[[I know, she's so emotional. She's like, completely broken down right now.]]

Mauja brushes his velvety nose against my cheek, catching the clear and salty tears. For only a moment I feel his warm breath against my skin before he withdraws. He begins to speak, and, and then it comes out. The worst sentence I could ever hear.

"I just don't feel that way for you."

The last syllable slips out and I crumble immediately. My heart was a precious thing, and now it was shattered into millions of pieces. Mauja had destroyed it. Crumbled it into dust. I feel my knees bash together before I collapse, falling into the soft snow. I sob, choking on my own tears. How was I supposed to recover?

Probably not.

I was already scarred. All these emotions caused even more of my emotions to burst out. My nose was dug deep into the white permafrost, the tears slowly sliding down my cheeks. My forelegs rested under me while my hind legs stuck out to the side. I twitch my legs as the cold slowly creeps up them. I could just flop onto my side and sit there for hours until all of my inner organs collapse. Or I could go and demand that some one pierce me through the heart. Something to rid me of this pain. More tears slip from my eyes, sliding down my face. I couldn't bear this. If Mauja didn't love me I would die. I'd kill myself one way or another.

If Mauja didn't love me, could I ever see him again without it being awkward between us? Probably not. I want to fade into the darkness of the night. Allow myself to never be seen again. Yes. I would love to do that. But I couldn't. I wanted to stay near Mauja. But how could I face him after this?

I glance up, staring at him from below. My blue eyes flicker, tracing around his body. This was the stallion I had fallen in love with, but he had never loved me. Why had I been so foolish as to think he did love me. Why did I have to blurt it out, why hadn't I just kept my love to myself? I feel the tears flow down my cheeks quicker now. I slowly place my focus back on Mauja's hooves, burrowing my nose in the cold snow. I couldn't live any longer. Slowly I raise my muzzle, my lips quivering. "Kill me. Kill me now. Please." I begin to beg him, looking into his eyes. The tears welled up and trickled down slowly. If there was nothing good in life there was no point in living. I hope to feel Mauja's hooves brought down on my skull. Feel the last bits of my blood and tears trickle out slowly before my heart stops beating and I die.