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01-21-2013, 04:29 AM
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Something is falling away inside of me, and for a moment I fear that we are two halves of one whole, with one destined to always feel the other's pain. But would I have it any other way? Of course not. Still, all I can do if hold her close to me as she cries, and the tears streaming down her face bring a lump to my throat. No, I tell myself sternly. You must be strong for her. Slowly, the tears begin to fall more slowly, the shaking begins to subside. Still, I do not lift my wing; if anything, I pull her closer to me, or try to. Proximity seems to make you stronger when you feel weak, or so it always worked for me. I might not have tried it with Phaedra, who was more skittish by nature, but with Rowan? Why, she is practically a part of me, and so I do not hesitate. "Oh, Row..." my lyrics are a sad whisper, and I press my face into her mane for comfort. Hers or mine, I cannot say. Her fears are all too real, I realize, and for a moment, I am overcome with guilt. Guilt for everything I have that she wants, everything that I cannot simply give her. Guilt for Phae and Levi, guilt for Note, guilt for the babe that rides within me. But I cannot reverse it, would not even if I could. And for that, too, I am guilty. But I will not falter, not now, not when I am so needed. And so I pull my face away, nudge her cheek gently, and speak fervently. "Now, you listen to me, Rowan: I will not leave you. It doesn't matter if it's just me, or me and a mate and 20 foals, it just... it doesn't matter. You are my best friend, Rowan. You're the first horse I've ever met that made me feel right. You gave me a home. You helped me find a direction. You did that for me. You." I pause, take a deep breath. My voice is laden with emotion, thick with unshed tears. "I am not going anywhere. I'll always be here if you need me. Or even if you don't. I don't care. I'm here. I promise." |
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| Sohalia Don't wanna leave this life knowing I barely tried... |
