Isopia was feeling feels. She felt cagey, angsty, angry.

She felt unjustifiably betrayed, used, tricked.

She felt the manipulative side of her personality warping and twisting events, hiding the truths between the cold shadows of her logic. She hadn't ever felt anything for Volterra - the phenomenological aspect had been mis-categorized. The warmth she felt in his presence? Mere hormones. The rush in her gut, in her belly, the tightening and throbbing at the back of her throat which made her simultaneously want to scream and cry out in joy (or at least whatever Isopia felt that was near joy) - it was all just chemical explosions in her body.

The things she felt didn't map onto real events. It was like her body was hallucinating - misaligning feels with horses. With Volterra.

He is nothing to me- (because I am nothing to him) (You're a liar. You love him--) love is for the weak.

This schizophrenic argument continued in her mind, in her heart, in her soul. Blindly Isopia flew, throwing her amazonian-sized body through the air, beating her wings frenetically and paying little to no attention to where she was flying. It was to the Riptide isles, in fact. A place where she felt mildly comfortable. Isopia landed, her legs shaking and her flanks lined with sweat, but she barely felt it. As a cool breeze billowed past her, her body shivered and Isopia reveled in the frigid sensation. She wanted the cold, wanted the hurt.

If only so her mind could focus on it, and not the painful constricting in her heart. Because deep down, despite her logical fallacies to the contrary, Isopia knew precisely what had happened. She had been reckless, had fallen in love, had allowed her emotions to mask the reality of the situation. It was what had gotten Hototo killed - it was the misfortune that heralded her existence - and here she was repeating those egregious errors. 

Here she was being sad, about a boy - being a pathetic girl when she had a world to save.

She should have felt disappointed in herself, guilty, full of regret. But she didn't - because despite her massive body and godly appearance, she was just a girl. 

A girl who had just learned that love came fast and cheap.

@Nymeria