I'm thrown back into the past, far back. When I had first met Descaro. I had really loved him, and I thought he loved me. But he never truly had. I had been stuck in this situation so many times. It was pitiful. You think I would've realized my mistake the first time. It was like a trap that you would always get stuck in, and I was that stupid mare who got stuck in it several times. Images flicker through my head as I recite the thoughts had had first thought when I had met Descaro. "Child. Children. I want a child." I murmur to myself, reliving the moment. Descaro stood there, all my brain could think of was "I love you" and "I want a child." I blink, my lashes catching falling snow. I lift my head up, hearing Mauja's voice.
His voice seemed distant, coming closer and closer with every beat of my heart. "Leyra please don't do this, just.... just get up okay?" His voice seemed right beside me now. Slowly I get up, almost in a trance. My knees wobble as I force myself to get up, almost falling a few times. Why does this seem so familiar? I search deep within my memories that had long been placed on a shelf to collect dust. Ahh! When I first came here I was so beaten up. I trip forward, falling towards Mauja. My balance was still a bit off, and my wobbly legs didn't help whatsoever. I stare up at Mauja, my body red with embarrassment and my tears streaking down my cheeks.
My weakness is that I care too much,
And my scars remind us the past is real
I tear my heart open, just to feel