he always had his eyes on the Falls. He never thought he would serve beneath a woman, and certainly not a former lover. He never thought he would follow at all, come to think of it - he just assumed he would march onto a throne, despite having no prior experience.

How wrong he was.

The man speaks again, a passionate defense of his decision to live alone. Volterra raises an eyebrow, interested by the point that the older stallion puts across. "That is a rather cynical viewpoint," he rumbles. It is not a criticism - no, there's genuine interest in the goliath's thunderous tones. "I would be inclined to agree with you, except I find that certain types of loyalty can benefit rather than hinder. Loyalty given freely is worthless, but when it is earned....it has its uses." And that is deep, by Volterra's standards.


[ you can't stray from what you are, you're the closest thing to hell i've seen so far  ]
[ use of force/magic on him is permitted aside from death/maiming ]




Ryouta Posts: 30
Outcast atk: 4.5 | def: 9 | dam: 6
Stallion :: Pegasus :: 16.2hh :: VIII HP: 62 | Buff: NOVICE
Tai
#7
良克
Ryouta
Like the ringing of a death knell, a smile creeps across the skull face of my company.  It is a strange expression, one that fills me with no sense of joy, not a touch of sunlight on a cloudy day.  One that seems tinged with the mourning of something lost - or someone.

I cannot say for sure.  I know nothing of his past, only the present image before me.  Still, the ring of familiarity echoes within my mind, as though I am looking into a warped mirror at myself.  Despite my best attempts to avoid connections with others, I cannot deny the invisible bonds between myself and the occasional stranger I meet.  What motivates my own flat nature might be wholy different, yet the ending result is the same.  A hollow smile, a hollow gaze, a hollow voice.

He confirms my suspicions.  Against the odds, I find a comrade in the wilderness and pale light of morning.  One word clings to my ears, like gossamer threads of a spider, light and persistent: fate.
I could scoff internally at the word.
Fate.
I hated the idea, the notion, that we are dragged by preordained chains into our future - the alternative thought being you are in control of your own life.  Perhaps more terrifying than fate and destiny, that I could have changed my life by my own will and actions.

Would I have felt such loss if I had not been a weak coward?  Could I have saved her, saved them?  Might I have saved myself entirely?

I blink the thoughts away in one swift fall of my lashes, listening to his words yet strangely choosing to ignore them.  The reality of my current position is clear as day, even in the dim light of early morning as the sun races to fill the sky.  There is no bargain, no advantage, no offer great enough to force my allegience to some king and his bloodied crown.  I had already done such in the search for revenge, but it left myself more broken and corroded than when my journey began.

I have experienced the loyalty of which he speaks.  Maybe my age will begin to show, yet I know full and well even the trust earned can be broken as easily as flesh.  The curve of my lips upturn as he calls out my cynical view point, but I am not inclined to change my perspective.
One day the ice would melt, but it is not today.

"I am a cynic," I admit, my voice flat and unmoved.  "That is well earned in my life, more so than any loyalty."  Do I speak of my own losses or my own actions?  Both have rendered someone devoid of trust, I suppose.  I knew the nature of a creature pushed into a corner, and it is ugly in its kindest description.  I also knew of the lengths to which another will go for loyalty.

I may be a cynic, but I am learning that to be alone is better than to be a puppet for malice and murder.  
""
誰がこの心のために殺されことを非難するのですか
Dare ga kono kokoro no tame ni korosa re koto o hinan suru nodesu ka?
Image credit to fOtOmoth at flickr.com


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